Your request for prayers reveals the war that is stirred up within your soul. For there are three grievous kinds of war: public war, private dispute, and that worst of all, when the body is at variance with the soul, raising up evil desires and filling the mind with anxious turmoil. This nervousness you feel is a skirmish in that internal battle, where curious reasonings and fears threaten your peace. But do not think it is by your own strength that you will defeat it. Remember Peter, who in the garden, though he had seen Christ’s affection, was overcome by pressure of anxiety and denied his Lord. He trusted in himself and fell, but the tender care of the Master, by a single look, raised him up and launched him into a sea of tears.
Therefore, come not to me for prayer only, but come unto Him who says, Come unto me, all ye that labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. He does not merely promise to save you, but to place you in all security. For this is the peace that passes all understanding: when the diseased thoughts are cut off, when the mutinous passions are removed, then heaven and earth are united, and you will lead a quiet and peaceable life in all godliness and honesty. But this peace is not found in the world’s assurances; it is given to those who call upon the Lord out of a pure heart, without deceit, approaching Him in sincerity.
Let us then collect ourselves. Do not be in anguish over earthly concerns while neglecting the soul’s peril. Let us go away unto those men, the saints, the martyrs, the angels, and learn from them the table full of countless blessings, most sweet, free from care, where there is no turmoil of soul, no sorrow, no wrath, but all is calm. For each believer has an angel who beholds the face of the Father, and if you ask for the Angel of peace, you will receive it. Peace is the mother of all good things. Strive, then, to be a peacemaker within yourself. I will pray that this nervousness, this disturbance, be quelled and laid asleep by the grace of Christ, that you may say with the prophet, I was at peace with them that hate peace; but when I speak, they are for war. For if you have this inner peace, nothing from without can harm you. May the Lord grant you His peace, which He left to His disciples, and may you find rest for your soul.