Justbecause5
Servant
There is power in prayer (James 5:16)!
My previous pro request got accidentally sent so I’m starting over.
In the summer of 2022, my job in Alaska was complete. My wife had tickets for her and my daughter to go overseas to visit family in mid September. I had secured a job and the boys and I were headed to Texas to begin the new job.
After the boys and I left Alaska, my wife hired an attorney and went to court. They convinced the judge that I had taken the boys across state lines. There was no mention of plane, tickets overseas, nor the fact that our job was complete in Alaska. I was not there to defend myself. I was 5000 miles away taking care of my sons and working.
In late September, 2022, my wife and a sister in Christ appeared at the school with legal authority to take the boys. I was in my classroom working. It was payday, finally! I was so excited to finally get things rolling because we had struggled so much waiting for the first paycheck. During my conference, the principal and HR lady came to my room and told me that the boys were gone. I immediately burst out into tears uncontrollably. It was one of the saddest moments in my life.
I have not seen my voice since then, nor my daughter. Every single day I live in deep sadness and depression. I am not suicidal, but I have pleaded with God to take my life. It seems like there’s no reason to live.
I plead with God to take me back to Alaska. God bless me with several temporary jobs that helped me keep my head above water. Finally, in the summer of 2024, God opened up a way for me to go back to Alaska. I sincerely believe it was the hand of God. When I think about it, it gives me hope to see the hand of God in action.
God orchestrated a move by giving me a job in Alaska as a teacher and coach. God sent me to California with a 30-day temporary job which turned into 60 days just before school started. The company that I worked with on a temporary basis paid for my first class ticket to Alaska. However, despite sincere efforts, I had no place to live or a car to drive.
I can still remember quoting second Corinthians 5:7 on the plane most of the way. I must’ve quoted it 500 times… We want by faith not by sight. We walked by faith not by sight…
The plane landed, and I had no place to go. I can still remember how hopeless I felt. A lady on the plane, she and her husband took me to the shelter. I have contacted the shelter, but I could never get a straight answer if I could stay there or not. They let me stay there. I lived there 4.5 months.
In my 21 months in Alaska, I have suffered and almost every way possible. I lost my teaching job on November 20, 2024 due to no fault of my own. It was a contract issue. However, the school had to pay my salary through the end of April 2025. But it was painful. I looked at teaching as a new career path and I would be able to get stability within 6 to 8 months. When the job ended, my stability also ended.
I have told the story about my time in Alaska many times on this thread begging for prayers. I have been homeless. I have lived in my van 28 nights. I lost two really good paying jobs. I lost another job that was promised to me and they asked me to start Monday but then they hired someone else over the weekend. It was exhausting.
I started doing gig work full-time. I got really good and it was able to replace my salary. But then I started having car issues. I had three blowouts in about six weeks. Then my front wheel bearings went out, and my van was stuck at a McDonald’s parking lot for 10 days. I then rented a car for like the next five months.
I delivered food and -49° weather. I delivered food everywhere in the hills, down snow field roads, moose, jumping in front of the road, etc. I had to pay the rent on the car and gas and then above that I had the money that I made.
I have seen several blessings.
I have seen incredible things in Alaska. I worked with Bertrandt for 12 weeks driving across Alaska and I saw incredible things for free. I saw the beautiful mountains. I saw Caribou standing in the road. I saw scores of moose, which are my favorite. I saw porcupine. I saw the northern lights, etc. etc..
God has certainly made provision for me in so many ways. I have suffered tremendously, but I also can count the blessings that I have seen. The fact that I’m still alive is a blessing of itself.
On December 29, 2024, I went to a mountain called Murphy Dome to worship God. I could tell it was going to be a beautiful sunset and so I went there on a cold, crisp day. It was -30°F or colder. I got out to take a video of Mount Denali and the beautiful sunset and I went back to my old van and it was locked. I could not get in.
I walked around the old van, hoping that I could find an entry, but I could not. I did not worry at first, but around the second time going around the van I tried to find a rock to break a window. I could only find some type of volcanic rock and it only lifted a scratch. I then decided to run down to the bottom of the hill and see if there’s anybody down there at that time. I could not feel my face and I was stuttering, which are signs of hypothermia.
I got down to the bottom and there were two beautiful women in an old but nice truck. I reluctantly walked over to their truck, not wanting to scare them and they ended up helping me get in my van. Looking back, I wondered if they were angels or if God had specifically placed them there to help me in my time of need. If they had not been there, I believe I would’ve been dead within an hour or so it was that cold and windy.
As a result of living at the shelter, and being a veteran, I ended up getting nine months of free rent. It was such a blessing also, as a result of living in an apartment in a $1 million house, the same lady later, let me live in her primitive basement for 4.5 months for free … all blessings.
