Justbecause5
Servant
Yes, there is power in prayer (James 5:16)!
The time is 2:33 AM.
Yes, I am a Christian and I believe in Christ in his name. I love God with all of my heart.
I appreciate any and all prayers on my behalf. Thank you for your kind words. Thank you for your prayers.
My wife left me three years ago in August 2022. I was in Texas starting a new job. She was in Alaska going to court with a lawyer that was lying and saying things that were designed to steal my children. I did not know what was going on. I was 5000 miles away.
In my wildest dreams, I never thought my beautiful wife would do these horrible things to me after all the beautiful things I’ve done for her.
I still love my wife, even though she has done terrible things to me. I pray fervently for her. In the last three years, I bet I have said over 1 million prayers on her behalf by name. I have asked anybody and everyone to pray for her and my family.
I’m not a perfect man, but I’ve always been a forgiving man. I stand prepared to forgive her. I always pray that God will bring her to her repentance. I have plenty with God to restore my marriage and turn my weeping into joy.
I still believe that God brought me back to Alaska. I had been praying for it. God orchestrated the opportunity for me to move back. Out of all the resumes that I sent all around the country, the only job offer. Our guy was in Alaska in the same area where I had left to move to Texas.
I have suffered tremendously since I’ve been back to Alaska. I have lost two jobs, really good paying jobs due to no fault on my own. I then had a job that was offered to me and then over the weekend. It was given to somebody else so, I have dealt with serious financial despair. It’s not easy finding a job.
So, I started doing gig work. I’ve done gig work in some way since June 16 of last year. Then I dealt with car issues. I had three blowouts. Then my van died and I had to rent a car for six months. Then the price of rental cars went from $28 a day to about $150 a day. My van was repaired and then it broke again just a few days ago. This time it’s the timing belt, which will probably cost $2000 to fix.
I am in the midst of the perfect storm. My back is up against the wall. My rent is due at $1500 a month but I have no way to make money. I can’t go and deliver food because my van is dead. I would like to rent a car, but it’s too expensive.
This morning is a crucial day. There are several things that I’m hoping I’ll be able to accomplish today. If things work like I hope, I will be able to rent a car tonight for about $640 for a week. Will give me transportation for a week and it will allow me to get laundry done and hopefully make more money to pay for the rental car and my rent.
A few days ago, I was determined to move to Hawaii. I had found a van that was just like mine, but newer and better. But the guy who owns it would not contact me. I was prepared to buy it. I was going to live in it and do gig work in Hawaii.
I believe firmly 1000% in the providential hand of God. I would not doubt for a moment if God did not want me going to Hawaii that he would shut that down or make it difficult. Maybe that’s why the guy did not contact me about the van. It seemed like such a great deal and opportunity.
I have not had a real job since June 16, 2025. That’s a long time to go without a steady weekly paycheck. However, somehow God has made me live. I have not lived in wealth or luxury, but I have survived this whole time thank you God for your provisions.
I am exhausted.
I am mentally exhausted, having suffered deep deeply with depression and sadness and at times hopelessness.
I miss my children incredibly. It’s so painful. I often dream about them at night and I wake up really sad. A few days ago I had a dream where by my son walked up to me and told me he loved me and gave me a hug. That sounds like a good dream, but when you wake up and my son is not there, it spirals me down into deep sadness. It’s kind of like dreaming you have $1 million and you’re so sure but then you wake up and you realize you have none.
I am not suicidal. But I have prayed fervently that God would take my life. I have prayed fervently that God would exchange my life for another person‘s life possibly someone who is recently passed. I do not say that to to seek sympathy rather I’m just expressing the deep deep pain that I have lived in for so long .
I will say this… I do feel like my love for God is stronger than it’s ever been. Of course, once say, God, I’m talking about the Godhead bodily.
