We come before the Lord with you in this time of deep conviction and spiritual struggle, lifting up your heart to the Father through Jesus Christ, our Savior and Redeemer. It is clear that you are wrestling with guilt, anger, and a desire for justice, yet also recognizing the need for forgiveness and blessing—even toward those who have hurt you. This is a profound tension, and we commend you for turning to Jesus in the midst of it.
First, let us address the weight of your words. The desire for revenge and the cursing of others—even those who have wronged you—is not aligned with the heart of Christ. Jesus teaches us in Matthew 5:44, *"But I tell you, love your enemies, bless those who curse you, do good to those who hate you, and pray for those who mistreat you and persecute you."* The persecution and pain you describe are real, and the emotions they stir in you are understandable, but we must surrender these feelings to the Lord. Vengeance belongs to Him alone, as Romans 12:19 declares, *"Don’t seek revenge yourselves, beloved, but give place to God’s wrath. For it is written, 'Vengeance belongs to me; I will repay, says the Lord.'"*
The laughter you regret and the words you repeated unintentionally have clearly weighed heavily on your conscience. This is a sign of the Holy Spirit working in you, convicting you of sin so that you may repent and receive God’s forgiveness. 1 John 1:9 assures us, *"If we confess our sins, he is faithful and righteous to forgive us the sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness."* There is no sin too great for God’s grace when we come to Him with a repentant heart. We encourage you to confess these things to the Lord, ask for His forgiveness, and trust in His cleansing power.
Regarding the spiritual attacks you describe—such as the disturbing behavior of your father and the sense of persecution—we must remember that our battle is not against flesh and blood, but against spiritual forces of evil. Ephesians 6:12 reminds us, *"For our wrestling is not against flesh and blood, but against the principalities, against the powers, against the world’s rulers of the darkness of this age, and against the spiritual forces of wickedness in the heavenly places."* We must put on the full armor of God (Ephesians 6:10-18) and stand firm in prayer, resisting the enemy with the truth of Scripture and the authority of Jesus’ name.
We also note the pain in your description of your father’s words and actions. It is heartbreaking when those we love speak harshly or behave in ways that wound us. Colossians 3:13 calls us to *"bear with one another, and forgive each other. If anyone has a complaint against another, even as Christ forgave you, so you must do."* This does not mean excusing sinful behavior, but it does mean releasing bitterness and trusting God to work in your father’s heart. Pray for him, that the Lord would soften his heart, bring conviction where needed, and restore your relationship in a way that honors God.
Lastly, we want to address the language you used in your request. While we understand the intensity of your emotions, we must always speak in ways that reflect the holiness and love of Christ. Our words should build up, not tear down, and should align with the truth of Scripture. Let us ask the Lord to guard our tongues and fill our hearts with His peace, so that our speech may be seasoned with grace (Colossians 4:6).
Now, let us pray together for you:
Heavenly Father, we lift up our brother/sister to You, knowing that You see the depths of their heart and the pain they carry. Lord, we ask that You would wash them clean with the blood of Jesus, forgiving every sin they have committed—whether in word, thought, or deed. Remove the weight of guilt and shame, and fill them with the assurance of Your love and forgiveness. Help them to release every desire for revenge and to trust You, the righteous Judge, to bring justice in Your perfect timing.
Lord, we pray for protection over their mind and spirit. Guard them against the schemes of the enemy, and let them stand firm in the truth of Your Word. Break every chain of bitterness, anger, and fear, and replace it with Your peace that surpasses all understanding. We pray for their father, that You would work mightily in his life—whether through conviction, healing, or deliverance. Restore their relationship, Lord, and let Your love be the foundation of their home.
Father, we ask that You would give them a heart of forgiveness, even toward those who have persecuted or mocked them. Help them to bless those who curse them, just as Jesus taught. Fill them with Your compassion and remind them that they, too, were once Your enemies, yet You loved them and sent Your Son to die for them (Romans 5:8).
We declare Your victory over every spiritual attack and every word spoken against them. Let Your truth be their shield and Your Spirit their guide. May they walk in freedom, joy, and the confidence of Your unfailing love.
In the mighty name of Jesus Christ, our Lord and Savior, we pray. Amen.
We encourage you to continue seeking the Lord in prayer and in His Word. Surround yourself with believers who can support and pray for you. If you have not already, we urge you to find a Bible-believing church where you can grow in your faith and receive godly counsel. You are not alone in this struggle—Jesus is with you, and He will never leave you nor forsake you (Hebrews 13:5). Keep your eyes fixed on Him, and trust that He is working all things together for your good (Romans 8:28).
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. 
