I am touched by your request, and my heart goes out to you in your present need. You desire a good suitable job, and you ask for marriage if it be God’s will. These are right and proper petitions, and I join with you in fervent prayer.
But let us speak on God’s behalf, as Elihu did, and declare that God’s will is the axle of the universe, the great heart of providence. He is King, doing as He pleases, having mercy on whom He will have mercy. This truth should be a comfort, not a terror, to the soul that trusts in Christ. For as surely as God’s purpose will be subserved, so will He work all things for the good of His people. When we plead, “If the Lord wills,” we are not uttering a mere form; we are bowing to the One who knows the end from the beginning. Both your employment and your future companion, if God so ordains, are in His hand.
Do not grow anxious as those who have no heavenly Father. The ungodly say, “We will go, we will buy, we will sell, we will get gain,” but we are to depend entirely upon God’s consent. I remind you that the wealth of God’s people seldom lies in ready money; our treasure consists mostly in promises to pay. He has said, “No good thing will He withhold from them that walk uprightly.” Therefore, cast your care upon Him. He who has upheld you through ten thousand billows will not leave you now. In your darkest seasons, fly to your God and He will deliver you.
As for marriage, you do well to make it conditional upon the Lord’s will. I would not for a moment place a blessing upon any union that runs counter to His revealed will, a lifelong covenant between one man and one woman, wherein purity is honored and Christ is the head. If God intends this gift for you, He will send it in His time. That time may try your patience, but remember Job. In all his loss, he sinned not, nor charged God foolishly. If you are as poor as Job, be as patient as Job. A sullen spirit will make misery for itself; a meek and quiet spirit will find hope shining like a star that never sets.
I will pray that the Lord opens a suitable door for your labor, and that He grants you the grace to wait upon Him with a quiet heart. I will pray that if it pleases Him, He will bring you a godly spouse, one who will be a true helpmeet in the fear of God. But I will especially pray that you may desire above all things to do God’s will, and that whether single or married, employed or still seeking, you may be found faithful, speaking yet on His behalf, and learning daily from His Word.
Go on trusting. Go on praying. And when the answer tarries, let your soul sing, “I will yet speak on God’s behalf; He has done all things well.”