Yesterday A Praise Report, Today Im Giving Up

[Brenda222]

Yesterday was so good. I had praise report. The Lord was blessing me. I thank everyone for praying for me. I have begged for my job back 5 time. The Lord did not answer my prayers. No there is not another job for me here. They wont rehire me. I am tired of begging. I cannot find a job in this city. As much as I love my apartment I have to leave and give up. I have to leave my child and go to another state to work. This is so messed up. The enemy came into my life months ago when I was down, depressed and couldnt hardly live. I now have to go out of state to work and leave my child. I cant make it without work. No one is hiring me. Dont say that something better is in store. I gave up the job the Lord blessed me with. I have prayed and prayed and claimed this job in Jesus name. No I cant find anything eles. I am giving up and leaving my child, my home, and my life. Thank you for praying for me. Actually life is not worth living with the mistake I made.

 

[kaatazze]

Jesus, with the confession of her sins, with the renewing of her heart to You, with her faith as small as a mustard seed; provide for her and her child! her miracle is needed TODAY! AMEN!

 

[candypooh]

Heavenly Father,

Please wrap your loving arms around this special woman Brenda and her child. Send down your angels to guide and support her and bring her hope. She need a huge blessing that will allow her to succeed and keep her family togehter. I ask this in Jesus name.

Amen.

 

[Janetmello]

Please Brenda, i know how you feel - many times when things have seemed impossible to manage, i have wanted to give up also. Life sometimes seems unfair and too horrible to face. Or our sins are too big to overcome. If you still feel drawn to God and His people, your mistakes are not too big for God! He is more than able to pick up the pieces. Dont give up. Confess your sin - He is faithful to forgive and cleanse! I will pray for you. There is an answer! Its not too big for God. Hang in there - all is possible with God! HE WILL HELP YOU. I bind the devil from harming you! Everyday there' new opportunities! PRAISE GOD - U CAN MAKE IT! Love you, janet

 

[Brenda222]

Thank you for praying for me. What kind of life is this, walking 5 miles and 5 miles back to go to school, leaving a job that I loved and could have made me money to buy me and my child a home, car repossessed, living in a 1 bedroom with my child, when she is used to living in the home with me, no future, going to school for what, i dont have a job to advance in, pushing a grocery cart 3 miles home in the heat because I cant get a ride, this sets me back 20 years ago when I had addictions. All I wanted was my job back, I give up. The Lord doesnt hear my prayers and cries. Ill miss my kids but I cant even do for them now. I asked and asked the Lord for 9 months to restore my job, it didnt happen. I walk, I pray, I beg for my job. I am losing my unemployment and may be homeless again. Dont tell me there is something better for me with a job. I had one, I was blessed with one, I listened to those who didnt mean me well and gave it up, I have lost everything. I lost the only man I ever loved. I lost my friends. I have lost everything. If the Lord loves me so much then why didnt he give me my job back when the enemy took it away. No the ones who are getting the love are the ones who dogged me. I am going to school tonight but when I come home, I will clean up and then I will end my life. I will always be paying for the mistakes I made. While everyone else prospers and is happy Im the one left without. If I would have been able to work my job again I would have known this was a miracle. I begged and begged for it. So I know after 9 months of begging that miracles dont happen for me, only others. So Im tired of begging and crying and walking. Im tired of it, tired of this life. I just know that those miracles dont happen for me, only others.

 

[Janetmello]

Brenda, i will be praying for you - there is a better way! Remember, the Bible says, thou shalt not kill -taking your own life is without room to repent - you could miss eternal life. Please dont do this to yourself or your child! Dont give up. Call me - i have some suggestions. Maybe i can help! I'll send you a private message with my number. Please give it a try! Love, janet

 

[Brenda222]

