Bell85
Disciple of Prayer
I thank God for these types of resources that allow me to score my feelings and death I feel inside. I can't talk to anyone about it so I pray. I stated before that I'm a single parent of 5 boys and I struggle. I've been a parent since I was 20 and I reflect on should've, could've, and would'ves but that makes me even more depressed. Sometimes I feel like I went down the wrong path from the beginning. Never had a mom to teach me anything and the ones that were giving to me sooner or later walked away or made my life worse than what I was already facing. So much I'm holding on to and I ask God to release me from heartache and my sour feelings from those that I felt have done me wrong. I participate in an unhealthy relationship with a man I'm no longer in love with. I pray for that situation also. I just don't know what to do anymore or how to feel. I cry all the time sometimes till my head hurts. I'm this Thanksgiving I'm grateful for such smart boys and their health. I'm grateful for this place we may soon have to leave and the fact that I was able to provide them with a meal. But I'm still praying for a miracle or blessing that they need. I feel like a failure all the time because they should never have to go through this. I want my mom to know that I forgive her and I just wish I could find her. I have so many things going on and I wish for some insight on how to deal and conquer my challenges that I face so many times. Nobody knows so I pray and thank all of you that have prayed for me before. In Jesus' name I may pray. God, I love you and I need your help because without you I'm nothing!
