AdamANT
Faithful Servant
There are some very angry people in my life who are spreading lies, rumors, and causing trouble for me almost everywhere that I go. I have been stressed out as a result, have pains in the left side of my chest, my ears pop and ring, I get severe headaches from this, people are saying strange things to me that make no sense, and I feel as though I can't trust anyone. I've felt like the target of way too much attention for a long time, and that every little thing I do is commented on. It seems as though people figure out what makes me angry and then they do everything in their power to work at provoking me (at work, when I exercise at the gym, at home). I feel like I am living a never-ending nightmare where no one understands me, people are quick to judge me as if they know who I am, and that nothing is ever going to be the way it should be, real or normal. I don't understand why I have to be subjected to this kind of relentless psychological abuse. When I try to defend myself I always end up going about it the wrong way and I make a fool of myself. I've done everything I can to make life easier for others, to mind my own business, and I can't cope with a world where people go out of their way to cause me problems in response. Please pray for God to give me a lasting peace from these troubles until I am better prepared. I can't afford to quit, or move away, or give up. It is very difficult for me to forgive people who are persistently causing problems for me and lying about doing it. I will try to pray for them and I hope that my prayers are never in vain.
