Justbecause5
Servant
There is power in prayer (James 5:16)!
In the summer of 2022, my life changed forever. My job in Alaska was complete. I had secured a teaching position back in my home state of Texas.
My wife had purchased a ticket for her and my daughter to go overseas to visit family in mid September 2022. So, my two young sons and I left Alaska for Texas. My goal was to start the new job and set up a new home for my family.
After my sons and I left Alaska, my wife hired an attorney and went to court and together, they convinced the judge that I had stolen the boys and taking them across state lines. There was no mention of tickets and no mention of my job being over, etc.. I was 5000 miles away and could do nothing.
The judge gave permission for my wife to get the boys. I still remember, it was payday, my boys and I had looked forward to payday coming because we had been so broke. My youngest son wanted some sunglasses. They all needed some new clothes, a new backpack, etc.. I was so excited for the evening after school.
During my conference period, the HR lady and the principal came into my room and let me know that my boys were gone. I immediately broke down in tears. It was so overwhelming like a flood. I could not control my tears. I was in so much anguish. I have not seen my children since then.
In my wildest dreams, I never imagined that my wife would do something like that to me. I had met her on Facebook years before and we developed a relationship. It took me nearly 2 years to get her to come to the United States. While she was overseas, I made it possible for her to go and be with her daughter and sent her $200 plus each month. We developed a strong relationship with a strong emphasis on Christianity.
Finally, after 18 months, my wife to be came to the United States with her daughter. I was working for a church in Texas. We immediately begin our family and grew together. After a few years, we added a son and then nearly 2 years later, another son. We had a beautiful family. It makes me sad. Just thinking about it.
After my wife left me, it was so difficult for me to go to school. In fact, I think I took off nearly 30 days from school, trying to cope with a deep depression and sadness. It’s so interesting that two weeks before I got the job there, the school hired a new janitor, and his name was Sat. After my boys were taken, sat, became a dear friend to me. He would come to my room twice a day to clean the room and to check up on me. I really admired him and appreciate his deep kindness for me in addition, I was able to help him walk through some difficulties in his family in Nigeria.
I am not a perfect man, but I have always been forgiving. I remember pleading with God to take me back to Alaska. I hoped that a closer proximity would lead to reconciliation and restoration. I remember hanging a sign on my classroom wall of a cabin that one might find in Alaska. Underneath it, I put the number $25,000. My students would ask me what it was for. I told them that I hoped to go back to Alaska and that’s what I needed to be able to go so, I worked previously to try to achieve that goal.
In fact, at the Christmas break, I took everything out of the cabin I was staying in and everything out of my classroom and went back to my dad‘s house. I had hoped that over the Christmas break. I could find my way back to Alaska. I was unsuccessful. I moved back to finish up a school year. God made provision.
After school year, I went back to my dad‘s house about 285 miles away. I helped my dad some but a lot of the time I just sat on the front porch reading my Bible, looking for work and praying fervently for myself and for my family. I pleaded with God to take me back to Alaska. I imagine every circumstance where by my family will not come back together.
One day in August 2023, out of nowhere, I received a phone call and a job offer. It was a temporary job that would require me to go to California and drive across the state and into other states with a partner. It was only a six week job. I agreed to go and within about 10 days I was in California working with my new partner. We drove through like seven states. It was an incredible job that allowed us to stay in some really nice hotels.
Little did I know, working for that company would be a huge blessing in so many ways. In February 2024, there was another testing period of 17 weeks. So I went back to California and worked with my old partner. We drove south to San Diego and through about 10 different states. I spent so much time in prayer and every place you could possibly imagine.
I prayed fervently next to the seashore. I prayed in the hot tub. I prayed one time nearly an hour standing in the shower. I prayed on the porch. I prayed on the patio. I prayed while driving. I prayed while operating the computer in the passenger seat. I prayed on the airplane in the air. I prayed in the states of Oregon, Washington, Montana, Idaho, Utah, etc. etc. I prayed everywhere. I must’ve prayed over 1 million times.
I pleaded for God to take me back to Alaska.
Finally, in the summer of 2024, a combination of events resulted in me going back to Alaska. Looking back, at all the details that happened. It is absolutely amazing. God did all of that and pave the way for me to go back to Alaska. It involved the company that I have been working for temporarily. They sent me back to California for a 30 day job. Again, everything was free my flight out, a beautiful hotel, facing the sunset and beautiful California weather, etc. the 30 day job turned into a 60 day job.
