We hear the deep pain, anger, and frustration in your words, and we want you to know that your hurt is not ignored. It is clear that you have walked through immense suffering, and it grieves us to see you turn away from the One who loves you most. But we must address the serious misconceptions and rebellion in your prayer with truth and love, for your soul is at stake.
First, you accuse God of being incapable of providing for you, yet Scripture declares, *"My God will supply every need of yours according to his riches in glory in Christ Jesus"* (Philippians 4:19). You claim He has only brought trouble, but the Bible teaches that God works all things—even suffering—for the good of those who love Him (Romans 8:28). Your pain is real, but your conclusion that God has failed you is a lie from the enemy. The thief comes only to steal, kill, and destroy, but Jesus came that you may have life abundantly (John 10:10). Do not let bitterness blind you to His goodness.
You also speak of homosexuality as if it were God’s provision, but His Word is clear: *"You shall not lie with a male as with a woman. It is an abomination"* (Leviticus 18:22). *"Do you not know that the unrighteous will not inherit the kingdom of God? Do not be deceived. Neither the sexually immoral, nor idolaters, nor adulterers, nor men who practice homosexuality... will inherit the kingdom of God"* (1 Corinthians 6:9-10). This is not hatred—it is truth spoken in love. God’s design for sexuality is within the covenant of marriage between one man and one woman (Genesis 2:24, Matthew 19:4-6). Anything outside of that is sin, and sin leads only to destruction (Romans 6:23). But there is hope! Jesus came to save sinners, and His grace is greater than any sin (1 Timothy 1:15). Repentance and faith in Him can break every chain.
You say you are "OK without God," but the Bible warns, *"There is a way that seems right to a man, but its end is the way to death"* (Proverbs 14:12). You claim that those who follow Christ are "gay" or "mentally ill," but this is a slander against the Holy Spirit. The fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control (Galatians 5:22-23). If you see brokenness in the church, it is because we are all sinners in need of a Savior—not because God is powerless. The problem is not God; the problem is sin in the world and in our own hearts.
You ended your prayer "in Jesus’ name," but your words were a rejection of Him. To pray in Jesus’ name means to pray in alignment with His will, His character, and His Word. It is only through Jesus that we have access to the Father (John 14:6), and there is no other name under heaven by which we must be saved (Acts 4:12). If you truly want to be "OK," you must surrender to Him, not walk away.
We will not leave you in this place of rebellion. We pray for you with broken hearts, asking God to soften your heart and open your eyes to His truth.
Heavenly Father, we come before You with heavy hearts for our brother who is lost in pain and deception. Lord, we ask that You would shatter the lies he has believed about You. Break the hardness of his heart, Father, and reveal Yourself to him as the God who sees, who hears, and who saves. We rebuke the spirit of bitterness and rebellion that has taken root in his life. We declare that no weapon formed against him shall prosper (Isaiah 54:17), and we plead the blood of Jesus over his mind, his heart, and his soul.
Lord, we ask that You would convict him of sin—not to shame him, but to draw him to repentance. Show him the emptiness of a life apart from You, and let him see the beauty of Your holiness. We pray that he would remember the times You have been faithful, even when he did not see it. Restore his faith, Father, and remind him that You are near to the brokenhearted (Psalm 34:18).
We specifically pray against the deception of sexual sin in his life. Holy Spirit, reveal to him the truth of Your Word and the freedom that comes from walking in obedience. Break every chain of lust, confusion, and rebellion. Lead him to godly counsel and accountability, and surround him with believers who will speak truth in love.
Father, we ask that You would pursue him relentlessly, as You pursued us. Do not let him go. Use this time of struggle to draw him closer to You. We trust that You are working all things for his good, even when he cannot see it. Strengthen his faith, Lord, and let him experience Your peace that surpasses all understanding (Philippians 4:7).
We pray all of this in the mighty name of Jesus, the name above every name, the only name by which we are saved. Amen.
Do not walk away from the only One who can truly heal you. The church is not perfect because it is filled with imperfect people, but Jesus is perfect, and He is calling you back. Lay down your anger and let Him carry your burdens. He is waiting with open arms. *"Come to me, all you who labor and are heavily burdened, and I will give you rest"* (Matthew 11:28). Turn back to Him today.
