We hear the deep distress in your heart, and we join you in lifting this burden to our Lord Jesus Christ, who alone has the power to deliver you from fear, paranoia, and spiritual oppression. It is clear that anxiety and unsettling thoughts are weighing heavily upon you, and we want to remind you that God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power, love, and a sound mind (2 Timothy 1:7). Your focus on the words and actions of others—even something as simple as a conversation about boiled eggs—has spiraled into a place of torment, and we must address this with both truth and prayer.
First, let us speak truth into this situation. The enemy seeks to distort reality, magnify small things into overwhelming fears, and isolate you in confusion. But Jesus said, *"Peace I leave with you. My peace I give to you; not as the world gives, give I to you. Don’t let your heart be troubled, neither let it be fearful"* (John 14:27). The repetition of words, the fear of hidden meanings, and the sense of being haunted by past interactions are not from God. These are tactics of the enemy to steal your peace and distract you from the freedom Christ has already won for you. You are not bound by the words or actions of others—you are bound only to Christ, who has set you free (Galatians 5:1).
We also notice that your prayer, while directed to Jesus, carries a tone of desperation that borders on seeking harm or separation of souls in a way that is not aligned with Scripture. We must gently but firmly remind you that we are not to pray for the destruction or severing of another person’s soul, no matter how much they may provoke or distress us. Instead, Jesus commands us to *"love your enemies, bless those who curse you, do good to those who hate you, and pray for those who mistreat you and persecute you"* (Matthew 5:44). This does not mean you must engage with someone who is causing you harm, but it does mean releasing bitterness and trusting God to handle the situation. You can set boundaries—even distance yourself if necessary—but your heart must remain surrendered to Christ’s lordship over both you and those who trouble you.
As for the fear of "religious interference" or being haunted by past military connections, we urge you to remember that *"there is therefore now no condemnation to those who are in Christ Jesus"* (Romans 8:1). If you have repented of any ungodly ties or conversations from your past, they no longer have authority over you. The blood of Jesus cleanses you from all unrighteousness (1 John 1:9), and no curse or provocation can stand against the power of His name. You are *in Christ*, and that means you are hidden in Him, sealed by the Holy Spirit, and protected by the Father (Colossians 3:3, Ephesians 1:13). The tools you salvaged from the discarded toolbox can serve as a reminder: God takes what was meant for waste and redeems it for His purposes. So too, He is redeeming *you*—your mind, your peace, and your future.
Now, let us pray together for you:
Heavenly Father, we come before You in the mighty name of Jesus Christ, lifting up Your child who is battling fear, paranoia, and spiritual oppression. Lord, You see the depths of their heart, the torment of their mind, and the weight of anxiety that feels unbearable. We ask You to break every chain of fear, every lie of the enemy, and every distorted thought that exalts itself against the knowledge of Christ (2 Corinthians 10:5). Fill them with Your perfect peace, which surpasses all understanding, and guard their heart and mind in Christ Jesus (Philippians 4:7).
Lord, we rebuke the spirit of anxiety and paranoia in Jesus’ name. These are not from You, and they have no place in the life of Your beloved. We declare that *"God didn’t give us a spirit of fear, but of power, love, and self-control"* (2 Timothy 1:7), and we ask You to flood this dear one with Your love, casting out all fear (1 John 4:18). Where there is confusion, bring clarity. Where there is torment, bring rest. Where there is isolation, bring the comfort of Your presence.
Father, we also pray for the individual who has caused distress. We ask that You would silence any voice that seeks to provoke or harm, and that You would either change their heart or remove their influence. Give our sibling in Christ the wisdom to know how to respond—whether through boundaries, silence, or godly confrontation—and the strength to trust You in it. Help them release any bitterness or desire for retaliation, knowing that vengeance belongs to You (Romans 12:19).
Lord, we thank You for the progress and providence already seen, like the salvaged tools that remind us of Your redemption. We ask You to continue working in this situation, bringing complete deliverance and restoration. Let Your child walk in the freedom Christ purchased on the cross, no longer bound by fear or the words of others. Fill them with Your Holy Spirit, that they may *"be strong in the Lord, and in the strength of his might"* (Ephesians 6:10).
We pray all this in the powerful, saving name of Jesus Christ, our Lord and Redeemer. Amen.
Finally, we encourage you to meditate on God’s Word daily, especially verses that combat fear and anxiety. Psalm 91 is a mighty shield against spiritual attacks, and Psalm 23 reminds us that even in dark valleys, the Lord is with us. If you are not already in a biblical community, we urge you to seek out a church or believers who can pray with you and hold you accountable in love. Isolation fuels the enemy’s lies, but fellowship strengthens our faith.
You are not alone in this. The Lord is with you, and so are we, standing in the gap and declaring victory over this battle in Jesus’ name. Keep your eyes fixed on Him, and He will lead you to still waters.