During the second phase, the second 30 days, I received a job offer for a school in the city near where I used to live. In fact, my son used to play soccer in that very building. I received a teaching job and a coaching job. So right at the end of the temporary job, the company paid for my flight, first class flight from San Francisco to Alaska, which cost them nearly $850. It was free for me.
My prayers have been answered. I was going back to Alaska.
The only problem is, I didn’t have a place to live nor a car to drive. I had contacted the shelter, but I could not get an answer from anyone. I did not understand why they would let me live there if I had a job. I tried to get a vehicle, but it was unsuccessful. The credit unions required six months on the job and a local address which I did not have.
I could easily write a book about everything that’s happened to me in my time back in Alaska. I have now been back in Alaska about 21 months. I have suffered in almost every way possible it’s so painful to recap everything that’s happened to me.
I was homeless. I lived in the shelter. I have lived in temporary housing. I lived in the back of my van for 28 nights. I lived in a primitive basement with no toilet and an out house. Imagine going to an out house at 2 AM in the morning when it’s raining and pitch black in Alaska.
I suffered in every way possible. I felt like Job and I still do. Again, I spent hours upon hours in prayer. On November 20, 2024, the principal came to my room and told me to get my personal belongings. Due to a contract issue, my job with the school was complete. It was so frustrating and unfair. However, the school had to pay my salary through the end of April 2025.
Later, I got a job working as a laboratory manager. It was the highest salary and I’ve ever received. I was so excited. I felt like this is the hand of God giving me this incredible job. I even imagine hiring my wife. I had that power to hire her if we had been back together. However, three weeks later my job was complete. I was so frustrated because I had worked so hard.
When I first moved back to Alaska, due to being an HR limbo with the school, I started doing gig work. I had never delivered any food or groceries before coming to Alaska. However, I needed money, and I downloaded the app and started doing it I realized I can make money. Little that I know doing gig work would end up being a huge blessing for the next year or so.
Again, I’m not going to go through every single situation that happened. Some of it is painful. Some of it is just amazing how God did certain things.
In October 2023, I started reading the psalms. In fact, on my birthday I read all the psalms in one day. It was my birthday present to me in October 2025, I did it again. Since 2023, I have read the psalms nearly 35 times they have helped me tremendously.
I bet I have prayed for my family well over 1 million times. I have prayed fervently. Anyone that loved to pray, I would ask them to pray for my wife and my family. At one time, I remember there were seven different countries praying for my wife. There were several different states paying praying for my wife.
So far, there has been no connection. I would like to think that God has been working behind the scenes. Personally, I believe he has. I still keep hoping and praying.
Today is May 27 and my back is up against the wall. When I started doing gig work full-time as soon started having car issues. So in November 2025, I had to rent a car. Thankfully, the car prices were cheap and I was able to rent a car from November until late February when the prices went up significantly.
However, the prices went down in April and I was able to get a car again. However, on June 6, 2026, the price is going to go up significantly and I could no longer afford to have a rental car. Alaska is a tourist state and during tourism season everything goes up significantly in price so, sometime next week I will no longer have a car and no longer be able to work. No work equals no money. What do I do God?
Again, I have prayed fervently
I am in an apartment right now. I got behind in my rent due to car issues. At the time, I could not rent a car because it was nearly $100 a day or there was no cars available. So I could not work.
Then the apartment complex towed my car out out of the parking lot, not realizing it was my car. I have not seen it since. I doubt I will ever see it again because it’s just too much money to get it out of there and at the present time, I don’t know where it’s at.
Of course, a week before they tow it, the timing belt broke. Here in Alaska, a timing belt replacement can easily be $1500 or more. Alaska is a beautiful state but it is an expensive state to live in due to supply issues, etc..
My landlord, a week ago are less than a week ago knocked on my door like I was his teenage son. He was very ugly to me and harassed me three days in a row about my rent being behind.
He had been in the hospital for a heart procedure and during that time his wife took over the work. I talked to her several times about my situation and my sincere desire to stay in the apartment until June 5 and then leave. She said that would be OK.
Right now, I am in a difficult situation. The landlord turned off the water to my apartment, which is illegal. It is against the law to turn off essential services. So for three days now, I have not been able to take a shower. I bought 4 gallons of water to help flush the toilet into blood, brush, my teeth, etc..
