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I need prayers and strength to keep trying because last year I was watching something very bad and it tries and sometimes pop up to my head and goes away and I let it it was about this inappropriate step siblings relationship and the end of the chapter the step sister got pregnant had child and married later it's sick and illegal and I didn't realize authors are super sick some because I was searching a kissing video being cheeky and I saw it recommended and I ignored at first then watched it more they had porn of course too for months I stayed away from it which is good since January of 2025 it's may 20, 2026 I need nonstop prayers and to do my part to control it and to continue to be trained by God no matter what even if it's bad curiosity I deserve a clean healthy mind not allowing the devil trying to attack me and get the best of me I feel ok because God always there for me but in mornings I'm mentally not feeling ok and afternoons sometimes but mostly mornings I really need prayers badly and theres times I mostly need prayers because I don't know how to pray and say much and I really need to learn more how to and never give up for past days I slepted more feeling not myself because of it out of nowhere it tries to pop up in my head I think because my actions of course but please keep praying for me I really appreciate this and I want a work from home job anything good that don't requires id because I'm very poor we are good with food thanks to God and I need prayers for that and my mom and siblings and me spiritually and mentally and hopefully my mom be freed from smoking weed she's a good person but everyone has personal addictions because we all go through alot I love drawing and this guy wanted to pay me 100 every end of month for sharing my drawing to him for his music career album but I sadly rejected but I really need prayers because I don't want to depend on nobody and trust and depend on God only and no matter how hard it is I want to stick with God lows and highs and prayers for my brothers and sisters not just my blood ones everyone I don't know and know. Please keep me and my family in your prayers I have a bad mental breakdown when we running low with food and I think I have a eating disorder and we need prayers I know this sounds ungrateful I really appreciate we have a roof over our head but the water is dirty and there's no microwave in the other room for my mom and siblings and hope to find a apartment permanently so we don't have to go through this again and to continue to repent and get closer to God no matter what they do give us some hygiene stuffs and food the church I'm very grateful just would been easier for my family if we was in a place with clean water something that looks like a apartment where we can live in peace with God forever and never let anything that's holding us back in our lives again and nonstop prayers.
 
We hear your cry for help and stand with you in prayer, lifting every burden to the throne of grace. The struggle you describe, being haunted by impure images and thoughts, is a real battle, one that the enemy uses to shame and isolate believers. But we declare that you are not alone, nor are you defined by past mistakes. The Word of God tells us, "No temptation has taken you except what is common to man. God is faithful, who will not allow you to be tempted above what you are able, but will with the temptation also make the way of escape, that you may be able to endure it" (1 Corinthians 10:13 WEB). You have already taken the first step by resisting and turning away since January, this is evidence of God’s work in you.

The content you were exposed to is not only sinful but deeply harmful, as it glorifies immorality, incest, and fornication, all of which God explicitly forbids. Scripture is clear: "But sexual immorality, and all uncleanness, or covetousness, let it not even be mentioned among you, as becomes saints" (Ephesians 5:3 WEB). The enemy wants to keep you trapped in guilt and shame, but Jesus came to set you free. "If therefore the Son makes you free, you will be free indeed" (John 8:36 WEB). We rebuke every lying spirit that tells you this battle is hopeless. You are not your past, and your mind can be renewed by the power of God’s Word.

Your desire for a clean mind and a life fully surrendered to Christ is beautiful and honors Him. We encourage you to fill your mind with Scripture, worship, and godly fellowship. "Finally, brothers, whatever things are true, whatever things are honorable, whatever things are just, whatever things are pure, whatever things are lovely, whatever things are of good report: if there is any virtue and if there is any praise, think about these things" (Philippians 4:8 WEB). Replace those impure thoughts with prayer, praise, and the promises of God. When the enemy attacks, declare aloud, "I have been crucified with Christ, and it is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me" (Galatians 2:20 WEB).

We also lift up your financial struggles and the weight of providing for your family. It is not ungrateful to ask God for provision, He invites us to bring our needs to Him. "But seek first God’s Kingdom and his righteousness; and all these things will be given to you as well" (Matthew 6:33 WEB). We pray for a godly work-from-home opportunity that aligns with your gifts and honors Him. Your rejection of the drawing offer, though difficult, shows your commitment to trust God alone. He sees your heart and will provide in ways that do not compromise your values.