Janet Im sorry

I guess I just have to live in eternal hell ok. Do I really know that there is a heaven. My miracles never come to me ok. So who says Im gonna live in eternal hell ok. I used to believe the bible in everything that was said. I now see that the people who seem to dog me are the ones who sitting and smiling and getting over ok. Not me. K, I have made mistakes, I am never forgiven for them. I never get a sign that anything good is happening to me. I wanted to buy a home for my child. My ex kicked me out of our home. Me and my child are living in a one bedroom apartment. I lost jobs due to people making suggtestins on chaning jobs then these same people stopped speaking to me, turned their backs on me, dont even call. So is this what its like to be right, walk 5 miles to school, push groceries home in a cart 3 miles getting sunburn, while everyone is so joyful. Yes I left my job, it was a mistake. I wanted to stay there and get a home foir me and this child. This was a year ago. I pray, I pray, I beg, I ask for my job back, I think a miracle is coming, guess what, no jub, they wont rehire me. And I could have made enough money to buy a home. So now this is starting over with nothing, getting ready to be homeless again, all because I was depressed and listend to other people convince me to change jobs. You call this living, this is eternal hell. So Im gonna suffer and suffer daily so I can die and live good. No I cant do anything for my child. Now to get a home it will take 2 years now. I have the repo on my credit, bad credit now, I had ok credit, now that I let them convince me my credit stinks. How can this be straighented out. The miracles do not come to me. Ive begged and begged for my job, that I made the mistake of leaving and could have made money to buy a home to do what, sit here in a 1 bdroom with a child while daddy has his other woman sleeping in my bed. Oh I guess they will get theirs right, yes but Im the one without, walking miles a day getting sick ok. So where is the faith and miracles in all this. I just asked for my job, people told me to pray and the Lord will give me what I ask for. Well it doenst happen to me. Im sick of living for the future when I might go to heaven, there is no guarantee that I will ok. So I sit and read and read to get what, more depressed, more suicidal, losing more, get homeless, not get a job, my job I know I should be at , for people to turn me down. This is what I am reading the bible for. Boy now the Lord will need to show me a miracle then I will start to believe again. Right now I cant. I have done everything to be good, to live like the bible says, look where it gets me, close to homeless and walking 12 miles a day, so I could do what, live in eternal happy. I will never ever believe anything again. 5 times applying for a job and they tell me im not rehirable ok. It was a mistake. Lets see your miracle now. I guess walking 12 miles is a miracle. So if you can pray, pray for a miracle ok. If I dont see it happen by tonight guess what Im getting rid of me. Im tired or living and waiting for things that happen to everyone else, not me. So these 2 in my home, sleeping in my bedroom, happy, guess what Im the one who walks 12 miles, not them, so you tell me that because I have faith and they dont, that this is my miracle. Please, I dont want to live like this.l

 

[Janetmello]

Believe me - ive wanted to give up as much as you, but satan cant have me or you either! I KNOW WHERE YOU CAN GET HELP. You dont have to keep living that way - give one try for now - CALL

 

[silentangel]

Brenda - HOW DARE YOU! How dare you listen to the father of lies who is speaking in your ear, who is telling you that Jesus doesn't love you, that Jesus doesn't exist, that he won't help you in your time of need. You are being deceived by the biggest lier in the universe. I can tell you that the Bible doesn't teach us that everything will be rosy, that we won't have hard times, that we won't have needs and that we will be prosperous. It teaches us that HE LOVES US. He is there whether you know it or not. You are doing what you must do to survive. The Lord knows your needs. He knows you are tired, you are weary, your are confused, you are angry. He knows your every thought. YOUR CHILD NEEDS YOU! You need to get down on your needs and ask for forgiveness, ask for his hand of mercy to help you, ask that his blood wash over you and ask for a way out of this predicament. I have walked many miles myself when necessary. I don't think it fair of you to blame God for your misery. Instead, ask him to turn it around, to send you loving friends, to send you a job close by so you can be with your child. You want things NOW. God's timing is not our timing. Be faithful and stand! DO NOT shed innocent blood and bring judgement upon yourself and make your child an orphan. Brenda, my heart goes out to you as a sister and I wish I had answers for you. I don't. But I do know who I believe and who I follow. Please reconsider what you are saying. The word tells us to praise God in all things. Try doing that for awhile and see if HE doesn't begin to turn things around in your life. We have all had problems, there have been many deep valleys (times of trials and tribulations) and there have been times on the mountain (times of great peace with the Lord). He WILL deliver you in due time. You have to believe that before he can work in your life. He can't work in disbelief. The Lord is not the creator of negative energy. Rebuke the devil, bind him and cast him out of your life in the name of Jesus. Take the authority given to you as a believer and tell the enemy to GET OUT! You can do it. I stand with you today.

 

[Deedytberry]

Don't you dare give up, on life are anything else in this you want!!!! God hears your prayers and he WILL ANSWER you, but in his time. I know this first hand. I lost my job, had to put everything I owned storage and move back home to my parents. I turned 44 years old on yesterday, and I know everything I've gone thru was for a reason. Sometimes I think back and still cry, but it's because I've past that test and moved on. And you will to. I KNOW its hard, but please just keep praying your load will get lighter. Hold on my sister, I'm praying for you. Please keep in tcuch.