In addition, I feel like my faith in God is stronger now than it’s ever been. Yes, my back is up against the wall right now. My van is dead in the parking lot and will probably never leave that place by my hands, but I am confident that Matthew 6:33 is true I am confident and somehow in someway God is going to do something. He’s going to step in and make something happen. He’s going to allow someone to make that phone call to me. He’s gonna allow something to happen. That’s gonna change my world for the good. I pray that and I trust if that’s gonna happen.
I love my wife. I miss her. I really do. I have often asked myself, why would you go back to someone? Who did those horrible things to you? When she just do it again the next time something doesn’t go her way? There have been times I have prayed for a wife, that guy would send someone special into my life that would truly love being care about me and never hurt me like that I will wait and see
I still would like to move to Hawaii. I have lived in Alaska now for nearly 6 or seven years out of the last nine years. It’s a beautiful place but the winners can be unbearable with -50°F days and deep snow and slippery ice and dark dark days. I recently went nearly 3 months without seeing the sun. The sun was there, but I mainly worked early in the morning in the nighttime when it was still dark.
I am so confident God brought me to Alaska. He could’ve taken me anywhere. The fact that God brought me here gives me strength that something’s going to happen. Again, God could’ve taken me anywhere. I did interviews in different places around the country. God could’ve opened any of those jobs for me, but he did not.
I even tried to get a job close to my dad‘s house. He just turned 83 and I would love to be close to him so that I could go over there and drink coffee with him or go over there and help him do some chores, etc., but God didn’t give me any of those jobs he could have. He could’ve opened any of them up, but he didn’t.
I am convinced every good gift and perfect gift comes down from the father of lights… That includes new jobs. That includes new things that we need to live this life. That includes relationships, etc..
Dear God, I want you to know that I love you with all of my heart with every ounce am I being. When I speak of God, I speak of the spirit and Christ. Dear God, please help me please help me to be strong, please help me by opening doors for me. You know what I need before I ask thank you, God God, please restore my marriage with my family. If you’ll be your will, I miss him terribly please comfort and strength to me.
Let us all continue to pray for peace and this whole wicked world. Let us pray for peace so that people can have opportunity to hear the gospel of Christ and obey the gospel and serve him and live with him for eternity.
The time is 2:33 AM.
Yes, I am a Christian and I believe in Christ in his name. I love God with all of my heart.
I appreciate any and all prayers on my behalf. Thank you for your kind words. Thank you for your prayers.
My wife left me three years ago in August 2022. I was in Texas starting a new job. She was in Alaska going to court with a lawyer that was lying and saying things that were designed to steal my children. I did not know what was going on. I was 5000 miles away.
In my wildest dreams, I never thought my beautiful wife would do these horrible things to me after all the beautiful things I’ve done for her.
I still love my wife, even though she has done terrible things to me. I pray fervently for her. In the last three years, I bet I have said over 1 million prayers on her behalf by name. I have asked anybody and everyone to pray for her and my family.
I’m not a perfect man, but I’ve always been a forgiving man. I stand prepared to forgive her. I always pray that God will bring her to her repentance. I have plenty with God to restore my marriage and turn my weeping into joy.
I still believe that God brought me back to Alaska. I had been praying for it. God orchestrated the opportunity for me to move back. Out of all the resumes that I sent all around the country, the only job offer. Our guy was in Alaska in the same area where I had left to move to Texas.
I have suffered tremendously since I’ve been back to Alaska. I have lost two jobs, really good paying jobs due to no fault on my own. I then had a job that was offered to me and then over the weekend. It was given to somebody else so, I have dealt with serious financial despair. It’s not easy finding a job.
So, I started doing gig work. I’ve done gig work in some way since June 16 of last year. Then I dealt with car issues. I had three blowouts. Then my van died and I had to rent a car for six months. Then the price of rental cars went from $28 a day to about $150 a day. My van was repaired and then it broke again just a few days ago. This time it’s the timing belt, which will probably cost $2000 to fix.
I am in the midst of the perfect storm. My back is up against the wall. My rent is due at $1500 a month but I have no way to make money. I can’t go and deliver food because my van is dead. I would like to rent a car, but it’s too expensive.