For your mother and siblings, we pray for deliverance from addiction and bondage. "He sent his word, and healed them, and delivered them from their destructions" (Psalm 107:20 WEB). We ask God to break every chain of smoking, weed, or any other stronghold in your family. May they encounter the love of Christ in a way that transforms their hearts. For your mental health, we declare healing over your mind and emotions. "The peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your thoughts in Christ Jesus" (Philippians 4:7 WEB). You are not weak for struggling, you are human, and God meets you in your weakness.

For your living situation, we pray for a permanent, safe home with clean water and dignity. "The Lord is my shepherd. I shall lack nothing" (Psalm 23:1 WEB). We ask God to open doors for better housing and to provide for every need, including hygiene supplies and food. You are not forgotten, and your cries have reached Heaven.

Let us pray for you now:

Heavenly Father, we come before You in the mighty name of Jesus, the name above every name. We lift up this precious child of Yours who is fighting for freedom, provision, and peace. Lord, we thank You that You are near to the brokenhearted and save those who have a contrite spirit (Psalm 34:18). We rebuke every spirit of addiction, impurity, and despair that seeks to torment them. We declare that the blood of Jesus has cleansed them from all unrighteousness (1 John 1:9), and we plead that blood over their mind, heart, and home.

Father, we ask You to renew their mind daily with Your Word. Let Your truth be a shield against the enemy’s lies. Strengthen them in moments of weakness, and remind them that Your grace is sufficient (2 Corinthians 12:9). Provide for every need, financially, emotionally, and physically. Open doors for a godly job, a safe home, and abundant provision. We pray for their mother and siblings, that Your Spirit would convict and draw them to repentance and freedom. Break every chain of addiction and fill their home with Your peace.

Lord, heal their mental and emotional struggles. Replace anxiety with trust, despair with hope, and shame with the righteousness of Christ. Teach them to pray without ceasing and to lean on You in every season. Surround them with a community of believers who will encourage and uplift them. May they experience Your presence in tangible ways, knowing that You will never leave nor forsake them (Hebrews 13:5).

We thank You, Father, that You are working all things together for their good (Romans 8:28). May they grow in faith, holiness, and dependence on You alone. We ask all these things in the powerful name of Jesus Christ, our Lord and Savior. Amen.

You are not forgotten, and your fight is not in vain. Keep pressing into God, even when it feels hard. He is faithful, and He will complete the good work He has begun in you (Philippians 1:6). If you do not yet know Jesus as your personal Lord and Savior, we urge you to surrender your life to Him today. "For God so loved the world, that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish, but have eternal life" (John 3:16 WEB). Confess your sins, believe in His sacrifice, and receive the gift of salvation. There is no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus (Romans 8:1). You are loved, you are valued, and your future is bright in Him.
 
We are so glad you reached out and that you are fighting to hold onto a clean, healthy mind. What you described, those thoughts that pop up uninvited, especially in the mornings, can feel exhausting and even frightening. But the very fact that you hate those images and have stayed away from that content for over a year shows that God is already at work in you. You are not weak; you are someone who has been saying no to something harmful, and that is real strength. The longer you refuse to entertain those thoughts and instead turn your mind to Christ, the weaker their pull will become.

It sounds like mornings hit you the hardest, so maybe we can gently suggest this: when you first wake up, before the day rushes in, simply speak a few words to God. It doesn’t have to be long or polished, something like, “Jesus, my mind is Yours. Guard my thoughts today.” That quiet moment can anchor you when the mental attacks come. And when an image surfaces, you might practice a quick, silent response: “I belong to Christ, and He is renewing me.” That is not ignoring the struggle, it is actively choosing the truth over the lie.

We also want you to know that we are praying for you and your whole family, for clean water, for a safe and permanent home, for steady provision, and for your mom’s freedom from addiction. You mentioned you sometimes worry about your relationship with food; if that feels like more than stress, please consider talking to a doctor or a trusted person at your church who can help you find wise, compassionate support. That is not a failure; it’s good stewardship of your health.

You asked for prayer to learn to pray more. That is a beautiful request, and God loves to teach us. You do not need fancy words, just your honest heart. Keep coming to Him, even when it feels clumsy.

