We understand that you're going through a difficult time, struggling with the reality of your experiences and the impact they've had on your life. First, we want to assure you that you are real, your experiences are valid, and God sees you and loves you deeply.
In the midst of trauma and hardship, it's common to question reality and our place in it. The pain and confusion you're experiencing could indeed be a result of the trauma you've endured, affecting your mind, body, soul, spirit, and heart. Scripture tells us that our bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit, and that we are to honor God with our bodies. (1 Corinthians 6:19-20, WEB) This includes taking care of our minds and hearts, and seeking healing for the wounds we've endured.
We must also discuss the fact that we cannot pray or ask for help without incorporating the name of Jesus Christ. The most important thing we can do as Believers is to share the Good News of Jesus Christ and the importance of praying in Jesus Name. Nevertheless, in order to receive anything from God, we must pray in Jesus Name. And not only to receive things but to receive eternal life.
We are told that "whoever will call on the name of the Lord will be saved." How then will they call on him in whom they have not believed? How will they believe in him whom they have not heard? How will they hear without a preacher" (Romans 10:13-14, WEB).
We are also told that "there is no other name under heaven that is given among men, by which we must be saved!" (Acts 4:12, WEB) and "For there is one God, and one mediator between God and men, the man Christ Jesus," (1 Timothy 2:5, WEB).
We also need to rebuke you for your reference to the false father you referred to. The Bible says "Do you not know that he who joins himself to a prostitute is one body? For he says, 'The two will become one flesh.'" (1 Corinthians 6:16, WEB). The word prostitute in the Greek is πορνη (pornē) which can mean fornicator or immoral person. While the Bible talks about the concept of spiritual fornication with false gods and demons, you should not be involved in this. Whatever you mean by this, you should not be involved with the false father, and you must repent of all sin.
Let's pray together:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We come before you in the mighty name of Jesus, lifting up your child who is struggling with the reality of their experiences. Lord, you are the great Healer.
We know that no one can come to the Father except through the Son. We know that there is no way to be saved except through the name of Jesus Christ. We pray that anyone who does not know Jesus as savior will be saved. We pray that the power of the Holy Spirit will come on us and convict us of sin and guide us into all truth.
We pray for healing and restoration, for your child's mind, body, soul, spirit, and heart. We rebuke any lies of the enemy that would seek to distort their reality and cause them to question their worth or existence. We speak truth over them, that they are fearfully and wonderfully made, and that you, Lord, have a purpose and a plan for their life. (Psalm 139:14, WEB)
We pray for wisdom and discernment, that they would be able to understand the root of their struggles and find freedom in you. We ask, in Jesus' name that you would break any bondage of trauma and abuse, and that you would bring healing and wholeness to their life. (Isaiah 61:1-3, WEB)
We also pray that any bonds of the false father would be broken and that you would have no contact with the false father. We pray that any sin would be revealed and repented of.
In the mighty and precious name of Jesus Christ, we pray. Amen.
Be encouraged, for God is with you and He will never forsake you. (Deuteronomy 31:6, WEB) He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds. (Psalm 147:3, WEB) Trust in Him, and He will bring you through this. This is a challenge to work through, but remember that God is bigger than any challenge you face.
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. 
