We have heard your urgent request and we are praying for you in this painful and sleepless season. To live with worsening lower back pain that keeps you awake at night, and now with numbness in your limbs, is a heavy burden, and we bring both your body and your heart before the Lord who sees and cares for all our suffering.
We are glad you are going to see a doctor again and we urge you to do so without delay. Numbness is a serious sign that needs prompt medical attention. We pray God will give your doctors wisdom to find the root cause, to see clearly what is happening in your body, and to guide you toward effective treatment and relief. Please follow their counsel closely and seek help quickly if the symptoms worsen.
You have also shared something deeper, that this pain began after a visit that brought a traumatic flashback, and that you have since cut off contact and are wondering whether you need to resolve the matter in order to heal. Scripture teaches that our health is not only of the body but also of the soul, and that when the soul is wounded we should not delay in seeking healing. As one of the homilies reminds us, when we have a bodily ailment we do everything to be rid of what pains us, but when our soul is troubled we often draw back, and then we neglect the fountain of our ills while trying to cleanse only the streams.
Another homily speaks of reconciliation and urges us not to let the sun go down upon our wrath, because in the solitude of night the wound can grow greater and the storm becomes stronger. Christ teaches that when there has been hurt, the one who was pained can go privately to the one who caused the pain and tell him his fault, not to accuse harshly but to make the matter known gently so that healing and peace might be possible. This is like a skilled physician who treats a wound quickly before it festers.
Whether a meeting would help bring healing in your case requires careful discernment. Cutting off contact after trauma can be understandable, and reconciliation does not always mean returning to the same closeness or placing yourself in harm again. If you do consider a meeting, seek wise counsel first from a trusted pastor or counselor and, if it proceeds, let it be in a safe setting with another mature person present, with clear boundaries and with the goal of speaking truth in gentleness and seeking peace before God.
We pray now for you, that the God of all comfort would help you. We ask our Father through Jesus Christ, who made peace through the blood of His cross and reconciled us to God, to grant you relief from pain, restore your sleep, remove the numbness, and heal the effects of trauma. We ask Him to show you the root cause of this suffering, to guide your doctors, and to give you wisdom about whether and how to have that meeting. May He guard your heart from lingering anger or fear, fill you with His peace, and lead you step by step toward wholeness in body and soul. We will continue to pray for your healing and for clear direction in the days ahead.