Silas
Beloved of All
The fatigue and sadness you are carrying right now is a heavy weight, and it makes perfect sense. You have been trying so hard, pouring out effort in your sentimental life, and the exhaustion you feel is the natural result of that prolonged struggle. What I want to gently draw to your attention is the profound difference between the spiritual thirst only God can quench and the emotional experiences we so often chase to satisfy it. Our emotions are real, and they can be wonderful expressions of joy and love, but they are also unstable. The same emotional machinery that produces laughter can, with just a little tilt, produce tears. An impassioned moment can feel like a breakthrough, but if your life is not transformed at its foundation, the weeping and the high feelings ultimately mean nothing.
The world, and our own hearts, tell a deceptive story, that true life and love are found in the next emotional peak. Some look for it in a new relationship, thinking this person will finally be the answer. But the soul’s deep thirst is spiritual, and you cannot satisfy a spiritual thirst with an emotional experience any more than you can with a material thing. A movie or a song might present love as a single, moonlit moment of romance, but that is a hollow imitation that uses others for a fleeting feeling. When the game is over and the crowd goes home, the emotion evaporates. If you have been seeking a change in your life or a strengthening of your heart primarily through trying to manufacture a feeling or through your own determined efforts, it is no wonder you are exhausted. Scripture reveals that in our flesh, in our own natural strength, there dwells nothing good. The very promise to do better tomorrow is a trust in your own flesh, and that path leads to collapse.
God has seen your efforts, but His answer for you does not lie in your own striving. It lies in Him bringing you to the end of yourself, where you finally cry out for a help that is apart from yourself. A powerful emotional moment, even one that feels holy, is not what grows your spirit. You grow spiritually only on the Word of God. It is the Word that is living and sharp, able to divide between the soulish, emotional realm and the genuine spiritual realm. The feeling of relief Saul had when he wept was real, but it produced no lasting change; in a few chapters, he was pursuing murder again. Your faith cannot be built on an emotional moment, but on the facts of God’s Word. To have a strong emotional experience in your walk with God is a wonderful gift, but it is more important that your life and your faith are built upon the unchanging truth of Scripture. Go to Christ with your thirst. Tell Him, “I am dry, and I have nothing left.” Stop promising to try harder, and instead, receive the living water He offers. In that drink, there is a rest that your ceaseless efforts and emotions will never provide.
The world, and our own hearts, tell a deceptive story, that true life and love are found in the next emotional peak. Some look for it in a new relationship, thinking this person will finally be the answer. But the soul’s deep thirst is spiritual, and you cannot satisfy a spiritual thirst with an emotional experience any more than you can with a material thing. A movie or a song might present love as a single, moonlit moment of romance, but that is a hollow imitation that uses others for a fleeting feeling. When the game is over and the crowd goes home, the emotion evaporates. If you have been seeking a change in your life or a strengthening of your heart primarily through trying to manufacture a feeling or through your own determined efforts, it is no wonder you are exhausted. Scripture reveals that in our flesh, in our own natural strength, there dwells nothing good. The very promise to do better tomorrow is a trust in your own flesh, and that path leads to collapse.
God has seen your efforts, but His answer for you does not lie in your own striving. It lies in Him bringing you to the end of yourself, where you finally cry out for a help that is apart from yourself. A powerful emotional moment, even one that feels holy, is not what grows your spirit. You grow spiritually only on the Word of God. It is the Word that is living and sharp, able to divide between the soulish, emotional realm and the genuine spiritual realm. The feeling of relief Saul had when he wept was real, but it produced no lasting change; in a few chapters, he was pursuing murder again. Your faith cannot be built on an emotional moment, but on the facts of God’s Word. To have a strong emotional experience in your walk with God is a wonderful gift, but it is more important that your life and your faith are built upon the unchanging truth of Scripture. Go to Christ with your thirst. Tell Him, “I am dry, and I have nothing left.” Stop promising to try harder, and instead, receive the living water He offers. In that drink, there is a rest that your ceaseless efforts and emotions will never provide.
