We hear your cry, dear sister, and we stand with you in this deep valley of pain and confusion. Your suffering is not unseen by the Lord, nor is your wrestling with Him unheard. The weight of injustice you’ve carried—from childhood abuse to the betrayal of a husband who was meant to be a protector—is a burden no one should bear alone. Yet even now, in your exhaustion, you cling to God, and that is a testimony of His grace at work in you.
You ask how a loving Father could allow such suffering, comparing your trials to Job’s. Scripture does not shy away from this question. Job himself cried out, *"Though he slay me, yet will I trust him"* (Job 13:15), yet he also demanded answers from God. And when God finally spoke, He did not explain Himself—He revealed Himself. *"Where were you when I laid the foundations of the earth?"* (Job 38:4). God’s ways are higher than ours (Isaiah 55:8-9), and His justice is perfect, even when we cannot see it. The wicked may seem to prosper for a time, but the Lord declares, *"Vengeance is mine; I will repay"* (Romans 12:19). Your abusers will answer to Him.
You feel unloved by God, yet His Word declares the opposite: *"Can a woman forget her nursing child, that she should not have compassion on the son of her womb? Yes, these may forget, but I will not forget you! Behold, I have engraved you on the palms of my hands"* (Isaiah 49:15-16). The cross is proof of His love—Christ suffered injustice, betrayal, and abandonment so that you would never be forsaken. Your pain does not mean He has abandoned you; it means He is refining you for a purpose greater than you can imagine.
You mention fearing God’s wrath if you walk away, and we must address this with truth and love. The fear you describe is not the holy fear of the Lord, which is reverence and awe, but a tormenting fear born of lies. *"There is no fear in love; but perfect love casts out fear, because fear has punishment. He who fears is not made perfect in love"* (1 John 4:18). God does not desire your obedience out of terror, but out of love and trust. If you are walking on eggshells, it may be time to examine whether you are serving God or a distorted image of Him shaped by trauma. The Father who sent His Son to die for you is not a tyrant waiting to strike you down. He is a good Shepherd who leads you beside still waters (Psalm 23:2).
You have sacrificed much—family, friends, safety—all in the name of following Christ. Yet we must gently ask: Did God truly call you to cut off every non-believer, or did you do so out of fear or misplaced zeal? Jesus ate with sinners and tax collectors (Matthew 9:10-11), and Paul writes, *"If possible, as far as it depends on you, be at peace with all men"* (Romans 12:18). Isolation can make us vulnerable to deception, and the enemy loves to twist Scripture to keep us bound. The witches in your family casting spells are real, but their power is nothing compared to the name of Jesus. *"Greater is he who is in you than he who is in the world"* (1 John 4:4). If their curses persist, it is not because God is powerless, but because there may be areas where you have unknowingly given the enemy a foothold—perhaps through bitterness, unforgiveness, or fear. We must renounce these in Jesus’ name and stand on His promises.
You say God has taken everything, but we declare that He is the giver of every good gift (James 1:17). He has not abandoned you. He is with you in the fire, as He was with Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego (Daniel 3:25). The suffering you endure now is not the end of your story. Joseph was sold into slavery, falsely accused, and imprisoned, yet God raised him to save nations (Genesis 50:20). Your pain has a purpose, even if you cannot see it yet.
Let us pray for you now:
Heavenly Father, we come before You with heavy hearts for our sister who is weary and wounded. Lord, You see every tear she has cried, every injustice she has endured, and every moment she has clung to You in faith. We ask that You would meet her in her pain and reveal Yourself to her in a tangible way. Break the lies of the enemy that whisper You are distant or unloving. Remind her that You are near to the brokenhearted (Psalm 34:18) and that Your love is steadfast.
Father, we renounce every curse spoken against her and declare that no weapon formed against her shall prosper (Isaiah 54:17). We plead the blood of Jesus over her life, her mind, and her heart. Cleanse her of bitterness, fear, and unforgiveness. Help her to release her abusers into Your hands, trusting You to execute justice in Your perfect timing.
Lord, we ask for healing—emotional, physical, and spiritual. Restore what has been stolen from her. Give her the strength to stand firm in Your truth and the courage to reject the lies that have bound her. Surround her with godly community, with believers who will speak life into her and remind her of Your promises. Provide for her needs, Father, and lead her to a place of safety and peace.
Most of all, we pray that You would draw her closer to Your heart. Let her experience Your love in a way that dispels all fear. Remind her that she is Your beloved daughter, cherished and chosen. Strengthen her faith, Lord, and help her to trust You even when she cannot see the way forward.
We ask all these things in the mighty name of Jesus Christ, the One who conquered sin and death so that she could walk in freedom. Amen.
Sister, you are not alone. The road you’ve walked has been long and dark, but the light of Christ is breaking through. You do not have to perform or earn God’s love—He gives it freely. You do not have to fear His wrath—He has already poured it out on Jesus at the cross. You do not have to carry this burden alone—He invites you to cast all your cares on Him (1 Peter 5:7).
We encourage you to seek out a biblical counselor or a trusted pastor who can walk with you through this season. You need safe people to speak truth into your life and help you discern God’s voice from the lies of the enemy. If you are in physical danger, please reach out to local authorities or a domestic violence shelter. God does not call you to endure abuse.
Your story is not over. The same God who parted the Red Sea, raised Lazarus from the dead, and conquered the grave is at work in your life. Keep pressing into Him. Keep crying out to Him. He hears you, He loves you, and He will never let you go.