Right now, I am facing great difficulty…
I have not worked a real job since June 16, 2025. I’ve been making my living doing gig work. Again, it was great until I started having car issues.
I began renting a car in November 2025. The prices were relatively cheap maybe $25-$32 a day. However, on June 6, prices will go up to $100 a day. I can no longer afford it.
The apartment I’m living in they towed my van in March. I guess they didn’t realize it was mine. I’m trying to get to the bottom of it, but I don’t think it matters at this point. When vehicles are towed, there’s an initial fee, it may be $200 or more and then a daily storage fee. So by now, it’s probably well over $1500 or more to get the car out.
The apartment is giving me a hard time because I got behind on my payments when I could not work. The owner of the apartment/hotel is being very ugly to me. Three days in a row he’s come to my apartment and harassed me and called me names and ridiculed me and mocked me if I was not a Christian, I probably would’ve knocked him out.
I’m not saying I handled myself perfectly because it’s hard. It’s hard to sit there and be verbally abused in front of everybody in the hallway. I have every intent of paying my back payments but right now I need a little grace. I tried to work something out with him, but he refused to work with me.
His wife came to my door a moment ago, and I could almost tell that she’s probably been verbally abused by him all their marriage. I’m thinking of moving out just so that she does not face any more abuse.
If I move out, I have no place to go except for the rental car. I’m so torn. I’m confident God will do something but right now. It seems like nothing’s being done. I’m pleading with God to help me.
I love my wife
My wife has done some horrible things to me. Probably 90% of men would have absolutely nothing to do with her based on what she’s done. But I know the power of God’s grace, mercy, and forgiveness. I stand prepared to forgive her and bring her and our family back together. I continue to pray and I bet I have prayed 1 million times for her that God would work in her life to bring her to attendance.
I miss my family deeply
I’m the kind of father that loves his kids and wants to spend time with them. I would rather go to the park and watch them. Have fun then do things that are for me. I would rather go to a park and go hiking with them then just go hike by myself. I love my children and I miss them terribly. I pray for reconciliation.
Dear friends, I am exhausted. Honestly, I can’t believe I’m still alive. I am not suicidal, but I have prayed fervently that God would take me. I pray fervently that God would send Elijah here to come get me.
Please pray for me
I need wisdom. I need guidance. I ask God to guide my steps. Time is of the essence.
Thank you
My previous pro request got accidentally sent so I’m starting over.
In the summer of 2022, my job in Alaska was complete. My wife had tickets for her and my daughter to go overseas to visit family in mid September. I had secured a job and the boys and I were headed to Texas to begin the new job.
After the boys and I left Alaska, my wife hired an attorney and went to court. They convinced the judge that I had taken the boys across state lines. There was no mention of plane, tickets overseas, nor the fact that our job was complete in Alaska. I was not there to defend myself. I was 5000 miles away taking care of my sons and working.
In late September, 2022, my wife and a sister in Christ appeared at the school with legal authority to take the boys. I was in my classroom working. It was payday, finally! I was so excited to finally get things rolling because we had struggled so much waiting for the first paycheck. During my conference, the principal and HR lady came to my room and told me that the boys were gone. I immediately burst out into tears uncontrollably. It was one of the saddest moments in my life.
I have not seen my voice since then, nor my daughter. Every single day I live in deep sadness and depression. I am not suicidal, but I have pleaded with God to take my life. It seems like there’s no reason to live.
I plead with God to take me back to Alaska. God bless me with several temporary jobs that helped me keep my head above water. Finally, in the summer of 2024, God opened up a way for me to go back to Alaska. I sincerely believe it was the hand of God. When I think about it, it gives me hope to see the hand of God in action.
God orchestrated a move by giving me a job in Alaska as a teacher and coach. God sent me to California with a 30-day temporary job which turned into 60 days just before school started. The company that I worked with on a temporary basis paid for my first class ticket to Alaska. However, despite sincere efforts, I had no place to live or a car to drive.
I can still remember quoting second Corinthians 5:7 on the plane most of the way. I must’ve quoted it 500 times… We want by faith not by sight. We walked by faith not by sight…
The plane landed, and I had no place to go. I can still remember how hopeless I felt. A lady on the plane, she and her husband took me to the shelter. I have contacted the shelter, but I could never get a straight answer if I could stay there or not. They let me stay there. I lived there 4.5 months.
In my 21 months in Alaska, I have suffered and almost every way possible. I lost my teaching job on November 20, 2024 due to no fault of my own. It was a contract issue. However, the school had to pay my salary through the end of April 2025. But it was painful. I looked at teaching as a new career path and I would be able to get stability within 6 to 8 months. When the job ended, my stability also ended.
