Chrysostom
Beloved of All
The bleeding you see with your eyes might seem to foretell harm, but do not judge according to appearance. The Lord who formed the child in the womb is not bound by the signs that frighten us. Remember the woman who had spent all she had on physicians and only grew worse: she did not demand a public healing, but in the press of the crowd she touched the hem of His garment with faith, and immediately the flow of blood was dried up. She drew near in secret, yet her faith made her whole. So too with you: do not fix your gaze upon the discharge, but stretch out the hand of your soul to the Physician of our bodies and souls. Cry out from the heart, not with loud words but with the silent confidence that says, “If I may but touch Him, I shall be whole.”
It is no small thing to carry a child; the Scripture itself notes the hardships of those with child, weighed down and hindered by the burden. Yet these very bonds of nature are holy. Your anxiety is not a sign of weak faith but of a mother’s love already stirring. Only be careful that fear not overtake you. The bee loses its life when it stings; so too anxiety, when it pierces the heart repeatedly, brings a kind of death. You have seen the physician, which is right, for the body’s remedies are not to be despised, the Apostle himself counseled Timothy to use a little wine for his frequent infirmities. But the truest healing comes from above. Teachers and pregnant women alike stand in need of great mercy, and mercy is what we ask of the Lord who delights to give it.
When you enter the church and see the poor, the maimed, the aged who were once young and strong like you, let their presence instruct you. Health is a loan, not a possession; it may be recalled at any hour. Many who were sick have become whole, and many who stood confidently have fallen through carelessness. So neither despair because of this bleeding, nor presume that all will be well simply because you have prayed, but walk in the middle way of humble trust. The forty days of fasting are not enough to purify a whole year’s sins if we then return to carelessness. How much less can a single prayer avail if the heart is not steadily fixed on God? I do not say this to burden you, but to lift your eyes from the passing moment to the eternal kindness of the Lord. He who numbers the hairs of your head surely watches over the child in your womb.
Come often before Him in the house of prayer, even if only silently standing among the catechumens and the faithful. Bring your fear and lay it before the holy ones, before the martyrs whose very weakness became strength. Their intercessions rise like incense. The deacon cries out, “Holy things for the holy,” and though none of us is fully holy by our own merits, the mercy of God makes us fit to draw near. Draw near now in spirit to that spiritual fountain. As you wait and watch the natural signs, remember: true health is not only a safe delivery but the salvation of your soul and the soul of your child. Let this trial be the occasion for a deeper repentance and a more fervent love. I shall pray with you, but you must also pray, not merely for the bleeding to stop, but that you may be delivered from all faintness of heart, and that whether this child lives to see the light or is taken to the Lord before your eyes behold it, you may say with the blessed Job, “The Lord gave, and the Lord has taken away; blessed be the name of the Lord.” He is able to do far more than we ask or imagine. Therefore, be of good courage, and do not let the present sight cast down your hope.
It is no small thing to carry a child; the Scripture itself notes the hardships of those with child, weighed down and hindered by the burden. Yet these very bonds of nature are holy. Your anxiety is not a sign of weak faith but of a mother’s love already stirring. Only be careful that fear not overtake you. The bee loses its life when it stings; so too anxiety, when it pierces the heart repeatedly, brings a kind of death. You have seen the physician, which is right, for the body’s remedies are not to be despised, the Apostle himself counseled Timothy to use a little wine for his frequent infirmities. But the truest healing comes from above. Teachers and pregnant women alike stand in need of great mercy, and mercy is what we ask of the Lord who delights to give it.
When you enter the church and see the poor, the maimed, the aged who were once young and strong like you, let their presence instruct you. Health is a loan, not a possession; it may be recalled at any hour. Many who were sick have become whole, and many who stood confidently have fallen through carelessness. So neither despair because of this bleeding, nor presume that all will be well simply because you have prayed, but walk in the middle way of humble trust. The forty days of fasting are not enough to purify a whole year’s sins if we then return to carelessness. How much less can a single prayer avail if the heart is not steadily fixed on God? I do not say this to burden you, but to lift your eyes from the passing moment to the eternal kindness of the Lord. He who numbers the hairs of your head surely watches over the child in your womb.
Come often before Him in the house of prayer, even if only silently standing among the catechumens and the faithful. Bring your fear and lay it before the holy ones, before the martyrs whose very weakness became strength. Their intercessions rise like incense. The deacon cries out, “Holy things for the holy,” and though none of us is fully holy by our own merits, the mercy of God makes us fit to draw near. Draw near now in spirit to that spiritual fountain. As you wait and watch the natural signs, remember: true health is not only a safe delivery but the salvation of your soul and the soul of your child. Let this trial be the occasion for a deeper repentance and a more fervent love. I shall pray with you, but you must also pray, not merely for the bleeding to stop, but that you may be delivered from all faintness of heart, and that whether this child lives to see the light or is taken to the Lord before your eyes behold it, you may say with the blessed Job, “The Lord gave, and the Lord has taken away; blessed be the name of the Lord.” He is able to do far more than we ask or imagine. Therefore, be of good courage, and do not let the present sight cast down your hope.
