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pray as god doesn't care about me as I so desperately wanted children and god doesn't care about me or love me as if he did i would not have a bad job and have a good salary to afford a car and a house and I would have 4 children but god doesn't care or love me pray as I am the worst sinner , god healed me where is the god who put stars into space yet I can't have children and god said lou , Jerusalem and Tiberius and hasn't kept his word and doesn't care about me pray as I so want god to heal me sexulaly and physically pray as I feel so far from god and was in a bad cycle pray as I don't think if I ever will feel comfortable in myself will I ever get married as I am worthless like scum in god's sight because I am not married and don't have children and I have been demonic attack and want it to be gone pray as I so want what is in my body to be gone and the years that the locusts have eaten to be renewed and I scream for the presence of Jesus and for children out of my own body pray as it seems god loved David in the bible because he had lots of children but doesn't love me and he healed me that way for no reason and why can the heal me again pray as my whole life I have had rubbish work which has been minimum wage jobs and not enough to afford a house or a car and I can't even drive and am worthless pray as god said I would marry Lou and she disappeared and god doesn't care about marriage or relationships and no I am old and worthless pray as I don't even have enough money for bible resources or resources for the church I don't think I would ever become a pastor not unless I am married and have 2 children pray as I don't have enough to afford bible manuscripts or other things ,pray as I don't have enough for all the resource and I feel my mind has been under attack and I just want it gone pray as I want to get resources for the church such as a coffee machine and other things and resources for the tech pray as I never feel like I fit in anywhere as because I am not married and am worthless pray as I used to feel the presence of the lord but I am the worst sinner on the planet pray as I had the presence of god so strong on my life no I am as dead as a doornail and I feel that I am left and forsaken and all I want is to have children and to be secually whole pray as all I wanted to raise a family in godly ways

 

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We hear your heart crying out in deep pain and we join with you now to seek our Father together in Jesus' name. You have felt that God does not care about you or love you because you do not yet have the marriage, the children, the house, the car, and the provision you have so desperately desired, and you have called yourself worthless like scum and the worst sinner on the planet. We must gently but firmly rebuke those lies in the name of Jesus, because they do not align with the truth of Scripture.

You are not worthless in God's sight. Your worth is not measured by whether you are married, whether you have four children, what job you hold, or how much money you earn. We are fearfully and wonderfully made Psalm 139:14 and we were chosen in Christ before the foundation of the world Ephesians 1:4. God demonstrates his own love toward us, in that while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us Romans 5:8. Even if you feel like the worst sinner, the apostle Paul said Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners, of whom I am chief 1 Timothy 1:15, and that same grace is for you. There is no one beyond His love and nothing can separate us from the love of God which is in Christ Jesus our Lord Romans 8:38-39. He cares deeply for you, casting all your worries on him, because he cares for you 1 Peter 5:7.

We also hear your confusion that because God gave David many children He must love David more than you, and that because you are not married and without children you do not fit in and cannot be used by God. Children are indeed a gift, behold, children are a heritage of Yahweh Psalm 127:3 and marriage is honorable when it is between a man and a woman as God designed, and He made them male and female and said for this cause a man shall leave his father and mother and shall join to his wife and the two shall become one flesh Genesis 2:24, Matthew 19:4-6. Your desire to be married and to raise a family in godly ways and to know sexual wholeness within marriage is a good and godly desire, and He who finds a wife finds a good thing Proverbs 18:22. But your value before God does not come from being a husband or a father, it comes from being His child through faith in Jesus. David was not loved because he had many children, David was a sinner who desperately needed the same mercy you need, and God loved him in spite of his sin, not because of his family size.

You mentioned that God said ###, ### and ### and that you feel He has not kept His word, and that ### disappeared. We want to encourage you to test what you have heard and to rest on what is surely written. God is not a man, that he should lie Numbers 23:19 and His word never fails, but not every impression or voice we hear is from the Lord, and we are told to test the spirits whether they are of God 1 John 4:1. If God has truly promised you a godly wife and marriage, we pray He will make His will clear in His timing and that you will pursue courtship with a believing woman with marriage as the goal, not simply a relationship. If that word was not from Him, we pray He will heal that disappointment and show you His perfect plan, for we know that God has thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you hope and a future Jeremiah 29:11.

You have asked for healing sexually and physically and to have what is in your body removed, and for the years that the locusts have eaten to be restored. We believe God is still the God who put the stars into space, He counts the number of the stars, He calls them all by their names Psalm 147:4, and He is the one who heals all your diseases Psalm 103:3. We do not understand all His timing, but we know He is able and He is compassionate. He has promised I will restore to you the years that the swarming locust has eaten Joel 2:25. We also hear that your mind has been under attack and you feel far from God and under demonic oppression and in a bad cycle, and you scream for the presence of Jesus. We rebuke the enemy's lies over you. Be subject therefore to God, resist the devil and he will flee from you James 4:7. Greater is he who is in you than he who is in the world 1 John 4:4. Put on the whole armor of God that you may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil Ephesians 6:11. The Lord has promised I will in no way leave you, neither will I in any way forsake you Hebrews 13:5, and if we draw near to God, he will draw near to us James 4:8. Even when you feel as dead as a doornail and forsaken, His presence has not left you.

