msbella
Disciple of Prayer
Hello, I originally posted this request weeks ago and my prayer has still not been answered. I am struggling so very badly and am still trying to hold on to that "mustard seed" of faith that is referenced in scripture. I was watching a sermon and the Pastor spoke on having a faith of Expectancy and you have to believe that God wants your dreams to come true and that He is working behind the scenes. The Pastor also said you have to believe this is your Due Season. I try and tell myself that but it seems nothing is working out. This past weekend I flew and spent the weekend with the mother of the man I loved (they are very close)This was a pre-planned trip and I almost cancelled because of how things are with he and I but something told me to go. He also asked that I not disappoint his mother by not going. It was the best time ever and you could see she genuinely likes me. She actually asked me to come back. I thought this was a sign from God because everything was so perfect, the weather, the flight and most important, the visit. Now just a couple days later I feel hopeless. It feels like my dream won't happen and some other woman will have the man I loved for so long. I am broken hearted and at the depth of despair. How do you keep hoping and have faith when nothing ever happens. I need Favor. Sometimes emotional suffering is worse than any other because it can make you want to give up on life. I try so hard to be such a good person to everyone but I feel so defeated. I know this is long but please see the repost below of my original prayer and I ask you to pray for me and that my dreams come true and that this is my Due Season. Prayer is the only thing that keeps me hanging on.
Posted June 21, 2015 - 8:57 PM
Hello I have loved a man for 23 years but we always have bad timing so we never had had a real chance at being together. Our timing has always been off & just when it looks like we have a chance, another woman enters the picture & I am worried he won't see the blessing of me and open his heart to me. I love him deeply. I don't care about material things, I care about him and having a life with him. It seems I am there for so many others and I pray for the happiness of others but my dreams never happen. I am always adjusting my dreams or walking away because they never happen. I am broken, depressed, hurt. I still try and hold on to faith that it will happen but every day is worse than the next. It's hard to see through to tomorrow. It would be nice to for once in my life see my dreams happen. I want to have a chance with the man I love. I pray for God's favor. Having a hard time holding on. I see what people mean when they say they are in such despair that it hurts to think about tomorrow. Please pray that Trae and G will have their chance and soon. Please pray the he opens his heart to me and remembers why I am important to him. My heart is hurting so very badly. If I continue to never see my dreams happen, I don't know what I will do. It's so very hard. This is important to me for so many reasons. My life has been so hard and yet, I have always tried to be a good person and been there for others but now I need to have some happiness for me. I am asking for Favor from God that my dream won't continue to be delayed and that it will happen. I know everyone has something going on in their lives and my life is no more important than anyone else's but if you have time, I would appreciate a prayer for my relationship and that God will restore it and make it better and give me a chance with this man and that he finally see the blessing of me and what we are to each other. I pray for all of you as well. Thank you.
Posted June 21, 2015 - 8:57 PM
Hello I have loved a man for 23 years but we always have bad timing so we never had had a real chance at being together. Our timing has always been off & just when it looks like we have a chance, another woman enters the picture & I am worried he won't see the blessing of me and open his heart to me. I love him deeply. I don't care about material things, I care about him and having a life with him. It seems I am there for so many others and I pray for the happiness of others but my dreams never happen. I am always adjusting my dreams or walking away because they never happen. I am broken, depressed, hurt. I still try and hold on to faith that it will happen but every day is worse than the next. It's hard to see through to tomorrow. It would be nice to for once in my life see my dreams happen. I want to have a chance with the man I love. I pray for God's favor. Having a hard time holding on. I see what people mean when they say they are in such despair that it hurts to think about tomorrow. Please pray that Trae and G will have their chance and soon. Please pray the he opens his heart to me and remembers why I am important to him. My heart is hurting so very badly. If I continue to never see my dreams happen, I don't know what I will do. It's so very hard. This is important to me for so many reasons. My life has been so hard and yet, I have always tried to be a good person and been there for others but now I need to have some happiness for me. I am asking for Favor from God that my dream won't continue to be delayed and that it will happen. I know everyone has something going on in their lives and my life is no more important than anyone else's but if you have time, I would appreciate a prayer for my relationship and that God will restore it and make it better and give me a chance with this man and that he finally see the blessing of me and what we are to each other. I pray for all of you as well. Thank you.
