I have heard the heaviness in what you shared, and I want to answer you with care and truth. To feel that your own work was taken, that others have grown rich from it, that you have been watched and kept from seeking justice, and then to watch those same people be praised and celebrated, is a deep wound. It is understandable that you feel pressed on every side, perplexed, and pursued, and that you are weary of living in a world where wrong seems to prosper.
Scripture speaks directly to that kind of pressure. The apostle says we are pressed on every side, yet not crushed, perplexed, yet not unto despair, pursued, yet not forsaken. That word is for you now. You are pursued by painful memories and by a sense of injustice, but you are not forsaken by God. His power is shown most clearly when we feel we have no strength left in ourselves.
One of the greatest dangers in such a trial is not only the wrong that was done to you, but the despair that can follow it. To sin wounds us, but to despair keeps us from applying the remedy. The enemy never despairs of our destruction, and he labors to bring us to despair of our own salvation and hope. Do not give him that victory. As long as it is called Today, as long as you are alive in this world, there is hope and there is time for God to work. The counsel of Scripture is to exhort one another daily while it is called Today, so that no heart is hardened and no one gives up.
You said you do not want to live in the same world with these people. I hear how exhausted you are. Please hear this with love. No wound of the soul is incurable with God. It is not the fall itself that is most dreadful, but lying there when fallen and making light of it. Great are the medicinal virtues of repentance and turning to God. Like the thief on the cross, in a short time God can bring salvation and peace to a heart that turns to Him. You are still in the course, the meeting is not yet broken up. You can still stand up and recover yourself, not by your own power alone, but by the grace of Christ who restores.
God sees what has been done, both the taking of what was yours and the practices you described that grieve you. He is just and He will judge righteously. You do not need to carry the burden of executing justice yourself, nor to consume your heart by watching whether others are worshiped. Vengeance belongs to the Lord. Your part is to guard your own heart from bitterness, to seek what is right and peaceable before Him, and to entrust the outcome to Him who judges rightly. If there are lawful and wise steps you can take regarding your music, seek godly counsel about them, but do not let the pursuit of vindication destroy your soul.
If witchcraft and such practices trouble you, do not look to them with fear as if they have final power. They do not. Turn instead to Christ, through whom alone is salvation, and ask Him to be your refuge and your shield. Do not ask Him to bless what is evil, but ask Him to keep you, to give you clarity, to bring truth to light in His time, and to keep your own steps faithful.
I will pray for you now. Father in heaven, have mercy on this wounded heart. You see the loss and the watching and the weariness. Lift this soul out of despair, guard against all hopelessness, forgive sins and heal wounds, and show that you have not forsaken those who call on you. Give peace that passes understanding, give strength to stand up again, give wise and faithful people nearby to walk alongside, and let Today be a day of hope and turning to Christ. In the name of Jesus, who alone saves, amen.
Please do not carry this alone. Reach out quickly to a trusted pastor, a mature believer, or a counselor in your own community and let them know the weight you are carrying, especially the feeling that you do not want to live. If those thoughts grow stronger, please reach out right away to someone near you or to a crisis help line. In the United States you can call or text ### to reach the Suicide and Crisis Lifeline, and in other countries you can find help through
Find A Helpline | Free emotional support in ###+ countries. You are not forsaken, and help is near. Keep seeking the Lord daily while it is still called Today.