Justbecause5
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There is power in prayer (James 5:16)!
Three years ago, my wife left me. She then used the court to take my children.
I was 5000 miles away with my son, setting up our new home and starting a new job. She and a sister in Christ flew from Alaska to Texas and took my children while I was working. I have not seen them since.
In my wildest dreams, I never imagined that my wife would do those things to me. I never imagined that she would destroy her marriage and her family. She did.
I pleaded with God to take me back to Alaska. Finally, in the summer of 2024, God answered my prayer and took me back to Alaska first class. I moved back to Alaska with no place to live and no car to drive. I was walking by faith and not by sight.
I was convinced that God would reconcile my family, and I would immediately have a place to live and a car to drive. My plane landed at 12:15 in the morning and I had no place to go and no car to drive.
The next 14 months would be incredibly difficult. I lived in the shelter for 4.5 months. I lived in the back of my van for 28 nights. I lived in a roach-infested basement with no toilet for 4.5 months, etc..
I lost two really good paying jobs and careers due to no fault of my own. I lost another job that was given to me, but then taken away over the weekend. It was so heartbreaking with all the ups and downs.
I have been thoroughly exhausted, suffered from debilitating depression, and deep sadness all this time. Somehow, God has given me the strength to get up and keep moving, trying to take care of myself, etc..
On December 29, 2024, I went to a mountain top to worship God. It was -23°F. I got locked out of my van and could not get back in. I tried to break the window but was unsuccessful. I then ran down to the bottom of the hill and there were two beautiful women, possibly angels, that came up to help me get back in the van. I estimate I would have died within an hour or so without their help.
I need prayers.
I am a very sentimental type guy. I love my children deeply. I miss them terribly. The one thing that keeps me positive is the fact that God brought me back to Alaska.
Looking back, I can see the providential hand of God. He opened a certain set of doors that allowed me to move back to Alaska. He gave me a teaching and coaching job at the school. He called me to move back to California to work a temporary job for 30 days that turned into 60 days that resulted in income and a free first class to get to Alaska. God did that.
So when I get really down, I think about the fact that God brought me here. Why? Did he bring me here just to suffer all these things. Did he bring me here to cause me to face certain death on the mountain top? I do not know, but it gives me hope.
As the holidays quickly approach, I see people shopping for Christmas gifts. I hear Christmas music. I was always the kind of father that went overboard on the holidays. We had two Christmas trees in our house, one in the kitchen and one in the living room. I am the one that did that so the holidays are very difficult for me.
When I say pain, it is a pain that makes me want to lay in bed and not move, but somehow; it’s like God pushes the button and I’m able to get up and to go do things that I need to do.
I have been unemployed since June 16. Yet, I have figured out a way to make a full-time salary and even better doing gig work.
A month or so ago, my van died and it was sitting in the McDonald’s parking lot for a week. I had to have it towed to a person that I did not even know and today he told me it’s ready to go.
I’m so thankful for everything. God has done for me in the process of great duress.
I am confident that God is working. I am tired of suffering. I’m tired of the pain. I’m tired of feeling hopeless. I’m tired of wishing God would just take me and end my life on earth.
My faith is strong! My love for God, I believe, is stronger now than it’s ever been. It’s amazing how God did that.
Tomorrow, I feel that God has led me to go interview for a bus driving job. I know that my wife drives a bus. Lately, gig work has caused me to go to the bus barn a few times. Each time, I wondered if God was going to reconnect me in that position.
I want to give a few things that I have seen God do for me in the midst of this stressful time:
Last night, I saw a beautiful northern lights.
I have seen 50+ moose. I love moose.
I had a temporary job driving a $50,000 car across Alaska. I saw amazing things.
I love the rain and during the summer we had several great rainfalls.
Despite not having a real job, I have been able to make a better than full-time salary, doing gig work only.
I’m so thankful to God for what he has done in my life. I can only imagine if suddenly my weeping were turned into joy. If my morning was suddenly turned into dancing, I hope.
One more thing I wanted to share in praising God. I am not bragging, but I have lived in Alaska now for 14 months and not one time did I pay rent.
Yes, I lived in the shelter for 4.5 months and in the back of my van for 28 nights and in a primitive basement for 4.5 months. All of that was rent-free.
However, because I’m a veteran, I got nine free months rent. I lived in a nice apartment on a hill outside town for 4.5 months. The rent was $1200 a month and the VA paid it. Now, I am in a studio apartment which costs $1500 a month and the VA is paying it.
Again, I do not say that to brag at all… I’m simply giving praise to God who has made that incredible provision for me.
My life is upside down. I know God has the power to turn it right side up. Please pray for me and my family.
Please pray:
Marital reconciliation
Wife = ### = repentance
My family
A stable good job
Opportunity to work in ministry again
Strength
Thank you
Three years ago, my wife left me. She then used the court to take my children.