Lord Jesus, thank You for never letting go of this one. Quiet the intruding thoughts and flood their mind with Your peace each morning. Give steady strength to keep turning away from what harms and toward Your light. Provide for this family, clean water, stable housing, and a job that will bring dignity and provision. Set the mother free from addiction and draw each family member close. Teach them to pray with simple trust, and let them feel the comfort of many prayers covering them. In Your name, amen.
 
It is a mercy that you feel the foulness of these intrusions upon your mind, for the carnal mind is enmity against God, and that you are troubled by them proves the Spirit has not left you to yourself. The old nature will ever be a sink of iniquity; do not marvel that it stinks. Yet know this: the mind which was once holiness has now become carnal, and until it is spiritualized by the power of God’s Holy Ghost, it will ever be enmity against Him. Your very distress is a token that the blessed catastrophe has come, and much which you once valued has been swept away. It is no pleasant thing to be clean emptied out, but when you feel that if one good thought would take you to heaven you could not reach it, then you are near the kingdom.

Let your thoughts be tested by this: when your mind gets out of the prison of daily business, which way do they fly? Do they go to carnal things for mirth, or do they fly to Christ? If Christ is yours, your thoughts go after Him. The true test is not that the birds of evil fancy fly over your head, but that you suffer them not to build a nest in your hair. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you. You say you know not how to pray; but a groan is a prayer, and a sigh is a prayer, and a tear is a prayer when the heart is full. Cry out, “Show Yourself to me!” and He will come. God’s thoughts are not your thoughts; you look upon the mountain of your sin as a trifle, but the Judge of all the earth is of another mind. Yet His thoughts are higher than yours in mercy also: “Let the wicked forsake his way, and the unrighteous man his thoughts: and let him return unto the Lord, and He will have mercy upon him.”

You speak of your poverty and your mother’s bondage. Remember that the same trial may be both a trial from God’s side and a temptation from Satan’s side. But mind that your poverty does not spot you with envy or distrust. Purity must go hand in hand with charity. Use what little you have for God, but see that the rust of riches, or the canker of want, does not eat into your soul. He who feeds the ravens will not forget your need. But the greater need is a clean heart. Wash me thoroughly from my iniquity, purify me from the love of evil and make me clean, let that be your cry. You would have a work-from-home job and a better dwelling; these are lawful desires, but seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you.

I charge you, do not court temptation. You say the images pop up because of your actions; then beware of the common literature, the vanities and pleasures of the world that surround you. Snares tuck your bed and snares surround your board. But though you must be watchful, do not trust your own watching. If all power is in His hands, then to oppose Him is as hopeless as it is wicked. Surrender at discretion. O Lord Jesus, be my king. Accept me as Your subject. I oppose You no longer. When you are clean divorced from every confidence but Christ, then you are married to Christ, notwithstanding your trembling.

As for your mother and siblings, God has one mind, and who can turn Him? He will carry out what He wills. Pray for them, but leave them in His hands. May the great Master bring them and you to that state of mind where you can say, “The Lord is my Shepherd,” in the indicative mood, not the subjunctive. I will not cease to remember you before the Throne of the Infinite Majesty, whose lovingkindness owes nothing to any incentive beyond itself. He is able to keep you from falling, and to present you faultless before the presence of His glory with exceeding joy. Look to Him now.
 
May God in Jesus' name answer your prayer request according to God's perfect love, wisdom, will, timing, grace, and mercy. God is so in love with you. Be Encouraged!

Psalm 37:4: Delight yourself in the Lord, And He shall give you the desires of your heart.
Matthew 6:33: But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you.


🙏Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. Thank You for loving me, Jesus. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. God bless me to prosper, walk in excellent health, and never stop growing in the love, grace, wisdom, and knowledge of Christ Jesus. God bless me to know You in truth, fall in love with You with all my heart, mind, soul, body, and strength and never fall out of love with You. God, bless me to have an ever growing closer stronger, more intimate relationship with You. Bless me with the love, desire, strength, and the spirit of obedience to always delight myself in You, seek first Your kingdom, Your righteousness, and to always respect and obey You. Bless me to know You, so that I can trust You with all my heart, acknowledge You in all my ways, and lean not to my own understanding. Bless me with knowledge, wisdom, and understanding in all You have called me to do.

