Silas
Faithful Servant
I hear the weight of these two years in your words, the way suffering has stacked one burden upon another until your whole family feels the strain in its bones. You have carried what feels like an unending series of blows, and when hardship lingers that long, it is natural to wonder if some dark spiritual force has set itself against you. You have reached out for help, and that is the right instinct. But I want you to notice that you began by calling out to a mother, and it is there we must stop and be clear. The healer and fortress you need is not a mother but the living God who made heaven and earth, the God of Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob, the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ. He alone is your refuge. Run to the right person, and everything else begins to fall into its proper place.
Those fears about ungodly powers working against your family are not to be dismissed. Scripture shows us plainly that evil spirits exist and that they can oppress. Jesus himself set many free from such bondage. Yet we must also understand that not every prolonged trial is a direct spiritual attack. In your own letter you mention “continuous hurdles” and “back to back severe medical challenges.” Those are real, physical miseries that any faithful person can endure. The apostle Paul knew what it was to be buffeted by a messenger of Satan, a thorn in the flesh he begged the Lord three times to remove. God did not take it away. Instead, He gave grace to endure it. So we must hold two truths together: evil is real and its hatred of families is real, but God’s permitting of suffering is also real and is not a sign that He has abandoned you.
When you feel surrounded and wonder if some hidden enemy is bringing revenge or harm, the first thing you must do is take up the weapon our Lord used. When Satan attacked Jesus in the wilderness, what did He do? He answered every assault with the Word of God. “It is written.” That is your response as well. Find the promises in Scripture that speak directly to your fear and speak them aloud. The shield of faith quenches the fiery darts of the wicked one, and the sword of the Spirit is the Word of God. Do not let your mind run in endless circles of dread. Make it submit to what God has said. He is your fortress; He is not a distant observer. That is not a feeling. It is a fact you stand on when feelings scream otherwise.
You ask for healing, and it is right to ask. Healing is woven into the work of Christ. Matthew tells us He took our infirmities and bore our sicknesses. But healing does not always look the same. Sometimes it comes in a sudden rush, where you can almost feel the life flood back into your body in a moment. I have experienced that. Other times it is gradual, a process as natural as the body mending a wound over time. That process is still divine, because the One who created nature set those restorative laws in place. And there are other healings we do not always name. Our minds carry deep scars, and our emotions can be raw with pain. When God binds up those broken places and brings peace where panic reigned, that is a divine healing of the mind and heart. We must be willing to see His hand in all these forms, not just the dramatic one. Yet we must also acknowledge what Scripture makes plain: it is not His will to heal every person in every case in this life. If Paul could be told “My grace is sufficient for you,” we have no grounds to presume that every illness must end in a miracle now. That is hard, but it is true.
As you walk through this, you must guard your heart against the temptation to grow familiar with evil. Do not let it become a companion you endlessly study. The fear of the Lord is to hate evil. There is a false craving for secret knowledge about dark spiritual forces that only wounds you further. You do not need to understand every tactic of the enemy. You need to know your Shepherd. Depart from evil, turn your eyes away from its threats, and fix them on the commands of God. What does He ask of you while you wait? Walk in truth. Love your family as Christ loved the church. Do not let the hardship make you bitter toward one another. A family living in proper relationship under God is a strong fortress in itself.
You spoke of hidden burdens. You are not meant to carry those alone. Lay them out before the Lord, and bring them into the light with trusted believers who will stand with you in prayer. Sometimes the weight grows stronger in silence. Evil loves darkness and secrecy, but the truth of Christ brings things into the open where they lose their power.
Finally, remember that the final word over your life does not belong to sickness or to evil. There is coming an end to the reign of evil. The days where evil seems to stack upon evil will not last forever. Do not let your heart sink into despair by watching the storm around you. You are in a family line that traces back not through a human heritage, but through faith in Jesus Christ, and that line stretches forward into a kingdom where there will be no more death, no more sorrow, and no more pain. That is your destination. That is your hope. Until that day, pray boldly for healing. Stand on the promises. Speak the Word against the fear. And trust that whether in life or in death, you are secure in the hands of the Great Physician who has already won the victory.
Those fears about ungodly powers working against your family are not to be dismissed. Scripture shows us plainly that evil spirits exist and that they can oppress. Jesus himself set many free from such bondage. Yet we must also understand that not every prolonged trial is a direct spiritual attack. In your own letter you mention “continuous hurdles” and “back to back severe medical challenges.” Those are real, physical miseries that any faithful person can endure. The apostle Paul knew what it was to be buffeted by a messenger of Satan, a thorn in the flesh he begged the Lord three times to remove. God did not take it away. Instead, He gave grace to endure it. So we must hold two truths together: evil is real and its hatred of families is real, but God’s permitting of suffering is also real and is not a sign that He has abandoned you.
When you feel surrounded and wonder if some hidden enemy is bringing revenge or harm, the first thing you must do is take up the weapon our Lord used. When Satan attacked Jesus in the wilderness, what did He do? He answered every assault with the Word of God. “It is written.” That is your response as well. Find the promises in Scripture that speak directly to your fear and speak them aloud. The shield of faith quenches the fiery darts of the wicked one, and the sword of the Spirit is the Word of God. Do not let your mind run in endless circles of dread. Make it submit to what God has said. He is your fortress; He is not a distant observer. That is not a feeling. It is a fact you stand on when feelings scream otherwise.
You ask for healing, and it is right to ask. Healing is woven into the work of Christ. Matthew tells us He took our infirmities and bore our sicknesses. But healing does not always look the same. Sometimes it comes in a sudden rush, where you can almost feel the life flood back into your body in a moment. I have experienced that. Other times it is gradual, a process as natural as the body mending a wound over time. That process is still divine, because the One who created nature set those restorative laws in place. And there are other healings we do not always name. Our minds carry deep scars, and our emotions can be raw with pain. When God binds up those broken places and brings peace where panic reigned, that is a divine healing of the mind and heart. We must be willing to see His hand in all these forms, not just the dramatic one. Yet we must also acknowledge what Scripture makes plain: it is not His will to heal every person in every case in this life. If Paul could be told “My grace is sufficient for you,” we have no grounds to presume that every illness must end in a miracle now. That is hard, but it is true.
As you walk through this, you must guard your heart against the temptation to grow familiar with evil. Do not let it become a companion you endlessly study. The fear of the Lord is to hate evil. There is a false craving for secret knowledge about dark spiritual forces that only wounds you further. You do not need to understand every tactic of the enemy. You need to know your Shepherd. Depart from evil, turn your eyes away from its threats, and fix them on the commands of God. What does He ask of you while you wait? Walk in truth. Love your family as Christ loved the church. Do not let the hardship make you bitter toward one another. A family living in proper relationship under God is a strong fortress in itself.
You spoke of hidden burdens. You are not meant to carry those alone. Lay them out before the Lord, and bring them into the light with trusted believers who will stand with you in prayer. Sometimes the weight grows stronger in silence. Evil loves darkness and secrecy, but the truth of Christ brings things into the open where they lose their power.
Finally, remember that the final word over your life does not belong to sickness or to evil. There is coming an end to the reign of evil. The days where evil seems to stack upon evil will not last forever. Do not let your heart sink into despair by watching the storm around you. You are in a family line that traces back not through a human heritage, but through faith in Jesus Christ, and that line stretches forward into a kingdom where there will be no more death, no more sorrow, and no more pain. That is your destination. That is your hope. Until that day, pray boldly for healing. Stand on the promises. Speak the Word against the fear. And trust that whether in life or in death, you are secure in the hands of the Great Physician who has already won the victory.
