Justbecause5
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There is power in prayer (James 5:16)!
I need prayers.
I have now slept in the van for 27 nights. It has been difficult: 38°F nights, 24 hours of daylight and relentless mosquitoes.
If all goes well, I should have a very primitive apartment in a few days. I hope!
My new job as a laboratory manager begins on May 21. Each day, I learned something new as I prepare to take over the entire organization. They are days I just want to quit, but then I think what would I do? My pain would just be magnified due to the lack of a job and money.
Yesterday, I interviewed three people. One young man, probably 25 now, I baptized into Christ in 2021. I had not seen him since: he instantly recognized me. Could it be the case that God has providentially made this arrangement?
I miss my wife and children deeply and dearly. I know Father’s Day is Sunday and it will be very painful. Normally, the wife would help the children on days like that. It will be very difficult on me. Very difficult!
I am the kind of father that loves his children. I love spending time with them. I love to wrestle with them on the floor and hike with them on my shoulders in the woods, etc..
Last year, God caused me to travel on Father’s Day to a temporary job in California. Looking back, I felt it was the providential hand of God. He knew that I was in pain so he called me to travel on that day. Instead of focusing on Father’s Day, I was focused on travel.
We are undergoing a heat wave in which temperatures are in the high 70s and low 80s. Those temperatures make it very difficult living in the van. I can sleep in a cold van easier than a hot van.
I do not believe in suicide. I believe it is self-murder. I would never do it. However, I can see why people take that route. A person just gets pressed so hard back up against the wall by life and its problems that he or she cannot take it no more. So, they end their life.
In my situation, I have pleaded with God many times to take my life. The pain became just so unbearable. I just wanted to go home to be with the Lord. I know there is purpose in my life in God is working in some way or another such as the chance encounter with the guy that I interviewed yesterday.
I appreciate your prayers. Please keep praying for me. Somehow I keep going forward even though I am in so much pain.
Please pray:
God will give me strength.
God will move the mountains of separation.
God will give me a life again.
God will reconcile my family in every way.
God will take away these dark thoughts.
Thank you!
I need prayers.
I have now slept in the van for 27 nights. It has been difficult: 38°F nights, 24 hours of daylight and relentless mosquitoes.
If all goes well, I should have a very primitive apartment in a few days. I hope!
My new job as a laboratory manager begins on May 21. Each day, I learned something new as I prepare to take over the entire organization. They are days I just want to quit, but then I think what would I do? My pain would just be magnified due to the lack of a job and money.
Yesterday, I interviewed three people. One young man, probably 25 now, I baptized into Christ in 2021. I had not seen him since: he instantly recognized me. Could it be the case that God has providentially made this arrangement?
I miss my wife and children deeply and dearly. I know Father’s Day is Sunday and it will be very painful. Normally, the wife would help the children on days like that. It will be very difficult on me. Very difficult!
I am the kind of father that loves his children. I love spending time with them. I love to wrestle with them on the floor and hike with them on my shoulders in the woods, etc..
Last year, God caused me to travel on Father’s Day to a temporary job in California. Looking back, I felt it was the providential hand of God. He knew that I was in pain so he called me to travel on that day. Instead of focusing on Father’s Day, I was focused on travel.
We are undergoing a heat wave in which temperatures are in the high 70s and low 80s. Those temperatures make it very difficult living in the van. I can sleep in a cold van easier than a hot van.
I do not believe in suicide. I believe it is self-murder. I would never do it. However, I can see why people take that route. A person just gets pressed so hard back up against the wall by life and its problems that he or she cannot take it no more. So, they end their life.
In my situation, I have pleaded with God many times to take my life. The pain became just so unbearable. I just wanted to go home to be with the Lord. I know there is purpose in my life in God is working in some way or another such as the chance encounter with the guy that I interviewed yesterday.
I appreciate your prayers. Please keep praying for me. Somehow I keep going forward even though I am in so much pain.
Please pray:
God will give me strength.
God will move the mountains of separation.
God will give me a life again.
God will reconcile my family in every way.
God will take away these dark thoughts.
Thank you!