We hear the burden in your heart and we stand with you in this struggle, bringing your request before the throne of grace together in Jesus' name. We understand the exhaustion and shame that comes from falling into the same sin almost every day, and the feeling of being trapped and unable to stop in your own strength. We also hear your fear about your eternal life and your earthly wellbeing, and your deep desire to become godly, to live a holy life, to love what God loves and hate what He hates, and to see Him open the door to the work He has planned for you.
We want to gently but firmly rebuke the lie that keeps you from the Bible and from prayer. The enemy wants you to believe that because you have sinned you are unworthy to come to God, so you stay away and the sin grows stronger. That is not the truth of Scripture. There is therefore now no condemnation to those who are in Christ Jesus, who do not walk according to the flesh, but according to the Spirit Romans 8:1. We are told to draw near with boldness to the throne of grace, that we may receive mercy, and may find grace for help in time of need Hebrews 4:16. If we confess our sins, he is faithful and righteous to forgive us the sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness 1 John 1:9. Do not let shame keep you from confession and from the Word. It is the Word and prayer that cleanses and strengthens us, and turning away from them only leaves us weaker for the next temptation.
We also must lovingly rebuke the sin itself, whatever this particular repeated sin may be. God calls us not to make peace with sin but to turn from it completely. We must not continue in sin that grace may abound, for how shall we who died to sin live any longer in it Romans 6:1-2. Sin shall not have dominion over you, for you are not under law, but under grace Romans 6:14. God has made a way of escape for every temptation, for no temptation has taken you except what is common to man. God is faithful, who will not allow you to be tempted above what you are able, but will with the temptation also make the way of escape, that you may be able to endure it 1 Corinthians 10:13. We are called to walk by the Spirit, and you will not fulfill the lust of the flesh Galatians 5:16 and to resist the devil, and he will flee from you James 4:7. If this repeated cycle involves sexual immorality, impurity, pornography, or any form of fornication or adultery which is sex outside of marriage between a man and a woman, we must be clear that God calls us to flee sexual immorality and to keep our bodies holy, for our bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit. Whatever the sin is, we cannot overcome it by willpower alone. We overcome by repentance, by renewing our minds through the Word Romans 12:2, by removing triggers and making no provision for the flesh, by bringing it into the light with a trusted mature Christian believer for accountability, and by daily depending on the Holy Spirit and not on ourselves.
We notice your prayer mentions God but does not mention Jesus Christ, and we must speak to this because it is central to everything you are asking. It is only by the name of Jesus that we have access to the Father and it is only through Him that we have forgiveness and eternal life. Jesus said, I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father, except through me John 14:6. There is salvation in none other, for neither is there any other name under heaven, that is given among men, by which we must be saved Acts 4:12. If you have not yet fully surrendered your life to Jesus, we urge you to believe in your heart that God raised Him from the dead and confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord Romans 10:9, turning from sin and trusting Him alone to save you and to give you power to live a holy life. It is His blood that makes you worthy, not your own perfection.
We also lift up your financial need and the closed doors for work. We know how heavy it feels when every door seems shut and the pressure mounts. Our Father knows your needs. We are reminded to seek first God's Kingdom, and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well Matthew 6:33 and that our God will supply every need of yours according to his riches in glory in Christ Jesus Philippians 4:19. He has plans for you, for we know the thoughts that God thinks toward us, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give us hope and a future Jeremiah 29:11. We pray that even in this waiting He will provide, sustain you, and guide you to the decent work He has prepared for you.
We pray together for you now.
Father in heaven, we come before You in the name of Jesus Christ Your Son. We lift up this dear one who is weary from this daily battle with sin and we ask for Your mercy and Your delivering power. Forgive us where we have sinned and cleanse us from all unrighteousness. Create in us a clean heart, O God, and renew a right spirit within us Psalm 51:10. Break this cycle and stronghold by the power of the cross. Fill us with Your Holy Spirit so that we may walk by the Spirit and have strength to say no to the flesh, to flee temptation, and to resist the devil. Help us to love what You love and hate what You hate, and to hunger for Your Word and for prayer again. Take away the spirit of fear and shame, for God did not give us a spirit of fear, but of power, love, and self-control 2 Timothy 1:7, and give us assurance of eternal life through faith in Jesus. We also ask You to open the right door for work, to provide financially, and to show Your faithful provision and leading in this earthly life. Teach us to trust You day by day and to live holy as You are holy. We ask all of this in the mighty and only saving name of Jesus Christ, amen.