God heal me in every area of my life. Deliver and cleanse me of everything in my life that doesn't honor You. Transform and renew my mind. Bless me with love, power, and a sound mind. Let the mind that is in Christ Jesus be in me. Bless me to have and operate with a God-conscious-solution-focused-heart-mind-spirit-and-attitude. Bless me to have a God Kingdom Culture Mentality. God be with me as a mighty warrior. Let no weapon formed against me prosper. Protect me from all the plans of my enemies and the plans of the enemy of my soul. God, all that I have asked of You, in this prayer, please do the same for the writer of the prayer, all those who love and care about me, and all those I love and care about. God, please forever honor this prayer over each of our lives. God Thank You. Amen, so be it by faith, and by faith, it is so
. Prayer written by The Encourager-Prayer Warrior-Board Certified Professional Christian Life Coach. www.theencourager.net

Heal Me Lord Jesus Spirit, Soul, And Body

 
The thoughts that haunt you are a trial permitted by a loving God to teach you your own weakness and drive you to cling to Him alone. Do not despair when these images arise unbidden, for the devil hurls filth at the soul, but if you refuse to welcome it, the stain does not stick. You have already turned away for many months: that is proof of grace at work. Now you must guard the gates of your mind with greater vigilance. Fill it with Scripture, with holy songs, with the remembrance of Christ’s sufferings. An empty mind is easily invaded; a mind steeped in prayer becomes a temple where demons cannot dwell. When the memory accuses you, strike your breast and cry, “Lord, have mercy on me, a sinner,” and let that brief prayer be your weapon day and night. God hears even the groaning of the heart when words fail.

Temptation is not sin; consent is. You feel the sting of shame, and that is good, for godly sorrow produces repentance without regret. But do not wallow in self-loathing, as if your sins were greater than God’s mercy. Christ descended to the dead and shattered the gates of hell; will He not heal a contrite heart? He has promised that no temptation will overtake you beyond what you can bear, and with the temptation He will provide the way of escape. That escape is often not the removal of the thought, but the strength to endure it without yielding. You have endured; keep enduring. The martyrs won crowns not by never feeling the flame, but by remaining faithful in it.

As for your poverty and the filthy water, the creaking roof, the anxious scramble for food, understand this: our afflictions are the chisel God uses to carve His image into us. The saints of old shone brighter in their dangers; David was never more glorious than when hunted in the wilderness, and Job’s righteousness blazed forth on the ash heap. The lack of a microwave, the longing for a clean home, these are not signs of God’s absence. They are the very school of trust. When you see your mother’s struggles, your own mental frailty, the gnawing fear when food runs low, these temptations to despair are common to all, as the Apostle says. Do not think yourselves alone in suffering. Every household carries a hidden grief. But God is faithful, and He has left us the Table of His Son, the sinews of the soul, the medicine of immortality. Partake often if you can, and let it be your strength.

You wonder if rejecting that payment for your drawings was wise. It is right to want dependence on God alone, but beware of mistaking a scrupulous refusal for faith. God often sends His help through human hands. Did not Elijah receive bread from ravens and a widow? The key is the heart’s posture: receive from others as from God, and hold all things loosely. If a honest opportunity comes, do not scorn it from pride, but test it. Yet your deeper instinct is sound: cling to God in the lows and highs. That is the path of life.

For your mother, your siblings, for all you know and do not know, pour out your soul in simple words. Prayer is not an art of many phrases. The publican’s “God, be merciful to me, a sinner” justified him. Cry out from the abyss; the Spirit intercedes for you with groanings that cannot be uttered. Do not say you cannot pray; the very ache in your chest is a prayer when lifted to heaven.

You ask for a clean mind. Then wash it daily in the water of the Word. You long for a permanent home. Remember that here we have no lasting city, but we seek one to come. Meanwhile, endure these temporary hardships as a training ground for virtue. Offer your hunger, your dirty water, your cramped space, as a living sacrifice. This is true worship in spirit and truth: not outward ceremonies, but a soul purified by thanksgiving in the midst of trial.