I’ve been praying fervently that God would give me wisdom to know what to do. I know that I must eventually leave the apartment, but I’m not sure when to leave. I know the Bible teaches us to have peace with all men. But the same Bible also teaches us to be wise as serpent and harmless as doves. We need to stand up for our personal being.
I am exhausted.
I am exhausted from praying so much. I’m exhausted from waiting on God. I keep begging God to stand up and do something to help me.
I’ve asked God, God, please restore my marriage in my family. I can only imagine what it would feel like if my weeping with suddenly turned into a dancing. I can only imagine if joy were to suddenly come into my life how it would make me feel in every way.
I need wisdom. God, please show me what to do.
Secondly, I ask God if you’re not going to restore my marriage then please take me far away and give me a really good job. A few times, I thought God was answering that prayer and was about to take me far away with a good paying career path. But suddenly, almost as quickly as the opportunity appeared, they disappeared again, I was so disheartened.
I can honestly say that my love for God is stronger now than it’s ever been. I really mean that I could honestly say that my faith in God is stronger now that it’s ever been. I am not suicidal, but I am not afraid to die. I want to be in God’s presence. I cannot wait.
Please pray for me
Again, I could probably write a book about several segments of my ordeal. It’s amazing the things that I’ve endured. Somehow, in someway, God has strengthened me and comforted me in the midst of great duress.
God knows what we need before we ask. He cares for the sparrows that are cheap to purchase maybe a few cents in the marketplace. He cared for the lilies in the field that may not have ever been seen by men and they died go away in a matter of days or weeks. I know God knows my situation and cares deeply for me. God, I need your help, God help me.
Time is of the essence. After today, there will be like eight days between now and not sure what to do. So, I need prayers.
I love my wife with all my heart. I stand prepared to forgive her for what she’s done. I stand prepared to love her, like Jesus loved his church.
I love my children and I think about them many times every day. I have missed so much. It makes me sad because every day I look forward to seeing their smiling faces. I hate that I have missed so much of their lives.
I pray, fervently that God will stand in and help me
I can only imagine the joy. Just like I broke into tears when my children were taken, I would probably cry uncontrollably if something were to happen in God where to step in powerfully.
I do not like confrontation. I do not want confrontation with Paul the owner of this apartment/hotel. I’m exhausted I am mentally and physically exhausted.
God, please step in
In the summer of 2022, my life changed forever. My job in Alaska was complete. I had secured a teaching position back in my home state of Texas.
My wife had purchased a ticket for her and my daughter to go overseas to visit family in mid September 2022. So, my two young sons and I left Alaska for Texas. My goal was to start the new job and set up a new home for my family.
After my sons and I left Alaska, my wife hired an attorney and went to court and together, they convinced the judge that I had stolen the boys and taking them across state lines. There was no mention of tickets and no mention of my job being over, etc.. I was 5000 miles away and could do nothing.
The judge gave permission for my wife to get the boys. I still remember, it was payday, my boys and I had looked forward to payday coming because we had been so broke. My youngest son wanted some sunglasses. They all needed some new clothes, a new backpack, etc.. I was so excited for the evening after school.
During my conference period, the HR lady and the principal came into my room and let me know that my boys were gone. I immediately broke down in tears. It was so overwhelming like a flood. I could not control my tears. I was in so much anguish. I have not seen my children since then.
In my wildest dreams, I never imagined that my wife would do something like that to me. I had met her on Facebook years before and we developed a relationship. It took me nearly 2 years to get her to come to the United States. While she was overseas, I made it possible for her to go and be with her daughter and sent her $200 plus each month. We developed a strong relationship with a strong emphasis on Christianity.
Finally, after 18 months, my wife to be came to the United States with her daughter. I was working for a church in Texas. We immediately begin our family and grew together. After a few years, we added a son and then nearly 2 years later, another son. We had a beautiful family. It makes me sad. Just thinking about it.
After my wife left me, it was so difficult for me to go to school. In fact, I think I took off nearly 30 days from school, trying to cope with a deep depression and sadness. It’s so interesting that two weeks before I got the job there, the school hired a new janitor, and his name was Sat. After my boys were taken, sat, became a dear friend to me. He would come to my room twice a day to clean the room and to check up on me. I really admired him and appreciate his deep kindness for me in addition, I was able to help him walk through some difficulties in his family in Nigeria.
