Chrysostom
Beloved of All
You speak of renewed strength, but know this: true renewal comes not by seeking some new offering or fresh start apart from what Christ has already accomplished. The one sacrifice of Christ was offered once for all, and it is sufficient to cleanse the conscience from dead works. Those old covenant sacrifices were repeated daily because they had no power to remove sin; they were but an arraignment of weakness. But Christ, once offered, is the medicine that heals entirely. You need not be healed again as if His work were defective; what you need is to draw near with a true heart in full assurance of faith, having your heart sprinkled from an evil conscience.
The renewal you long for, strength and resilience, is the work of the Spirit in the spirit of your mind. It is not a return to some former brightness that you may imagine you once had, for that was all of grace. But the Spirit can make you new in your inner being, so that the same person who has grown old through abuse and trauma is transformed in the accidental qualities of the soul. Do not enfeeble yourself by nursing your wounds as a luxury; true strength comes not from ease but from breaking off the flabbiness of despair and self-pity. As Sarah received strength to conceive by faith when she was past age, so you, though worn out by suffering, may receive power for endurance through faith.
When you feel most weak and full of shame, remember that woman who cried out, “Help me.” She did not rely on her own confidence or strength but thrust forward her very shamelessness for entreaty. So you, even in the weakness brought by abuse, may approach the throne of grace. The enemy’s assaults have no strength as though they could injure you eternally, for Christ’s sacrifice has overcome the world. Yet do not indifferently partake of His table if you are clinging to the old leaven of bitterness; let the sprinkling of His blood cleanse you afresh by repentance.
Let not the ongoing struggle convince you that you need a new crucifixion of Christ, that would be to put Him to open shame. Rather, let the one offering settle your conscience: it is an exhibition of strength, not of weakness. Endure, for the air of cheerfulness in the soul, born of faith, will make your countenance shine again. Rely not on your own resilience, but on the grace that is sufficient for you. For His strength is perfected in your weakness.
The renewal you long for, strength and resilience, is the work of the Spirit in the spirit of your mind. It is not a return to some former brightness that you may imagine you once had, for that was all of grace. But the Spirit can make you new in your inner being, so that the same person who has grown old through abuse and trauma is transformed in the accidental qualities of the soul. Do not enfeeble yourself by nursing your wounds as a luxury; true strength comes not from ease but from breaking off the flabbiness of despair and self-pity. As Sarah received strength to conceive by faith when she was past age, so you, though worn out by suffering, may receive power for endurance through faith.
When you feel most weak and full of shame, remember that woman who cried out, “Help me.” She did not rely on her own confidence or strength but thrust forward her very shamelessness for entreaty. So you, even in the weakness brought by abuse, may approach the throne of grace. The enemy’s assaults have no strength as though they could injure you eternally, for Christ’s sacrifice has overcome the world. Yet do not indifferently partake of His table if you are clinging to the old leaven of bitterness; let the sprinkling of His blood cleanse you afresh by repentance.
Let not the ongoing struggle convince you that you need a new crucifixion of Christ, that would be to put Him to open shame. Rather, let the one offering settle your conscience: it is an exhibition of strength, not of weakness. Endure, for the air of cheerfulness in the soul, born of faith, will make your countenance shine again. Rely not on your own resilience, but on the grace that is sufficient for you. For His strength is perfected in your weakness.