Do not forsake the assembling of yourselves with the church that gives you food and hygiene. Let them share your burdens. And if the morning hours weigh on you most heavily, begin the day on your knees. The mind that meets the dawn in prayer is armored against the assaults of the evil one.

I commend you to the grace of God, who is able to keep you from falling and to present you faultless before His glory with exceeding joy. Be sober, be vigilant, and never let go of the hem of Christ’s garment. He who overcame the world will give you victory over these shadows.
 
There is a kind of wearying torment when images you hate keep surfacing in your mind, and I hear that exhaustion in your words. You are describing what Scripture calls the defilement of the mind. A mind fed on things that are corrupt, even for a season, can feel like it has been stained. You come away wanting to scrub your own thoughts clean. The enemy loves to take something vile and make it replay, trying to convince you that those intruding pictures are the real you. They are not. The real you is the one crying out for a clean heart, and that cry itself is evidence of the Spirit's life in you.

The battle you are in is exactly the one described where the mind wants to serve the law of God but the flesh pulls another way. The sin is not in the sudden appearance of the thought. The temptation itself is not the sin. Even our Lord was tempted by the enemy. The sin is born when that desire conceives, when you welcome it, linger over it, and let it draw you away. The moment you see it for what it is and recoil, the Spirit is giving you the victory. The fight is in the choosing. The impure mind can make something dirty out of anything, but the mind set on the Spirit finds life and peace. You are not a helpless slave. The promise stands: sin shall not have dominion over you, for you are not under law but under grace. That means the old tyrant does not get the final word over your mind.

What keeps breaking through in your request is the weight of feeling condemned. You mentioned your actions and the guilt over how this started. There is therefore now no condemnation to those who are in Christ Jesus. That is not a soft cushion for continuing; it is the solid ground for standing up again. The blood of Jesus Christ, God's Son, cleanses a man from all sin. Not just the small ones, not just the ones we can explain away, but the ugly, shameful things that the enemy whispers can never be washed out. He is wrong. The gospel declares that where sin abounded, grace did much more abound. The past life can be sordid and black, and yet the washing of regeneration and the renewing of the Holy Spirit makes us new creatures. You are not yet complete, none of us are, but you are genuinely being cleansed.

Those mornings when you feel mentally unwell, when the heaviness sits on your chest before your feet hit the floor, I understand that. The mind of the flesh deals in death and heaviness. But the mind of the Spirit is life and peace. When you wake up feeling assaulted, that is the moment to reckon yourself dead indeed unto sin and alive unto God. You do this by speaking truth out loud, even if your feelings are screaming otherwise. Tell your own soul, "With my mind I serve the law of God. I have been bought with a price. My mind is being renewed." You are learning to set your mind on things above, and that takes brutal, honest, moment-by-moment training.

You also asked about learning to pray. When you have no words, it is enough to echo the desperate simplicity of Scripture: "Oh wretched man that I am, who shall deliver me?" That is a prayer. God is not looking for eloquence. His ways are higher than ours, and His thoughts are not our thoughts. You do not need to understand why He allows the testing. Trust that the testing of your faith is working patience in you, a quality we all desperately need. Our failure is so often in waiting on God and wanting immediate relief. The enemy's offer is always a shortcut: "Turn aside from God's path and I will give you fulfillment right now." Taking up your cross and denying the flesh is choosing to defer the cheap pleasures of sin for the real and lasting life God has for you. That is a holy choice.

The crushing weight you carry for your family, the dirty water, the fear when food runs low, your mother's struggle, the deep desire for a permanent, peaceful place, none of that is trivial to God. He sees it all. Jesus, who became sin for us, who was forsaken so we would never ultimately be forsaken, knows physical lack and soul anguish. Do not despise yourself for feeling that breakdown over food. That provision matters to your Heavenly Father. While you wait and trust Him for a job and for better housing, yield those practical needs to Him. You were right to want to depend fully on Him rather than on people. Stand firm in that dependence, and watch for the doors He opens.

Lifting you and your whole household in prayer is a privilege. Keep fighting the fight. The enemy wants you to believe you are still a slave to your lust and to those old images. You are not. You are His. You have been redeemed from all iniquity. Let that truth purify your mind. Grace is greater than all your sin. Keep holding on.
 

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