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Brenda222
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I thank everyone for praying for me to get a job. I have started work. I love being back to work I just get down because I dont see my child. My child is with daddy now and I cant stand that. I like being back to work. I am glad I will have a paycheck every week. I just still hurt so much because I have to be to work early and I dont get to see my baby. My baby wants to see me and I cant because I have to take the bus so my child doesnt get to come home during the week now. This hurts so much. I have to leave early and even if I had a car the child care is not open that early so I still never get to see this child. I am still alone. I need my baby to be at home with me. This company never has later hours and I am staying at my job to provide for my child and give us a place to stay. I just hate the hours. I am not quiting. I could not turn down work but I hurt so much because I can only see my baby on the weekends. This hurts so much. I will never in my life change a job without something lined up that I know will be better, never. The benefits are too high at this new job. Dont get me wrong, I am thankful to be working, its 2 buses away but I just hurt so much because I can never see my child during the week. I miss my baby so much. My baby needs a mom when I come in from work. I hate that the childcare is not open that early. Even if I had a car I still wouldnt be able to get my child to childcare because they dont open as early as my job starts. I thank and praise the Lord for giving me a job. I just still pray that I will get a callback at the old job because I had the perfect hours so I could see my baby in the evening and drop my child off at childcare when I get a car. I am missing this child so much in my life. I dont want daddy to try to take custody. Lord please help me so I can be in my childs life. Daddy wants to say I am a bad mom. I am not. I am trying to provide for us and hope to get a car in the future. I dont want him to try to keep my child everyday because I have to work. Lord please let me keep my job but please provide so something new will open for me where I can have time with my child. I dont want to be a weekend parent and I miss this child so much and my baby needs me so much, wants to be with me in the evenings sometimes and part of the time with dad. Lord I cannot stand not seeing my child all week. I am thankful you got me back to work but I really need to be where the hours are good for my child. This company has had these hours for years and have no intentions of chaning these hours. Lord I could not turn down employment from you but I am hurting so much not being with my baby. Please pray for me. Lord I saw my child but didnt have a job. Now I have a job adn dont and cant get to see my child. Lord I just want to be a mom. I dont date. I spend my time with this child and want to see my baby during the week, I dont want to be a weekend parent, I want to be a parent.