I am not a perfect man, but I have always been forgiving. I remember pleading with God to take me back to Alaska. I hoped that a closer proximity would lead to reconciliation and restoration. I remember hanging a sign on my classroom wall of a cabin that one might find in Alaska. Underneath it, I put the number $25,000. My students would ask me what it was for. I told them that I hoped to go back to Alaska and that’s what I needed to be able to go so, I worked previously to try to achieve that goal.
In fact, at the Christmas break, I took everything out of the cabin I was staying in and everything out of my classroom and went back to my dad‘s house. I had hoped that over the Christmas break. I could find my way back to Alaska. I was unsuccessful. I moved back to finish up a school year. God made provision.
After school year, I went back to my dad‘s house about 285 miles away. I helped my dad some but a lot of the time I just sat on the front porch reading my Bible, looking for work and praying fervently for myself and for my family. I pleaded with God to take me back to Alaska. I imagine every circumstance where by my family will not come back together.
One day in August 2023, out of nowhere, I received a phone call and a job offer. It was a temporary job that would require me to go to California and drive across the state and into other states with a partner. It was only a six week job. I agreed to go and within about 10 days I was in California working with my new partner. We drove through like seven states. It was an incredible job that allowed us to stay in some really nice hotels.
Little did I know, working for that company would be a huge blessing in so many ways. In February 2024, there was another testing period of 17 weeks. So I went back to California and worked with my old partner. We drove south to San Diego and through about 10 different states. I spent so much time in prayer and every place you could possibly imagine.
I prayed fervently next to the seashore. I prayed in the hot tub. I prayed one time nearly an hour standing in the shower. I prayed on the porch. I prayed on the patio. I prayed while driving. I prayed while operating the computer in the passenger seat. I prayed on the airplane in the air. I prayed in the states of Oregon, Washington, Montana, Idaho, Utah, etc. etc. I prayed everywhere. I must’ve prayed over 1 million times.
I pleaded for God to take me back to Alaska.
Finally, in the summer of 2024, a combination of events resulted in me going back to Alaska. Looking back, at all the details that happened. It is absolutely amazing. God did all of that and pave the way for me to go back to Alaska. It involved the company that I have been working for temporarily. They sent me back to California for a 30 day job. Again, everything was free my flight out, a beautiful hotel, facing the sunset and beautiful California weather, etc. the 30 day job turned into a 60 day job.
During the second phase, the second 30 days, I received a job offer for a school in the city near where I used to live. In fact, my son used to play soccer in that very building. I received a teaching job and a coaching job. So right at the end of the temporary job, the company paid for my flight, first class flight from San Francisco to Alaska, which cost them nearly $850. It was free for me.
My prayers have been answered. I was going back to Alaska.
The only problem is, I didn’t have a place to live nor a car to drive. I had contacted the shelter, but I could not get an answer from anyone. I did not understand why they would let me live there if I had a job. I tried to get a vehicle, but it was unsuccessful. The credit unions required six months on the job and a local address which I did not have.
I could easily write a book about everything that’s happened to me in my time back in Alaska. I have now been back in Alaska about 21 months. I have suffered in almost every way possible it’s so painful to recap everything that’s happened to me.
I was homeless. I lived in the shelter. I have lived in temporary housing. I lived in the back of my van for 28 nights. I lived in a primitive basement with no toilet and an out house. Imagine going to an out house at 2 AM in the morning when it’s raining and pitch black in Alaska.
I suffered in every way possible. I felt like Job and I still do. Again, I spent hours upon hours in prayer. On November 20, 2024, the principal came to my room and told me to get my personal belongings. Due to a contract issue, my job with the school was complete. It was so frustrating and unfair. However, the school had to pay my salary through the end of April 2025.
Later, I got a job working as a laboratory manager. It was the highest salary and I’ve ever received. I was so excited. I felt like this is the hand of God giving me this incredible job. I even imagine hiring my wife. I had that power to hire her if we had been back together. However, three weeks later my job was complete. I was so frustrated because I had worked so hard.
When I first moved back to Alaska, due to being an HR limbo with the school, I started doing gig work. I had never delivered any food or groceries before coming to Alaska. However, I needed money, and I downloaded the app and started doing it I realized I can make money. Little that I know doing gig work would end up being a huge blessing for the next year or so.
Again, I’m not going to go through every single situation that happened. Some of it is painful. Some of it is just amazing how God did certain things.
In October 2023, I started reading the psalms. In fact, on my birthday I read all the psalms in one day. It was my birthday present to me in October 2025, I did it again. Since 2023, I have read the psalms nearly 35 times they have helped me tremendously.
