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Magdalyn
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My whole life i was told i was ugly-hard to look at, haggard, look like a peice of sh*%...these are quotes that i've heard.
So as I discovered make-up I wore it more and more- people thought I was pretty - even beautiful!
But as soon as the see me with it off- I'm again and always the ugly duckling- they see my real blemished skin, my purple undereye bags, my light eyebrows and lashes - not the porceline complexion, the dark eyes and rosey cheeks....the quotes turned to "she looks so gross and different without make-up- I can't even look at her"
I still struggle soooo bad- I am a single mom now waiting and praying for a christian husband for almost 7yrs now and i am still at war with my reflection- I can't leave the house without make up on and it makes me cry- will I ever be able to have a husband-could i really let him see me without it- is this apart of Gods plan?
all i see around me is normal and beautiful people that don't look as hard as me- why am i different and what can i do?
am I just gonna stay a lonely ugly duckling?????
So as I discovered make-up I wore it more and more- people thought I was pretty - even beautiful!
But as soon as the see me with it off- I'm again and always the ugly duckling- they see my real blemished skin, my purple undereye bags, my light eyebrows and lashes - not the porceline complexion, the dark eyes and rosey cheeks....the quotes turned to "she looks so gross and different without make-up- I can't even look at her"
I still struggle soooo bad- I am a single mom now waiting and praying for a christian husband for almost 7yrs now and i am still at war with my reflection- I can't leave the house without make up on and it makes me cry- will I ever be able to have a husband-could i really let him see me without it- is this apart of Gods plan?
all i see around me is normal and beautiful people that don't look as hard as me- why am i different and what can i do?
am I just gonna stay a lonely ugly duckling?????