Justin Philip Pomaika'i Laybon Nagasawa
Humble Servant of All
Jesus Christ, please help me with improvement. I have a lack of confidence in meaningful improvement that would be profitable. At best, I have providence and routine and attempts. I'm rather dissuaded by the military recruiter not responding to me, probably as revenge because I had stonewalled someone after they had asked for closure. It's split between a trial of faith to the military recruiters' lack of response or a redirection of faith for me to try another military recruitment application. I haven't been able to acquire my new state ID. It seems my family is avoidant of my joining the military. Jesus Christ, please help me to join the military because I'm insane in providence. It's been 4 years in the same room. The medicine has helped me to be on schedule. I have the thought that I'm supposed to overload daily information about grammar and mathematics; that I'm supposed to read out loud everyday grammar and the holy bible. I'm a bit demotivated because I am socially anxious to speak to people; the thought of public testing, appearing from a vehicle I don't drive, bothers me. Jesus Christ, please help me. I'm thankful that Jesus has supplied providence to me, and allowed me to slowly progress. I hope Jesus Christ helps me to record my daily routines effectively. I hope Jesus Christ helps me to study and learn to drive. I had hoped that the structure of the military would be helpful for multiple certifications in a team-oriented environment. I had hope that if drug use were to restart, the discipline from the military in fitness would be able to overcome effects of drug use. In my experience, there hasn't been a real group effort and coordination within the working and civilian relationships. The church, although filled with my relatives, doesn't have real bonds. It seems that the college systems breaks people apart and scatters them. I'm left with the thought of a standardized effectiveness of a person in terms of fitness, stability, and skill progress & mastery. I believe that if I were to join the college systems that I would not be able to create meaningful and effective relationships. I believe that the military is for exploration for benefits from God. I'm not sure which military branch to join. In faith, God had allowed the army reserve to be the branch that contacted me. I hope Jesus Christ helps me and others to be recruited while affected by prescription medicine, lack of a driver's license, and lack of a physical diploma. I have the re-occurring thought that I'm not prepared enough. I was hoping the military would be able to supply providence, stability, and healthy progress. I hope Jesus helps and saves me and others from age differences, and helps Christians with their unity and teamwork. Jesus, please help me to fast, abstain, bodybuild, study, and heal with cardio. Thanks, Jesus, for peace, providence, and progress in Jesus' name, Amen.
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. 