You feel your work is rubbish and you cannot afford a car or house or even Bible resources and you feel you could never be a pastor unless you are married with two children. We want to gently correct this. Your labor is not worthless when done for Him, whatever you do, work heartily as for the Lord Colossians 3:23. God promises my God will supply every need of yours according to his riches in glory in Christ Jesus Philippians 4:19 and to seek first God's Kingdom and all these things will be added to you Matthew 6:33. He sees your desire to provide resources for the church, even a coffee machine and tech, and He values a willing heart over abundance, for God loves a cheerful giver 2 Corinthians 9:7. Regarding being a pastor, Scripture does say if anyone aspires to the office of overseer he desires a good work, the overseer must be the husband of one wife, temperate and managing his own household well 1 Timothy 3:1-5, but it does not require you to have two children or wealth or manuscripts to be qualified or loved or used. He can use you now, as you are, single or married.

You mentioned feeling sexually broken and not comfortable in yourself. We pray for your complete healing and wholeness and purity, for God is able to make you whole spiritually, physically and sexually according to His will, and to help you to honor Him with your body, for your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit 1 Corinthians 6:19-20. Any sexual intimacy is to be kept within the covenant of marriage between a man and a woman, and outside of that it is fornication which God calls us to flee from 1 Corinthians 6:18. We pray He will heal any shame and restore your sense of being made in His image.

We notice you cried out for the presence of Jesus, and that is the most important cry of all. It is only through Jesus that we have access to the Father, Jesus said I am the way, the truth, and the life, no one comes to the Father except through me John 14:6, and there is salvation in no one else, for there is no other name under heaven that is given among men by which we must be saved Acts 4:12. If you have not already, we urge you to place your full trust in Jesus Christ, believing that He died for your sins and rose again, confessing Him as Lord, for if you will confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved Romans 10:9.

We pray together for you now.

Father in heaven, we come before You in the precious name of Jesus Christ, lifting up our brother who feels unloved, worthless, forsaken and far from You. Lord, we ask You to break every lie of the enemy that says he is scum or that You do not care. Pour out Your love and Your presence upon him so he knows he is deeply loved and never forsaken. Forgive his sins as he confesses them and cleanse him by the blood of Jesus, and help him to receive that forgiveness and not live under condemnation. Heal him physically and sexually as You will, Lord, and remove what should not be in his body, and restore to him the years the locusts have eaten. Deliver him from every demonic attack and oppression, give him authority in Christ to resist the enemy, and renew his mind, help him to take every thought captive to the obedience of Christ 2 Corinthians 10:5 and to think on whatever is true and pure Philippians 4:8. Father, You know his deep longing for a godly marriage and for children out of his own body to raise in Your ways, we ask that if it is Your will, You will provide a godly wife who loves You, a Christian believer to enter into holy marriage with him, and open the womb according to Your perfect timing, and in the meantime give him peace and contentment and purpose while he waits. Provide for his daily needs, for better work if it is Your will, for provision for a home and car and for the resources for Your church that he desires to give, and help him to know he belongs in the body of Christ whether single or married. Restore to him the joy of Your presence that he once felt so strongly, and let him know You are near even now. We ask all this in the name of Jesus Christ our Lord and Savior, amen.

 

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We hear how heavy this has felt for you, and how long you have carried these longings for marriage, for children of your own, for sexual wholeness and for a sense of God's nearness. When work is hard and pay is low and you feel on the outside because you are not married, it makes sense that you would feel worthless and far from God, even while you still so deeply want to follow Him and raise a family in a godly way.

We want to gently remind you that your worth before God is not measured by whether you are married, have children, own a house or a car, or can provide resources for church. Those are real and painful losses, but they do not decide your value. Who you are in Christ remains steady even when circumstances and feelings shift, and feeling dry or distant right now does not mean you are forsaken or that God has stopped caring.

It can help not to carry this alone. If you have a pastor or a trusted mature believer you can talk with openly about how distant God feels and the pressure you are under, we encourage you to reach out to them. If you have ongoing physical concerns you mentioned, please also consider seeing a medical professional alongside prayer, so you have care for your body as well as your spirit. Staying connected in small ways, even when you feel you do not fit, can also keep you from facing all of this in isolation.

Father, we bring our brother before You in Jesus' name. You see his grief and his longing for children and for wholeness, and the weariness from years of hard work and disappointment. Please draw near to him, quiet the sense of being under attack, and renew peace in his mind. Give him wisdom for work and daily needs, and help him know he is loved and valued by You today. Lead him step by step and restore hope in Your presence. Amen.

 

[Spurgeon]

Your cry has been heard, and it is an honest cry, though it is mingled with much sorrow and confusion. You feel forsaken, worthless, and far from God, as one dead and left alone, and you measure His love by whether He has given you children, a wife, a house, a car, and a well paid place in life. Hear then what the gospel says to such a heart.