This morning is a crucial day. There are several things that I’m hoping I’ll be able to accomplish today. If things work like I hope, I will be able to rent a car tonight for about $640 for a week. Will give me transportation for a week and it will allow me to get laundry done and hopefully make more money to pay for the rental car and my rent.
A few days ago, I was determined to move to Hawaii. I had found a van that was just like mine, but newer and better. But the guy who owns it would not contact me. I was prepared to buy it. I was going to live in it and do gig work in Hawaii.
I believe firmly 1000% in the providential hand of God. I would not doubt for a moment if God did not want me going to Hawaii that he would shut that down or make it difficult. Maybe that’s why the guy did not contact me about the van. It seemed like such a great deal and opportunity.
I have not had a real job since June 16, 2025. That’s a long time to go without a steady weekly paycheck. However, somehow God has made me live. I have not lived in wealth or luxury, but I have survived this whole time thank you God for your provisions.
I am exhausted.
I am mentally exhausted, having suffered deep deeply with depression and sadness and at times hopelessness.
I miss my children incredibly. It’s so painful. I often dream about them at night and I wake up really sad. A few days ago I had a dream where by my son walked up to me and told me he loved me and gave me a hug. That sounds like a good dream, but when you wake up and my son is not there, it spirals me down into deep sadness. It’s kind of like dreaming you have $1 million and you’re so sure but then you wake up and you realize you have none.
I am not suicidal. But I have prayed fervently that God would take my life. I have prayed fervently that God would exchange my life for another person‘s life possibly someone who is recently passed. I do not say that to to seek sympathy rather I’m just expressing the deep deep pain that I have lived in for so long .
I will say this… I do feel like my love for God is stronger than it’s ever been. Of course, once say, God, I’m talking about the Godhead bodily.
In addition, I feel like my faith in God is stronger now than it’s ever been. Yes, my back is up against the wall right now. My van is dead in the parking lot and will probably never leave that place by my hands, but I am confident that Matthew 6:33 is true I am confident and somehow in someway God is going to do something. He’s going to step in and make something happen. He’s going to allow someone to make that phone call to me. He’s gonna allow something to happen. That’s gonna change my world for the good. I pray that and I trust if that’s gonna happen.
I love my wife. I miss her. I really do. I have often asked myself, why would you go back to someone? Who did those horrible things to you? When she just do it again the next time something doesn’t go her way? There have been times I have prayed for a wife, that guy would send someone special into my life that would truly love being care about me and never hurt me like that I will wait and see
I still would like to move to Hawaii. I have lived in Alaska now for nearly 6 or seven years out of the last nine years. It’s a beautiful place but the winners can be unbearable with -50°F days and deep snow and slippery ice and dark dark days. I recently went nearly 3 months without seeing the sun. The sun was there, but I mainly worked early in the morning in the nighttime when it was still dark.
I am so confident God brought me to Alaska. He could’ve taken me anywhere. The fact that God brought me here gives me strength that something’s going to happen. Again, God could’ve taken me anywhere. I did interviews in different places around the country. God could’ve opened any of those jobs for me, but he did not.
I even tried to get a job close to my dad‘s house. He just turned 83 and I would love to be close to him so that I could go over there and drink coffee with him or go over there and help him do some chores, etc., but God didn’t give me any of those jobs he could have. He could’ve opened any of them up, but he didn’t.
I am convinced every good gift and perfect gift comes down from the father of lights… That includes new jobs. That includes new things that we need to live this life. That includes relationships, etc..
Dear God, I want you to know that I love you with all of my heart with every ounce am I being. When I speak of God, I speak of the spirit and Christ. Dear God, please help me please help me to be strong, please help me by opening doors for me. You know what I need before I ask thank you, God God, please restore my marriage with my family. If you’ll be your will, I miss him terribly please comfort and strength to me.
Let us all continue to pray for peace and this whole wicked world. Let us pray for peace so that people can have opportunity to hear the gospel of Christ and obey the gospel and serve him and live with him for eternity.
