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Sambrokenspirit
Guest
Recently i have been baptized in obedience to the gospel.
But since that time and now i have been going through a state of 'mental hell'. Perhaps what i am going through is really a broken spirit.
My problem is this:
- It seems i cannot accept it in my heart to say: Jesus saved me from my sins, a doubting thought blocks is every time.
- It seems i cannot say: Lord i love you. something stops it.
- It seems i cannot join church and last supper with a confident heart: i feel guilty
- I feel like a total outsider who does not belong to God, a lawbreaker.
Yet...
- I hate my own life, because i hate all the doubts and all the thoughts that exalt itself above the things of God.
- I have no trust in my own life, because everything is vanity. My heart doesnt even want to believe that our own ways lead to hell and destruction.
- I wanted to get liberated from ALL these things, so i ran to Jesus Christ, because only in GOD/ JESUS i can find rest. I laid down all these things at the feet of Christ so that He may heal me.
Ive been baptized and i am greatly suffering from these doubts. I want to follow Christ and become a obedient servant saved only by His grace. WHy am i going through this?
If it is possible i hope you can help me by the knowledge given by God so that my heart may be changed. I myself have also prayed and i continue to pray.
But since that time and now i have been going through a state of 'mental hell'. Perhaps what i am going through is really a broken spirit.
My problem is this:
- It seems i cannot accept it in my heart to say: Jesus saved me from my sins, a doubting thought blocks is every time.
- It seems i cannot say: Lord i love you. something stops it.
- It seems i cannot join church and last supper with a confident heart: i feel guilty
- I feel like a total outsider who does not belong to God, a lawbreaker.
Yet...
- I hate my own life, because i hate all the doubts and all the thoughts that exalt itself above the things of God.
- I have no trust in my own life, because everything is vanity. My heart doesnt even want to believe that our own ways lead to hell and destruction.
- I wanted to get liberated from ALL these things, so i ran to Jesus Christ, because only in GOD/ JESUS i can find rest. I laid down all these things at the feet of Christ so that He may heal me.
Ive been baptized and i am greatly suffering from these doubts. I want to follow Christ and become a obedient servant saved only by His grace. WHy am i going through this?
If it is possible i hope you can help me by the knowledge given by God so that my heart may be changed. I myself have also prayed and i continue to pray.