God and Jesus, You are my sunshine, my only sunshine, you make me happy, when skies are grey, you never know how much I love you, please don't take my sunshine away. God and Jesus, Carl is just mad at me because he's never seen my face. God and Jesus, Carl is mad at me because I won't turn around for him, and Carl is jealous of me loving God and Jesus. Jesus, My husband and I went to see my step son tonight. It was our anniversary. My husband is so nice and kind to his adopted children. Jesus, Why is my husband so mean to me and our children? His own children don't like him and they don't won't him. It makes no sense. Jesus, I have been abused so much in this relationship from my husband, Carl, and I have repaid my husband with abuse. Their is so much I can do, I have turned both cheeks, I have prayed, I have stood, Jesus, me and my children deserve better than how he treats us. Jesus, I pray when Carl is with me, my children and my family, you are in him. Jesus, My husband, Carl, told me, Jerry, James, H.L., Doyce, Isaiah, and Jacob deserved to die because I cheated on him, these are my father figures and children, first off, I told him if I was going to cheat I would do it in the light in front of his face. 2nd, of all, he said to me, if he didn't come home, then it was because he cheated, and for many years he didn't come home off and on, so back dating to when we were just boyfriend and girlfriend, shouldn't his family pay for his mistakes now, considering he did the cheating? Jesus, If Rd gonna accuse me, I might as well do it. Jesus, Since I haven't, I was faithful then just as I still am faithful. I pray all he has done to me and my family it will be done to his parents, siblings, he says they are God, they are far from God and Jesus. He calls people bad names, I've asked him to stop, he cusses, I've asked him to stop, he judges people, I've asked him to stop, it's time the table turns and he gets a taste of his own words, criticism through the ones he has hurt. What are we suppose to do with his hate? We love our Lord God Jesus Christ and Savior and I'm tired. I'm tired of carrying his hate, when I know Jesus has filled me with love. I had love for him in the past, and I have forgiven him in his past and I say Carl puts himself down with his words, and see how he likes them, his cussing, and he takes the blame for his own faults and mistakes. Jesus, I keep trying to hold on to him and I can't. Jesus, Either he changes his ways with me or he's gone, it's that simple. Jesus, Carl says I am an evil woman, and I have to be because you know how he is. Jesus, It seems every time I pray for him, he prays for others just not me, so maybe I should be out with others and do righteous with the others I have prayed for. Jesus, He says people who work are a bunch of sorry people that don't really work because they aren't plumbers like him. Jesus, I have said, Jesus wasn't a plumber, Jesus was a carpenter, what do you say about him. Truth is, all people fall on Jesus and it's Jesus who tells us what to do and where to go, and he is guiding us with his light whether he likes it or not. Doesn't every knee bow to Jesus? Jesus, Carl might have his parents, siblings and adopted children and son from his past, Jesus, he don't have you, me and our family, 'cause Jesus has me and my family: truth.
I prayed for this. In Jesus Name. Amen
I prayed for this. In Jesus Name. Amen