Our Lord Jesus Christ Himself knew what it was to cry, My God, My God, why have You forsaken Me. That was not a cry of unbelief, but a faith cry, for He said twice, My God, My God, and kept His grip upon His Father even while He felt forsaken. At that moment the holy soul of the Mediator came into contact with the justice of God against sin, that He might bear sin for sinners. He was forsaken in the dark that you might never truly be forsaken. Think for a moment that the Father could never in very deed have forsaken His obedient Son in His purpose of love, and He will never forsake those who are in His Son. If you are in Christ by faith, you are persecuted but not forsaken, cast down but not destroyed. Until Christ Himself perishes, no child of His can ever be lost. The separation of the soul from God is death, but Christ endured that separation that you might be brought near.

You write that you are the worst sinner on the planet and worthless as scum in God's sight because you are not married and have no children. This is not how God measures a man. Our worth before God is not in marriage, nor in children, nor in wages, nor in whether we can drive or own a house. If we are children of God, it is not by the strength of the flesh in any measure, but by the grace of God and the promise of God that we are what we are. You are no more a servant only, but a son if you are in Christ, and if a son then an heir of God through Christ. God has set forth Christ to be the propitiation for our sins by faith in His blood. Salvation is in Christ, wholly in Christ, in Christ alone, and the moment you trust Him genuinely to be your sole and only Saviour, God has accepted you. Come to Him as you actually are, and ask Him to deal with you in Christ according to your actual condition. He desires truth in the inward parts and will not turn away an honest confession. The daily exercise of faith in Jesus is itself a confession that we need a Saviour, and that need is no barrier to His mercy.

Do not think that God loved David because he had many children and does not love you because you have none. The Lord's love is not measured by such things. David was greatly loved and yet greatly chastened, and his children brought him great sorrow as well as joy. The God who put stars into space and calls them by name is not careless of you. He sees you. But His promises that we may safely build upon are those given in His written Word, not impressions about a name like ###, or a place like ### or ###, which may have been the hopes of your own heart rather than the voice of the Lord. We must receive a whole Christ in all His commands and believe what is testified concerning Him in the Word of God, and there meditate upon it until it is digested in the soul. There we learn that marriage is a good gift, a lifelong covenant of one man and one woman, and that children are a heritage of the Lord, and it is right to desire them. Yet God is good to give or to withhold according to His wisdom, and a man is not more worthy because he is married nor worthless because he is single. We who are sons of God are also servants, sent into the world as Christ was sent by the Father, and whether married or unmarried we have a high calling to do the will of Him that sent us.

You ask for healing sexually and physically, and to be made whole, and for what is in your body to be gone, and for the years that the locusts have eaten to be renewed. These are right prayers when offered in submission to God's will. We will pray that the Lord will heal you where healing is needed, cleanse your mind where it has been under attack, and make you chaste and whole, keeping the gift of sex within the holy bounds of marriage as God ordained. If He wills to give you a wife, pray that He will give you one who loves Christ and that you may love her as Christ loves the church. If He keeps you single for a season, pray that He will show you how to be pure, content, and useful in that state, for every place may be an altar and every duty a sacrament when Christ dwells within.

You speak of demonic attack and a mind under attack, and of feeling dead as a doornail after once feeling His presence strong upon you. The enemy would bind the hands of Christ if he could, and tell you that God is fettered and cannot help. But God cannot be bound. The cloud by day and fire by night showed His presence with Israel in the wilderness, and He is present with His people still, even when we do not feel Him. Feelings rise and fall, but His Word stands. Resist the enemy by faith in the blood of Christ, by prayer, by the Word, and by honest fellowship with faithful believers. Do not hide your struggle. Seek the help of a wise pastor who can walk with you, pray with you, and help you test what you have believed.

You grieve over rubbish work and small wages, and that you cannot afford a car, a house, bible manuscripts and resources, a coffee machine and tech for the church, and that you do not fit in because you are unmarried. The Lord knows your need and your desire to serve. He can use a willing heart with little as well as much. Be faithful in the little, and do not despise the day of small things. To die to self and live in Christ is to yield your members in obedience where you are now, and to bring every thought into subjection to Christ.

Let us pray together.

O Lord God, who sees in the light and deals truly with every heart, have mercy upon this Your servant who feels forsaken and worthless. For the sake of Your Son who was forsaken on the tree, forsake him not. Show him that he is Yours by grace through faith in the blood of propitiation. Forgive his sins, cleanse his conscience, and give him to receive Christ with the mouth of faith and to meditate upon Him until his soul is fed. Heal him in body and in mind as seems good to You, make him sexually whole and pure, deliver him from every assault of the evil one, and renew the years that have been eaten. If it be Your will, provide for him a godly marriage and children to raise in Your ways, and if not, make his single life fruitful for Your glory. Provide for his daily bread, give him contentment and honest work, and help him to serve Your church with what he has. Lift the cloud of heaviness, restore to him the sense of Your presence, and keep him as one graven upon the palms of Your hands. Let not his heart be troubled, but let him believe in God and believe also in Christ, in whose name we ask it. Amen.