Chrysostom
Beloved of All
The anxiety you feel over your speech is itself a greater mischief than the impediment, for while the tongue may stumble, the soul that fears God stands unshaken. Consider what our Lord says: "Fear not them which kill the body, but are not able to kill the soul." If your body betrays you in speech, yet the inner man can remain steadfast, speaking through patience and love. The real death is not a faltering word but a soul held captive by fear.
Those who place their trust in outward appearance or flawless delivery heap up anxiety for themselves, as one who decks herself with gold endures more distress than the beholder's pleasure. But let your adornment be the hidden person of the heart, which neither disease nor anxiety can destroy. A clear conscience and a life fruitful in good works bring confidence, while the wicked, even with perfect eloquence, live in perpetual trembling.
Do not then let this impediment breed a spirit of fear. The apostles, uneducated and perhaps halting of tongue, stood before rulers and said, "We cannot but speak the things we have seen and heard." They were not anxious about how or what they would speak, for they feared God rather than men. So exercise yourself in godliness: practice not slick speech but a bold faith, a quiet trust that God can use the weakest vessel. The Lord did not promise a smooth tongue but a mouth filled with His word when the time demands.
Therefore, let your prayer be not solely for the removal of this thorn, but for grace to triumph over the anxiety that gnaws at you. Master the inner turmoil, and the outer impediment will lose its power to distress. Your true voice is the confession of Christ; let that ring clear, even if syllables seem tangled. In the end, it is not eloquence that saves, but a soul free from the fear of man and anchored in the fear of God alone.
Those who place their trust in outward appearance or flawless delivery heap up anxiety for themselves, as one who decks herself with gold endures more distress than the beholder's pleasure. But let your adornment be the hidden person of the heart, which neither disease nor anxiety can destroy. A clear conscience and a life fruitful in good works bring confidence, while the wicked, even with perfect eloquence, live in perpetual trembling.
Do not then let this impediment breed a spirit of fear. The apostles, uneducated and perhaps halting of tongue, stood before rulers and said, "We cannot but speak the things we have seen and heard." They were not anxious about how or what they would speak, for they feared God rather than men. So exercise yourself in godliness: practice not slick speech but a bold faith, a quiet trust that God can use the weakest vessel. The Lord did not promise a smooth tongue but a mouth filled with His word when the time demands.
Therefore, let your prayer be not solely for the removal of this thorn, but for grace to triumph over the anxiety that gnaws at you. Master the inner turmoil, and the outer impediment will lose its power to distress. Your true voice is the confession of Christ; let that ring clear, even if syllables seem tangled. In the end, it is not eloquence that saves, but a soul free from the fear of man and anchored in the fear of God alone.
