Justin Philip Pomaika'i Laybon Nagasawa
Humble Servant of All
15th day of fasting. Aiming for 40 days. I feel okay. I'm not sure what to do with my life. I gave away my savings, now my parents provide for me. I work for free sometimes with them. There are jobs in the area, but I am afraid to work with strangers. I'm afraid to get my drivers license. I need my mom's help to get me a new state ID. I don't think I'm strong enough to join the military. I was hoping for more time after this fast is complete. I don't know how long providence will last, and the psalms said that my mother and father would forsake me. I was hoping to turn my life around by fasting. Hoping for rapture or a miracle of transformation. I'm getting kind of burnt out of the scripture again. Hoping for more appetite suppressants from diet coke and coffee. Hoping for a focus on study and fitness when this fast is finished. Hoping for good fortune and luck and prosperity. I'm not sure what to do. Hoping for more food and time. Thanks, Jesus, for peace, providence, and progress in Jesus' name, Amen.
