HollyLuya
Disciple of Prayer
Dear Lord, I am afraid I don't know how to pray. I speak to you every night and it's almost as if you can't hear me, for things just seem to get worse instead of better. The man I married is not whom I look at today. My heart aches. I am so much In pain. Everyday and night, I am crying and begging for him to return. He has met an older woman, old enough to be his mother. There are nights when he doesn't come home, like tonight. I can't understand. I feel so much pain when I think about him holding her instead of me. Always wondering what is wrong with me, who am I anymore. I just want my husband back that I'm married in 2007. My husband who loved me unconditionally. The one who cared about his family and got involved. The man I see today, is not the man I married. The man he is today is evil. He tells me that he wants to enjoy other women sexually. He doesn't know if he may have ever loved me. He doesn't want to touch me, he doesn't want to sleep with me, he doesn't even want to acknowledge that I'm sitting beside him. And when he witnesses my pain he puts me down and tells me I'm a pity party and a big baby. He even request that I leave this (His) home immediately, knowing I have nowhere to go. He is heartless.
This if not my husband, nor the man I married. I know he is in there somewhere and I have to find him. I pray that all these other women, that are with my husband when I'm not, will care more about breaking a family up, so they will leave my husband alone. I pray my husband comes.back to me to love me the way he did when we were wed. I pray that he will acknowledge me when home. oh dear God it hurts so much. I want to feel his touch again, his kiss, his hugs, his love. Why does she get to feel this instead of me, when I am deserving. Why does he give her what I beg for. Please let him have trust in me and be faithful, believe in me, be honest and everything he was when he spoke, "I do." Dear heavenly father I pray to you, Amen.
I prayed for this. In Jesus Name. Amen.
This if not my husband, nor the man I married. I know he is in there somewhere and I have to find him. I pray that all these other women, that are with my husband when I'm not, will care more about breaking a family up, so they will leave my husband alone. I pray my husband comes.back to me to love me the way he did when we were wed. I pray that he will acknowledge me when home. oh dear God it hurts so much. I want to feel his touch again, his kiss, his hugs, his love. Why does she get to feel this instead of me, when I am deserving. Why does he give her what I beg for. Please let him have trust in me and be faithful, believe in me, be honest and everything he was when he spoke, "I do." Dear heavenly father I pray to you, Amen.
I prayed for this. In Jesus Name. Amen.