I have told the story about my time in Alaska many times on this thread begging for prayers. I have been homeless. I have lived in my van 28 nights. I lost two really good paying jobs. I lost another job that was promised to me and they asked me to start Monday but then they hired someone else over the weekend. It was exhausting.
I started doing gig work full-time. I got really good and it was able to replace my salary. But then I started having car issues. I had three blowouts in about six weeks. Then my front wheel bearings went out, and my van was stuck at a McDonald’s parking lot for 10 days. I then rented a car for like the next five months.
I delivered food and -49° weather. I delivered food everywhere in the hills, down snow field roads, moose, jumping in front of the road, etc. I had to pay the rent on the car and gas and then above that I had the money that I made.
I have seen several blessings.
I have seen incredible things in Alaska. I worked with Bertrandt for 12 weeks driving across Alaska and I saw incredible things for free. I saw the beautiful mountains. I saw Caribou standing in the road. I saw scores of moose, which are my favorite. I saw porcupine. I saw the northern lights, etc. etc..
God has certainly made provision for me in so many ways. I have suffered tremendously, but I also can count the blessings that I have seen. The fact that I’m still alive is a blessing of itself.
On December 29, 2024, I went to a mountain called Murphy Dome to worship God. I could tell it was going to be a beautiful sunset and so I went there on a cold, crisp day. It was -30°F or colder. I got out to take a video of Mount Denali and the beautiful sunset and I went back to my old van and it was locked. I could not get in.
I walked around the old van, hoping that I could find an entry, but I could not. I did not worry at first, but around the second time going around the van I tried to find a rock to break a window. I could only find some type of volcanic rock and it only lifted a scratch. I then decided to run down to the bottom of the hill and see if there’s anybody down there at that time. I could not feel my face and I was stuttering, which are signs of hypothermia.
I got down to the bottom and there were two beautiful women in an old but nice truck. I reluctantly walked over to their truck, not wanting to scare them and they ended up helping me get in my van. Looking back, I wondered if they were angels or if God had specifically placed them there to help me in my time of need. If they had not been there, I believe I would’ve been dead within an hour or so it was that cold and windy.
As a result of living at the shelter, and being a veteran, I ended up getting nine months of free rent. It was such a blessing also, as a result of living in an apartment in a $1 million house, the same lady later, let me live in her primitive basement for 4.5 months for free … all blessings.
Right now, I am facing great difficulty…
I have not worked a real job since June 16, 2025. I’ve been making my living doing gig work. Again, it was great until I started having car issues.
I began renting a car in November 2025. The prices were relatively cheap maybe $25-$32 a day. However, on June 6, prices will go up to $100 a day. I can no longer afford it.
The apartment I’m living in they towed my van in March. I guess they didn’t realize it was mine. I’m trying to get to the bottom of it, but I don’t think it matters at this point. When vehicles are towed, there’s an initial fee, it may be $200 or more and then a daily storage fee. So by now, it’s probably well over $1500 or more to get the car out.
The apartment is giving me a hard time because I got behind on my payments when I could not work. The owner of the apartment/hotel is being very ugly to me. Three days in a row he’s come to my apartment and harassed me and called me names and ridiculed me and mocked me if I was not a Christian, I probably would’ve knocked him out.
I’m not saying I handled myself perfectly because it’s hard. It’s hard to sit there and be verbally abused in front of everybody in the hallway. I have every intent of paying my back payments but right now I need a little grace. I tried to work something out with him, but he refused to work with me.
His wife came to my door a moment ago, and I could almost tell that she’s probably been verbally abused by him all their marriage. I’m thinking of moving out just so that she does not face any more abuse.
If I move out, I have no place to go except for the rental car. I’m so torn. I’m confident God will do something but right now. It seems like nothing’s being done. I’m pleading with God to help me.
I love my wife
My wife has done some horrible things to me. Probably 90% of men would have absolutely nothing to do with her based on what she’s done. But I know the power of God’s grace, mercy, and forgiveness. I stand prepared to forgive her and bring her and our family back together. I continue to pray and I bet I have prayed 1 million times for her that God would work in her life to bring her to attendance.
I miss my family deeply
I’m the kind of father that loves his kids and wants to spend time with them. I would rather go to the park and watch them. Have fun then do things that are for me. I would rather go to a park and go hiking with them then just go hike by myself. I love my children and I miss them terribly. I pray for reconciliation.
Dear friends, I am exhausted. Honestly, I can’t believe I’m still alive. I am not suicidal, but I have prayed fervently that God would take me. I pray fervently that God would send Elijah here to come get me.
Please pray for me
I need wisdom. I need guidance. I ask God to guide my steps. Time is of the essence.
Thank you
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. Thank You for loving me, Jesus. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. 
