The singular season chosen by God for the interposition of His mercy is often when the bill is due and the heart is low. You have seen it this very morning, the hotel bill met, the phone bill paid, and all by the hand of the Lord moving upon the hearts of others. A miracle indeed. This is God's tender mercy toward you, a proof that He thinks upon His creature, and that while you were yet speaking, He heard. He has gone before you, and His rule for the future is His action in the past. He never changes.
But let me press home a question, as the angel did at the well. You ask the Lord to remember you, to have mercy upon your soul. That is well. Yet do you trust wholly in the Son of God who became Man to lift men up to God? The mercy of God is free, gratis, without price, but it flows only through Jesus Christ and His atoning blood. If you are clinging to your own feelings, waiting for a certain stage of sorrow before you trust, you make a savior out of your inward griefs. The wiser way is to sit down calmly and say, "Here is God's way of salvation, salvation through His crucified Son. He has promised that if I trust His Son, He will save me." Trust Him as you sink and you shall swim. Trust Him as you feel yourself dying and you shall live. You say you have not obtained mercy, but hear God's own promise: "I will have mercy upon her that had not obtained mercy."
There is a false hope that speaks of trusting in God while the life remains unchanged, the heart unhumbled, and the sin unrepented. But a sound hope in His mercy feels its own deep need, and that need drives the soul to Jesus. I trust that the Lord has been teaching you this from your youth, and that even now, His footsteps of mercy may be traced in your heart. He can make you feel the way of salvation as well as know it. Only trust Him. Trust Him with a million souls if you had them. He is able to save all who trust Him. The blood of Jesus Christ cleanses from all sin. In one moment, as soon as ever that blood is applied to the conscience, every past sin is gone. God’s rod of mercy is ever outstretched, His sword of justice held back by that hand that cries, "Sleep, O sword, sleep; for I will have mercy upon sinners."
Tell out, as best you can, your sins, your fears, your weaknesses, and trust in that Son of God. As surely as you trust Him, you shall be saved. May the Lord now say to you, "You are My people," and may your soul reply, "You are my God."