I'm so lonely and longing to be loved. I'm so sad and lonely right now. I just want to die. I'm so TIRED of my life right now. I don't want to be here. I think about taking my life all the time. I try to get up the courage to do it. I want to do it so BAD. I wish I could just do it. If I keep telling myself I can, maybe that day will come. I'm tired of this world. I have made mistakes in life, but God is not a forgiving being when it comes to me. He has His picks. I'm not one. I'm sorry, I hate myself so much right now.
God is not a respecter of persons. He loved you enough to die on your behalf. I know life can become overwhelming and extremely challenging, but, if you stop and count your blessings, you will be overwhelmed by how much you have been blessed in your life and the blessings will outweigh the troubles you face. Let me tell you, God never said life was going to be easy, but He said, that in the midst of that trouble He would be with us. He would never leave us or forsake us. You will not always feel Him or see His hands, but you will see through the process He takes you, His purpose. There are things in our Christian life that God allows to mold us and strengthen us to grow into the image of His Son, that’s by far the hardest thing to go through, because we want to have it our way and we are constantly fighting our flesh desires with the desire to please God. But, since we cannot do it on our own, we need to surrender those things we struggle with to Him and allow God's Spirit to guide and work in those areas. Don’t lose hope, but continue to push through and you will experience His work and presence and purpose for you and in your life.
