Anonymous
Beloved of All
I’m numb due to all vile long lived sins over 45 years that God is done with me. I’m a 51 year old female, and my sins are beyond vile. Broken all the 10 commandments and 9 of them continually. I believe I have a reprobate mind and seared heart. I have read the Bible and it confirms it. Also watched videos about it. I have beyond sinful thoughts. I even went to a ###’s house for prayer last night, and acted out as I was possessed by a demons because they told me that they thought that was the problem. Why did I do that? I want to be good. Today I have been okay other than the intrusive thoughts and bad sinful thoughtsI. I keep to myself not by choice. My family has distanced themselves from me like I’m a castaway. They don’t take me serious. It has been that way for months. I stay in a bedroom by myself and they bring me food. I’m losing my mind with not much human contact. I deserve it. Their lives continue and I lay in this room wasting away.
I have a lot of other life issues as well going on right now, but this one is the one that bothers me the most. For example my husband is divorcing me and I will be homeless with no way to support myself. The main one I’m worried about is The eternity in Hell. I don’t want that. I regret everything. No way out of this? Numb and lonely for The Lord’s every lasting love.
I have a lot of other life issues as well going on right now, but this one is the one that bothers me the most. For example my husband is divorcing me and I will be homeless with no way to support myself. The main one I’m worried about is The eternity in Hell. I don’t want that. I regret everything. No way out of this? Numb and lonely for The Lord’s every lasting love.