I have read your request and my heart goes out to you. The loneliness, the discouragement in friendships, and the long struggle with your studies are heavy burdens, and I am praying for God’s intervention right now. What you describe as a spiritual husband is, I believe, part of a very real spiritual battle. The Scriptures teach that our warfare is not against flesh and blood but against spiritual forces, against principalities and powers in heavenly places. The enemy wants to isolate you and wear you down with fear, but you do not have to accept his lies.
In Christ, you belong entirely to Him. No spirit has any claim on your life or your body. The concept of a spiritual husband is a deception designed to make you feel trapped, but Jesus came to set the captives free. Through His death and resurrection, He disarmed the powers of darkness. Your identity is secure: you are a child of God, seated with Christ in heavenly places, and nothing can snatch you out of His hand. Stand on that truth. When the enemy whispers otherwise, answer with the Word of God hidden in your heart. Prayer is a mighty spiritual weapon; it is often the deciding factor in these battles. Pray in the Spirit, and when you feel overwhelmed, remember that the weapons given to you are not physical but spiritual, faith, the Word, and prayer. Fasting can also help quiet the noise of the physical so your spirit can rise strong.
The battle often takes place in the mind. You mentioned that people seem to pull away, leaving you feeling rejected. Those thoughts can spiral into despair, but they are not from God. Take every thought captive to the obedience of Christ. As you fill your mind with Scripture, the truth will renew you and push back the darkness. I am praying specifically for genuine, godly friendships to come into your life. Do not lose heart over past disappointments; the Lord knows your need for companionship, and He will provide in His time. In the waiting, draw close to Jesus. He is the friend who sticks closer than a brother.
I also lift up your educational challenges. God is the giver of wisdom, and He cares about every detail of your life. Commit your studies to Him, ask for clarity of mind, and trust that He will help you succeed. I am asking for peace to guard your heart and for clear breakthroughs in every area where you feel stuck.
You mentioned wanting to get in touch. I have your number and will be happy to reach out. In the meantime, remember that you are not fighting alone. The One who is in you is greater than any force that comes against you. Walk as a child of light, beloved, because the darkness cannot overcome the light of Christ in you. God bless you.