We have heard your heart and we are lifting you up together before the Lord in Jesus name, seeking His will for you in this difficult season. We thank you for sharing so honestly with us and we want you to know that your courage in stepping out after years of not working because of anxiety is seen by God, and He is not distant from your panic and confusion. You prayed and God opened this door, and now you feel humiliated and afraid, wondering why He would allow you to be put to shame when you trusted Him. We want to assure you that God has not put you to shame and He has not abandoned you in this workplace trial.
The Word tells us, In nothing be anxious, but in everything, by prayer and petition with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your thoughts in Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:6-7. And also, casting all your worries on him, because he cares for you. 1 Peter 5:7. For God didn't give us a spirit of fear, but of power, love, and self-control. 2 Timothy 1:7. What you are experiencing, spending the whole day in a state of panic and confusion, is very real and painful, and God invites you to cast every moment of that fear on Him because He cares deeply for you. He says, Don't be afraid, for I am with you. Don't be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you. Yes, I will help you. Yes, I will uphold you with the right hand of my righteousness. Isaiah 41:10. And, Yahweh is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves those who have a crushed spirit. Psalm 34:18.
We understand the added pain of making mistakes and hearing coworkers talk about you. That humiliation cuts deeply, but your worth before God is not measured by your performance on the job. Whatever you do, work heartily, as for the Lord, and not for men. Colossians 3:23. We encourage you to continue to do your best as unto the Lord, and to humbly seek help where you can, perhaps asking a trusted supervisor for clarity on tasks or for grace as you are still learning, and seeking godly counsel or wise support for your anxiety. God does not shame His children. The psalmist says, Yes, no one who waits for you shall be disappointed. Psalm 25:3. If this job becomes a place where you are let go, that is not shame before God, it is a circumstance He can still redeem.
We gently want to correct the thought that God allowed this to shame you because you trusted Him. He allows trials not to humiliate us but to refine us and draw us closer to Him. We know that all things work together for good for those who love God, to those who are called according to his purpose. Romans 8:28. Count it all joy, my brothers, when you fall into various temptations, knowing that the testing of your faith produces endurance. James 1:2-3. Sometimes a blessing from God still includes a difficult season of learning and dependence on Him, and His purpose may be to show you His strength in your weakness, to teach you to lean on His peace day by day, and to lead you to the next step He has for you, whether that is remaining in this job with His help or opening another door.
We also noticed that your request mentions God and prayer but does not mention the name of Jesus Christ, and we want to lovingly share that it is only through Jesus that we have access to the Father. Jesus said, I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father, except through me. John 14:6. There is salvation in none other, for neither is there any other name under heaven, that is given among men, by which we must be saved. Acts 4:12. It is by believing in Jesus, that He died for our sins and rose again, and calling on His name, that we are saved and that our prayers are heard. If you have not already, we encourage you to put your full trust in Jesus Christ as Lord and Savior, and to bring every anxious thought to God in His name.
We pray together for you now.
Father, in the name of Jesus Christ we come before You and lift up this dear one to You. You see the years of anxiety, the hundreds of resumes, the hope when this job was received, and now the daily panic, confusion, mistakes, and humiliation. Lord, we ask You to pour out Your peace that surpasses all understanding to guard this heart and mind in Christ Jesus. Calm the panic, clear the confusion, and remind this dear one that You are near to the brokenhearted. Help them to cast every worry on You because You care for them. Give wisdom and steadiness for each task at work, give favor with coworkers and supervisors, and give words to speak if correction or help is needed. If it is Your will for this job to continue, establish their steps and help them grow in skill and confidence. If You have another path, make it clear and provide faithfully. Most of all, draw them closer to Jesus, deepen their trust in You, and let them know they are not put to shame when they wait on You. Show Yourself as their strength, their provider, and their comfort. We ask this in the mighty and merciful name of Jesus Christ, our only hope and Savior, Amen.
We encourage you to stay in prayer throughout the day, even with short breath prayers in Jesus name when panic rises, to meditate on these scriptures, and to reach out for personal support from a pastor, a trusted believer, or a counselor who can walk with you. God has not forgotten you, He is with you in this workplace, and He will continue to work for your good as you keep trusting Him.
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. Thank You for loving me, Jesus. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. God bless me to prosper, walk in excellent health, and never stop growing in the love, grace, wisdom, and knowledge of Christ Jesus. God bless me to know You in truth, fall in love with You with all my heart, mind, soul, body, and strength and never fall out of love with You. God, bless me to have an ever growing closer stronger, more intimate relationship with You. Bless me with the love, desire, strength, and the spirit of obedience to always delight myself in You, seek first Your kingdom, Your righteousness, and to always respect and obey You. Bless me to know You, the way You want me to know You. So that I will trust You with my life and anyway that You move in my life. Bless me to trust You with all my heart, lean not to my own understanding, acknowledge You in all my ways, and allow You to direct my footsteps and actions. Bless me with knowledge, wisdom, and understanding in all You have called me to do. 
