Sexual Orientation

[T Seldon Mc Eldowney]

I am 23 and i have never been turned on by a women. I have been suffering since puberty. High School was tough but it was great compared to what others go through. I am a virgin. I never had a boy friend. I had a girl friend but that was a fake. I kissed her on the cheek once and it lasted only a few weeks. It was a cover. I was raised in a very conservative church and family. My family knows now, because i wanted to kill myself about 3 months ago. I was hospitalized and i now have to make up come classes in january from fall semester. I go to a christian liberal arts college in Michigan (Spring Arbor University) I am a LOUSY christian but i pray A LOT especially since coming out to the closest to me after my hospital visit. I NEED TO READ THE BIBLE. I am fear going to hell but i fear God too. I Very SCARED by the church. I have never had an erection from a women so i am sekptical of any CURE. I am aware God can fix anything but inocent children die everyday by evil people. I am in councalling with the chapalen and a religion professor. The university allows people who struggle in as long as they don't act. I have never acted so i have been good. I desire to live with someone. to live alone is very depressing, but things could be worse. I am in my fifth year at Spring Arbor University. I have always wanted to be a dentist, but i struggled in classes and i had a lot of distractions. I failed the DAT twice this summer not to mention i spent alot of money in applying. Now i have $55,000 in student loans. That helped me want to give up on life. Everyone is very excepting of me. I am suprised at the amount of those who think it is ok for me to act on my desires but not in promiscuty. I am very conflicted on the issue. But i have never acted on my desires with anyone. I am not going to act on it anytime soon. I am now trying to build a relationship with Jesus to see if he can clear my vision. Next semester will be lighter than the fall so i can have (in theory) more time to grow spiritually. I have and almost always had a pornography problem. I need to stop that for me to follow jesus. that stuff is not good. I am giving up my labtops so i don't have a computer to look up this garbage. I am going to give it to a religion professor when he is in this week. I am going to try and get into a Dental Hygiene program someplace in michigan. I need to be patient and discipled to make the right decisions for my life. Patience and discipline are both virtues the Apostle Paul talks about the True Christians in either Collosians 12 or Romans 1 and some other place. Anyways please pray for me i am tied down with weight and sin. Sorry if my thoughts are scattered i am totally free-associationing it so i am just writing freelance.

 

[Dion]

Lord , i lay this person at your feet and guide them to the right of your ways and and bless them with all their needs.....in jesus name amen

 

[SinglemomV]

Lord I lift up T Sheldon to you just now Lord. You know how confused he is Lord, Intervene in his Life Lord. May he open up his heart to you and do Your Will Lord. Comfort and Protect him, as he is struggling Lord. Give him courage and strength and patience and courage Lord. In Jesus Name Amen

 

[Bernie]

Lord, This person is being very open with us. But only you father knows his heart. I ask that you would bring the right people in his life that you will show him what he needs to do. Lord, You are our Counselor and I ask that you will bring him to you father to be Counseled by you in your Word and listen for your voice inside him. I pray this in your Powerful, But Loving name Jesus. Amen

 

[danielpaulcarey]

Dear Lord....I want to say I respect this person for being so open and honest. That takes alot of guts no matter what the subject is...to tell others you need prayer because you are going through problems...I really respect that in a person. Lord...bless this man and whatever your will is for him...let him get a glimpse of it and show him that he's ok, that you will heal him from any ill feelings he has or may have. Jesus, you can do all things and this fine young man knows it, please answer his prayers Lord...I beg of you, thank you Jesus. Hang in there man....the Lord will answer your prayers..keep seeking in him and all things will be added unto you. God bless you brother. You have my prayers.

 

[yuna17]

Father, I pray for T Seldon who seeks to have a closer relationship with you. Light his paths & protect him from all of the lies of the devil... For the devil knows that each of us has a weakness & he will try to expose it any way he can. I claim your victory over T Seldon's repentance & renewed life. Surround him with supportive, Christian friends. Bless him with confidence to overcome life's obstacles. Lord, I pray you would guide him in his studies & let him be successful through this college journey.... I pray you would help him get his foot in the door in a dentist office that would provide a promising career. Bring him clarity & focus & wrap him with your love. Let him find & know peace. Thank you for everything you're doing in his life. I know this will result in a glorious blessing. In Jesus name, AMEN

 

[Heidi]

heavenly father, i pray for this man. I pray that you show this man hes being decieved by the enemy. This is a strong man. I pray he continues to seek you in every aspect of his life. Seek you first, and all else will come. I pray that the enemy no longer attacks him with the pornography. In Jesus Name, amen

 

[carleen]

Seldon, Have u spoke those exact words to the Lord? If not say everything u have posted on this site to him. Seldon, God is the same, yesterday, today & forevermore. He is not going to change his creation to please us. God is unchangeable. It is us that have to be change. Besides our professions, our real destiny is to be change into the image of His son Jesus Christ, the spiritual Adam (Jesus). We must be conform to image of Jesus Christ. That is your real destiny, Seldon & that is your real fullfilment.

Seldon, listen, satan is the opposite of God. satan is called the father of lies. satan undermines the authority of God. What God has created for good, he contaminates it. he contaminates, the atmosphere, water, food, mankind, etc.

I will not tell U, what U want to hear to please U. I will be accountable to God. Hear is what the word of God says if I don't walk in agreement & harmony with His word "Deut 27:26 Curse is he who does not support & give assent to the words of (God) this law to do them. At 5, my maid(female), touched me inappropiately, I ran to my grandmother. What satan was doing was trying to transfere that spirit into me, to established that stronghold in my life. U see God says we should procreate & have familiy. Where as that life style is a tranferring of spirits to procreate.

So Seldon, look back & examine the roots & begenning stage, so U can be delivered, healed, & set free. Father in the name of Jesus I lift up Seldon to U, for U to supernaturally, to set him free. Father, pour out your anointing , for U said it is the anointing that breaks the yoke of bondage. I pray for your Holy Fire to burn deep within & uproot every stronghold that have held him captive in Jesus name. I bind every spirit that is in Seldon life that is contrary to U Father, Son & Holy Spirit. I plead the blood of Jesus to the original wound in his soul, spirit, & body. I come against every violation over his life in Jesus name. I bind the suicide spirit in Jesus name.

Father, I pray in harmony with your original intent for man in Jesus name. Heal & delliver Seldon completely in Jesus name. Father send heavily Holy Spirit men with your anointing to minister to him in Jesus name. Pour out your love to him in Jesus name.

God loves Seldon, God loves U.

 

[K-J]

El Shaddai, come near to T Sheldon this moment. Confession is our first step toward an honorable and lasting relationship with You. His words cry out for forgiveness, understanding and mercy. I pray that the Holy Scriptures might settle deeply in his heart, mind and soul. I pray that people of Godly character and wisdom will stand beside him in this journey without judgement or condemnation. I pray that the power of the blood of Jesus wash over him as the waves of the ocean - releasing him into a newness of life with You. Father, Your word tells us that You love this man. We stand in faithful union that You would deliver him now. Grant him strength, peace, wisdom and understanding as he claims the victory for his life that You have willed. Let no evil person, power or thing interfere in his relationship with You - bind all of it away from him and grant him rest. Carry him when he cannot stand, love him without end. In the holy and precious name of Jesus, I pray for this brother in Christ. Amen.

 

[lizowens]

Father God I ask You to enter into the life of T today, break away the confusion going on in his mind, we know confusion is not of You. I ask You to release him today from the darkness and bondage he is living in, bring light to his life, open his heart and mind to the reality of Your word and will for him as a Christian. I speak a holy spirit conviction and deliverence for him today, in Jesus name amen.