We have read your cry and we are praying for you and we want you to know you are not alone and you are not forgotten. We hear how heavy this pain is, the tears every day, the feeling of having failed your timeline, your parents, your career, the loneliness and the hurt from people who have been mean and bullies, and the feeling that you have no fight left. God sees every tear and hears every cry. Psalm 56:8 says He puts our tears in His bottle and records them in His book. Psalm 34:18 says Yahweh is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves those who have a crushed spirit.
We want to gently but firmly rebuke the lies that have settled on your heart, the lie that your life has no point, that you have failed beyond repair, and that the only way out is to be put to sleep or to get sick and die. Those thoughts are not from God. God is the giver of life and He has purpose for your life even when you cannot see it. Your worth is not measured by a career, by a timeline the world has told you to keep, or even by what you feel you owe your parents. You are fearfully and wonderfully made in His image, Psalm 139:14, and He has a plan for you that is not finished. Jeremiah 29:11 says For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says Yahweh, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you hope and a future. What feels like failure to you is not failure in His eyes. Romans 8:28 reminds us that we know that all things work together for good for those who love God, to those who are called according to his purpose. Even seasons of disappointment, loneliness and being mistreated can be used by God to draw you closer to Him and to shape you, and His mercies are new every morning, Lamentations 3:22-23.
We also notice you prayed to God but did not mention Jesus, and we want to lovingly tell you that it is only through Jesus Christ that we have access to the Father and find true hope and salvation. John 14:6 says Jesus said to him, I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father, except through me. Acts 4:12 says There is salvation in none other, for neither is there any other name under heaven, that is given among men, by which we must be saved. We encourage you to call upon Jesus, to believe that He died for your sins and rose again, and to ask Him to be your Lord and Savior. Romans 10:9 says that if you will confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord, and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved. When we come to God through Jesus, we can cast all our anxiety on Him because He cares for us, 1 Peter 5:7.
We understand you do not want to hear that others have it worse, and we will not dismiss your pain that way. Your pain is real and it matters to God. He wants to heal you and give you rest. Matthew 11:28 says Come to me, all you who labor and are heavily burdened, and I will give you rest. Isaiah 41:10 says Don’t you be afraid, for I am with you. Don’t be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you. Yes, I will help you. Yes, I will uphold you with the right hand of my righteousness. Psalm 147:3 says He heals the broken in heart, and binds up their wounds. Philippians 4:6-7 says In nothing be anxious, but in everything, by prayer and petition with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your thoughts in Christ Jesus.
We encourage you not to walk through this alone. Please reach out right away to a trusted pastor, a biblical counselor, a mature Christian believer, or a family member or friend you trust, and if you feel you might act on thoughts of wanting to die, please seek help immediately from a local crisis helpline or medical professional or emergency services in your area. You need people around you who can support you in person and pray with you and help carry this burden. The enemy wants you isolated, but God has placed us in community for a reason.
We are praying for you now.
Father, we lift up this precious life to You in the name of Jesus Christ. You see the deep mental pain, the daily crying, the exhaustion, the loneliness, the wounds from mean and bullying people, and the heavy sense of failure and hopelessness. Lord, we rebuke the spirit of despair and the lies that say there is no point in going forward. We ask You to silence those lies and speak Your truth over this heart. Show Your child that life is a gift from You and that You have purpose and hope still ahead. Comfort the broken heart, bind up the wounds, and pour out Your peace that surpasses all understanding. Help this dear one to know You through Jesus, to believe on Him and receive forgiveness, salvation and new life. Give strength for each day, renew the mind, restore hope, open doors for meaningful work and godly community, and help to see success as faithfulness to You rather than the world’s timeline. Put caring people around this life who will listen, support and point to You. Let Your presence be felt in a powerful way and let Your joy and strength return. We ask that You keep this life safe from harm and lead away from any desire for death, and instead fill the heart with desire for Your will. We pray all of this in the mighty name of Jesus Christ, our hope and our salvation, amen.
We are continuing to pray for you. Please keep reaching out to God through Jesus and to people who can walk with you. You are loved more than you know and God is not finished with your story.
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. Thank You for loving me, Jesus. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. God bless me to prosper, walk in excellent health, and never stop growing in the love, grace, wisdom, and knowledge of Christ Jesus. God bless me to know You in truth, fall in love with You with all my heart, mind, soul, body, and strength and never fall out of love with You. God, bless me to have an ever growing closer stronger, more intimate relationship with You. Bless me with the love, desire, strength, and the spirit of obedience to always delight myself in You, seek first Your kingdom, Your righteousness, and to always respect and obey You. Bless me to know You, the way You want me to know You. So that I will trust You with my life and anyway that You move in my life. Bless me to trust You with all my heart, lean not to my own understanding, acknowledge You in all my ways, and allow You to direct my footsteps and actions. Bless me with knowledge, wisdom, and understanding in all You have called me to do. 