I bet I have prayed for my family well over 1 million times. I have prayed fervently. Anyone that loved to pray, I would ask them to pray for my wife and my family. At one time, I remember there were seven different countries praying for my wife. There were several different states paying praying for my wife.
So far, there has been no connection. I would like to think that God has been working behind the scenes. Personally, I believe he has. I still keep hoping and praying.
Today is May 27 and my back is up against the wall. When I started doing gig work full-time as soon started having car issues. So in November 2025, I had to rent a car. Thankfully, the car prices were cheap and I was able to rent a car from November until late February when the prices went up significantly.
However, the prices went down in April and I was able to get a car again. However, on June 6, 2026, the price is going to go up significantly and I could no longer afford to have a rental car. Alaska is a tourist state and during tourism season everything goes up significantly in price so, sometime next week I will no longer have a car and no longer be able to work. No work equals no money. What do I do God?
Again, I have prayed fervently
I am in an apartment right now. I got behind in my rent due to car issues. At the time, I could not rent a car because it was nearly $100 a day or there was no cars available. So I could not work.
Then the apartment complex towed my car out out of the parking lot, not realizing it was my car. I have not seen it since. I doubt I will ever see it again because it’s just too much money to get it out of there and at the present time, I don’t know where it’s at.
Of course, a week before they tow it, the timing belt broke. Here in Alaska, a timing belt replacement can easily be $1500 or more. Alaska is a beautiful state but it is an expensive state to live in due to supply issues, etc..
My landlord, a week ago are less than a week ago knocked on my door like I was his teenage son. He was very ugly to me and harassed me three days in a row about my rent being behind.
He had been in the hospital for a heart procedure and during that time his wife took over the work. I talked to her several times about my situation and my sincere desire to stay in the apartment until June 5 and then leave. She said that would be OK.
Right now, I am in a difficult situation. The landlord turned off the water to my apartment, which is illegal. It is against the law to turn off essential services. So for three days now, I have not been able to take a shower. I bought 4 gallons of water to help flush the toilet into blood, brush, my teeth, etc..
I’ve been praying fervently that God would give me wisdom to know what to do. I know that I must eventually leave the apartment, but I’m not sure when to leave. I know the Bible teaches us to have peace with all men. But the same Bible also teaches us to be wise as serpent and harmless as doves. We need to stand up for our personal being.
I am exhausted.
I am exhausted from praying so much. I’m exhausted from waiting on God. I keep begging God to stand up and do something to help me.
I’ve asked God, God, please restore my marriage in my family. I can only imagine what it would feel like if my weeping with suddenly turned into a dancing. I can only imagine if joy were to suddenly come into my life how it would make me feel in every way.
I need wisdom. God, please show me what to do.
Secondly, I ask God if you’re not going to restore my marriage then please take me far away and give me a really good job. A few times, I thought God was answering that prayer and was about to take me far away with a good paying career path. But suddenly, almost as quickly as the opportunity appeared, they disappeared again, I was so disheartened.
I can honestly say that my love for God is stronger now than it’s ever been. I really mean that I could honestly say that my faith in God is stronger now that it’s ever been. I am not suicidal, but I am not afraid to die. I want to be in God’s presence. I cannot wait.
Please pray for me
Again, I could probably write a book about several segments of my ordeal. It’s amazing the things that I’ve endured. Somehow, in someway, God has strengthened me and comforted me in the midst of great duress.
God knows what we need before we ask. He cares for the sparrows that are cheap to purchase maybe a few cents in the marketplace. He cared for the lilies in the field that may not have ever been seen by men and they died go away in a matter of days or weeks. I know God knows my situation and cares deeply for me. God, I need your help, God help me.
Time is of the essence. After today, there will be like eight days between now and not sure what to do. So, I need prayers.
I love my wife with all my heart. I stand prepared to forgive her for what she’s done. I stand prepared to love her, like Jesus loved his church.
I love my children and I think about them many times every day. I have missed so much. It makes me sad because every day I look forward to seeing their smiling faces. I hate that I have missed so much of their lives.
I pray, fervently that God will stand in and help me
I can only imagine the joy. Just like I broke into tears when my children were taken, I would probably cry uncontrollably if something were to happen in God where to step in powerfully.
I do not like confrontation. I do not want confrontation with Paul the owner of this apartment/hotel. I’m exhausted I am mentally and physically exhausted.
God, please step in