I was 5000 miles away with my son, setting up our new home and starting a new job. She and a sister in Christ flew from Alaska to Texas and took my children while I was working. I have not seen them since.
In my wildest dreams, I never imagined that my wife would do those things to me. I never imagined that she would destroy her marriage and her family. She did.
I pleaded with God to take me back to Alaska. Finally, in the summer of 2024, God answered my prayer and took me back to Alaska first class. I moved back to Alaska with no place to live and no car to drive. I was walking by faith and not by sight.
I was convinced that God would reconcile my family, and I would immediately have a place to live and a car to drive. My plane landed at 12:15 in the morning and I had no place to go and no car to drive.
The next 14 months would be incredibly difficult. I lived in the shelter for 4.5 months. I lived in the back of my van for 28 nights. I lived in a roach-infested basement with no toilet for 4.5 months, etc..
I lost two really good paying jobs and careers due to no fault of my own. I lost another job that was given to me, but then taken away over the weekend. It was so heartbreaking with all the ups and downs.
I have been thoroughly exhausted, suffered from debilitating depression, and deep sadness all this time. Somehow, God has given me the strength to get up and keep moving, trying to take care of myself, etc..
On December 29, 2024, I went to a mountain top to worship God. It was -23°F. I got locked out of my van and could not get back in. I tried to break the window but was unsuccessful. I then ran down to the bottom of the hill and there were two beautiful women, possibly angels, that came up to help me get back in the van. I estimate I would have died within an hour or so without their help.
I need prayers.
I am a very sentimental type guy. I love my children deeply. I miss them terribly. The one thing that keeps me positive is the fact that God brought me back to Alaska.
Looking back, I can see the providential hand of God. He opened a certain set of doors that allowed me to move back to Alaska. He gave me a teaching and coaching job at the school. He called me to move back to California to work a temporary job for 30 days that turned into 60 days that resulted in income and a free first class to get to Alaska. God did that.
So when I get really down, I think about the fact that God brought me here. Why? Did he bring me here just to suffer all these things. Did he bring me here to cause me to face certain death on the mountain top? I do not know, but it gives me hope.
As the holidays quickly approach, I see people shopping for Christmas gifts. I hear Christmas music. I was always the kind of father that went overboard on the holidays. We had two Christmas trees in our house, one in the kitchen and one in the living room. I am the one that did that so the holidays are very difficult for me.
When I say pain, it is a pain that makes me want to lay in bed and not move, but somehow; it’s like God pushes the button and I’m able to get up and to go do things that I need to do.
I have been unemployed since June 16. Yet, I have figured out a way to make a full-time salary and even better doing gig work.
A month or so ago, my van died and it was sitting in the McDonald’s parking lot for a week. I had to have it towed to a person that I did not even know and today he told me it’s ready to go.
I’m so thankful for everything. God has done for me in the process of great duress.
I am confident that God is working. I am tired of suffering. I’m tired of the pain. I’m tired of feeling hopeless. I’m tired of wishing God would just take me and end my life on earth.
My faith is strong! My love for God, I believe, is stronger now than it’s ever been. It’s amazing how God did that.
Tomorrow, I feel that God has led me to go interview for a bus driving job. I know that my wife drives a bus. Lately, gig work has caused me to go to the bus barn a few times. Each time, I wondered if God was going to reconnect me in that position.
I want to give a few things that I have seen God do for me in the midst of this stressful time:
Last night, I saw a beautiful northern lights.
I have seen 50+ moose. I love moose.
I had a temporary job driving a $50,000 car across Alaska. I saw amazing things.
I love the rain and during the summer we had several great rainfalls.
Despite not having a real job, I have been able to make a better than full-time salary, doing gig work only.
I’m so thankful to God for what he has done in my life. I can only imagine if suddenly my weeping were turned into joy. If my morning was suddenly turned into dancing, I hope.
One more thing I wanted to share in praising God. I am not bragging, but I have lived in Alaska now for 14 months and not one time did I pay rent.
Yes, I lived in the shelter for 4.5 months and in the back of my van for 28 nights and in a primitive basement for 4.5 months. All of that was rent-free.
However, because I’m a veteran, I got nine free months rent. I lived in a nice apartment on a hill outside town for 4.5 months. The rent was $1200 a month and the VA paid it. Now, I am in a studio apartment which costs $1500 a month and the VA is paying it.
Again, I do not say that to brag at all… I’m simply giving praise to God who has made that incredible provision for me.
My life is upside down. I know God has the power to turn it right side up. Please pray for me and my family.
Please pray:
Marital reconciliation
Wife = ### = repentance
My family
A stable good job
Opportunity to work in ministry again
Strength
Thank you

Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have.