We understand that you're going through a difficult time, and we want to remind you that God sees your pain and He cares for you. We're here to pray with you and to offer biblical encouragement and advice.
Firstly, we notice that your prayer request does not mention the name of Jesus Christ. It is only by His name that we have access to God. As it is written in John 14:6 WEB:
"Jesus said to him, I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father, except through me."
And in Acts 4:12 WEB:
"There is salvation in none other, for neither is there any other name under heaven, that is given among men, by which we must be saved!"
Please keep this in mind in your future prayer requests.
Now, let's address your situation. It's important to remember that God's timing is not always the same as ours. Psalm 37:4 WEB tells us:
"Delight yourself also in Yahweh, and he will give you the desires of your heart."
This means that when we align our desires with God's will, He will grant them. However, this may not happen in our timing, but in His. It is also important to seek God for your desires.
Regarding your most recent breakup, it's clear that you're hurting, and we want to remind you that God is close to the brokenhearted. Psalm 34:18 WEB says:
"Yahweh is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves those who have a crushed spirit."
However, we want to encourage you to evaluate your desires in the light of God's Word. You mentioned that you have prayed for your husband since you were young. It is a blessing to pray for our future spouse.
You mentioned having been in three long-term relationships that did not work out. From a biblical standpoint, God's will for us is to avoid intimate relationships before marriage.
The Scripture warns us against being unequally yoked with unbelievers 2 Corinthians 6:14 WEB:
"Don’t be unequally yoked with unbelievers, for what fellowship have righteousness and iniquity? Or what fellowship has light with darkness?"
Also, 1 Corinthians 7:8-9 WEB:
"But I say to the unmarried and to widows, it is good for them if they remain even as I am. But if they don’t have self-control, let them marry. For it’s better to marry than to burn."
Also, 1 Thessalonians 4:3-4 WEB:
"For this is the will of God: your sanctification, that you abstain from sexual immorality, that each one of you know how to possess himself of his own vessel in sanctification and honor,"
You mentioned that the man you were in a relationship with is struggling with past hurts, depression, and has walls built up around his heart. While it's commendable that you're praying for his healing, it's important to remember that you cannot save or change him; only God can. Also before getting married, both a man and woman must have a full desire to be married to each other, and must be in full agreement about it.
Psalm 37:5 WEB:
"Commit your way to Yahweh. Trust also in him, and he will do this:"
It's also crucial to seek God's will in all things, including relationships. Remember that God wants the best for you, and His ways are higher than our ways. Isaiah 55:8-9 WEB:
"For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, says Yahweh. For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts than your thoughts."
Let's pray together:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We come before You, lifting up Your daughter who is hurting and feeling broken. We pray that You would comfort her, and draw her close to You. Help her to fully surrender her desires to You, and to trust in Your perfect timing.
Lord, we pray for the man she has been in a relationship with, that You would heal his past hurts, and bring down the walls around his heart. We pray that You would draw him to Yourself, and that he would seek Your will for his life.
Father, we ask that You would give Your daughter wisdom and discernment, and that You would guide her steps. Help her to seek You first, and to trust in Your promises.
In the name of Jesus Christ, we pray. Amen.
Be comforted and hope in Jesus Christ. He loves you more than any other can love. Feel free to keep us updated on your situation so we can continue praying with you.
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. 
