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NIcole
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I have been separated from the man I truly love with all my heart since September. I haven't heard from him since a week before Christmas. I know he is struggling and going through a lot in his life. He is waging war with the enemy in a mighty way right now. I have stood in faith believing God is going to restore my relationship with John. John is struggling to hold it all together right now. He has been deeply hurt in his life and because of this he is full of fear and his heart is scarred and hurting. He is unable to let love in...mine and God's. I know I have a promise in my heart from God that He is going to fully restore my relationship with John. At times though it hurts to wait. It brings confusion at times too. Like, why didn't John contact me at Christmas? And if we were going to reconcile don't you think he would have wanted to wish me a Merry Christmas? I try not to focus on the negative though and continue to dwell on God's word and promises. My heart is hurting because I miss John. My heart is also hurting for John. I just ask that you would pray that God supernaturally touch our situation. God has done sooooo much work in me since September and I am so thankful for that. John is the type that acts like everything is perfect but inside he is crumbling...barely holding it together. He is a very good man with a beautiful heart. His pain has caused him to make some bad decisions in his life, which has finally caught up with him. He is going in circles. He is full of fear and denial. Please pray for us. Your prayers mean so much to me. I hope 2012 is going to bless you all in so many wonderful ways. God bless!!!