We come before the Lord with heavy hearts, lifting you up in prayer, for the struggles you’ve shared reveal deep spiritual strongholds that must be broken in the name of Jesus Christ. There is much to address here, and we do so with both urgency and love, for the enemy has gained a foothold in areas of your life that must be surrendered entirely to Christ.
First, we must rebuke the ungodly thoughts and curses you’ve spoken against others—even in your anger. The Scripture is clear: *"Bless those who curse you, and pray for those who mistreat you"* (Luke 6:28, WEB). To call for harm or death upon another, even in frustration, is to align yourself with the spirit of murder, which the Lord detests. *"Whoever hates his brother is a murderer, and you know that no murderer has eternal life remaining in him"* (1 John 3:15, WEB). These thoughts are not from God but from the enemy, who seeks to destroy. Repent of this immediately, for the Lord is merciful to forgive when we turn from such wickedness. *"If we confess our sins, he is faithful and righteous to forgive us the sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness"* (1 John 1:9, WEB).
The obsession with the word "reverend" and the reactions to vehicles suggest a spirit of fear and torment is at work. But perfect love casts out fear (1 John 4:18, WEB), and that love is found only in Christ. You must renounce these fears and command these spirits to leave in Jesus’ name. *"For God didn’t give us a spirit of fear, but of power, love, and self-control"* (2 Timothy 1:7, WEB). Speak life, not death. Speak blessing, not cursing. The power of the tongue is mighty, and it must be yielded to the Holy Spirit.
Your mention of cocaine addiction and the triggers from dental procedures reveal a physical and spiritual bondage that must be broken. Drug use is a sin against the temple of God (1 Corinthians 6:19-20, WEB), and it opens doors to demonic influence. The laughter you associate with nitrous oxide is not the joy of the Lord—it is a counterfeit, a distraction from the true peace that comes only through Christ. You must seek deliverance and accountability. *"Submit therefore to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you"* (James 4:7, WEB). This is not a battle you can fight alone; you need brothers and sisters in Christ to stand with you, to pray over you, and to hold you accountable. If you are not already part of a Bible-believing church, we urge you to find one immediately.
As for your studies, we praise God that you seek improvement in reading and writing, for these are gifts He can use for His glory. But know this: apart from Christ, even the wisest human knowledge is foolishness. *"But the natural man doesn’t receive the things of God’s Spirit, for they are foolishness to him, and he can’t know them, because they are spiritually discerned"* (1 Corinthians 2:14, WEB). Ask the Holy Spirit to illuminate the pages as you read, to give you understanding and retention. *"If any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask of God, who gives to all liberally and without reproach; and it will be given to him"* (James 1:5, WEB).
Finally, we must address the name by which you pray. You began well by invoking the name of Jesus Christ, for *"there is no other name under heaven that is given among men, by which we must be saved!"* (Acts 4:12, WEB). There is power in that name—power to save, to heal, to deliver. But we notice a shift to simply "thanks Jesus," which, while not wrong, can become casual. Never forget that salvation, deliverance, and every good gift come *only* through Jesus Christ, the Son of the living God. He is not a genie or a good-luck charm; He is Lord. Approach Him with reverence, for *"God resists the proud, but gives grace to the humble"* (James 4:6, WEB).
Now, let us pray over you:
Heavenly Father, we come before You in the mighty name of Jesus Christ, lifting up our brother who is trapped in cycles of fear, addiction, and ungodly thoughts. Lord, we rebuke every spirit of murder, cursing, fear, and torment that has taken root in his mind and heart. By the blood of Jesus, we command these spirits to leave him now and never return. Father, break the chains of cocaine addiction—both the physical cravings and the spiritual bondage. Restore his mind, renew his thoughts, and fill him with Your Holy Spirit, that he may walk in self-control and victory.
Lord, we ask for Your forgiveness for the curses he has spoken. Cleanse him with the blood of Jesus and teach him to bless those who frustrate him. Give him a spirit of patience and endurance as he studies, that he may grow in wisdom and discernment. Let every word he reads and writes be used for Your glory.
Father, we pray for divine connections—godly men and women who will stand with him in prayer, who will hold him accountable, and who will point him always to Christ. If he is not in a church, lead him to a body of believers who preach the uncompromised Word of God.
Most of all, Lord, draw him closer to You. Let him know the depth of Your love, the power of Your deliverance, and the hope of Your calling. May he walk in freedom, in purity, and in the fullness of life that You offer.
We declare these things in the mighty name of Jesus Christ, our Lord and Savior. Amen.
Brother, you are not beyond God’s reach. His arm is not too short to save (Isaiah 59:1, WEB). Turn from these sins, surrender fully to Christ, and walk in the newness of life He offers. *"Old things have passed away. Behold, all things have become new"* (2 Corinthians 5:17, WEB). The battle is the Lord’s, and He has already won the victory. Now, you must choose to walk in it.
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. 
