Bleugrll
Humble Prayer Partner
It's been 23 years today since my mother has passed, and I am still lonely now as I was when she died. I thought by now I would of been married and had children of my own but nothing good has happened to me since she's been gone. My siblings and I were left with a abusive father that died 12 years later. I lost my mom at 15 and my father by 27. I am very lonely and have been for a long time, how could this be God's divine plan, I became homeless in 2012 due to my relatives, I have not even one friend, and I haven't had a boyfriend in over a decade. I fel like I am invisible to God and the world. I am now 38 about to be 39 in January, I spent last Christmas by myself and my birthday was forgotten by everyone even my cousin I am staying with.... Why keep on living???? My life has been bad for the last 23 years when my mom died when I was 15. I figured if I had a family of my own then maybe at least I wouldn't have any loneliness anymore. This Christmas looks like I will be spending Christmas alone again, including my birthday.... I am not going to be able to handle turning 40 alone and unmarried. My mom died at 40 and I don't see why I should deal with this world anymore when it's so horrible. I used to have great friends and a social life but somehow things just changed, they either moved or married. Please pray I just need a word, thanks.....
