Anonymous
Beloved of All
My dear friends, I think I need your prayers because I've already seen that if I do something on my own, I always mess it up. I want to live a holy life. Jesuscentristic
. But I don't know what has happened. Now, I feel lots of temptations and not really strength to beat them. I have always been a little more anxious, but now it really hurts me. Recently, I have been so distracted by all the anxiety and stuff in my soul that I totally forgot I live with my family who needed my help. Don't wanna be egocentristic, but I can't care about anything else with this going on. I tell them nothing because they wouldn't understand. Maybe I am wrong, but I just really don't know. I thought that if I will pray for this to finally get better and it did, but now I messed it up again and I am literally tired. I don't write this so you can regret me or so I can anonymously complain
, I'm writing because I can't keep living like this for longer. (Yeah, so you see what sin does to a person:/) Tomorrow I really want to go to confession, because I think that the enemy is trying to ruin my (how to say that if I'm not English. Gonna be interesting.) motivation? Devotion? Trust? I wanna keep it. I don't wanna give up when something gets hard. I can't fix it on my own. There are many things happening that make this situation even harder, I was sick and now I'm getting well (thx Jesus
)))) but my parents are still afraid of letting me go anywhere alone. So I can't get to the confession when I think like I should. We go all together on first Fridays. Tomorrow it may be possible for me to get to the confession (priests in our school) but I need you to support me through prayer. I know that we should trust in the storms, but I'm a teenager. I'm a kid and I don't think Jesus wants this. I may be wrong, I don't know. May He give me the fire. The strength, the decision like "I'm not ever gonna sin again in my whole life" which is impossible for us, but you know. I want to change tomorrow. That confession is gonna be a turning point. Because when we confess, not the priest is giving us absolution, but JESUS HIMSELF.
) I ask all the saints to pray for me and Mother Mary to wrap me in her veil. Right after that confession, I will start another life. I won't procrastinate, I will be more disciplined (maybe this is the biggest problem) and I will be more grateful for every little thing that made me happy. The Bible tells us to rejoice more than 800 times. Stay with me, pray that I get the true regret and repentance for my sins as I crawl into the confessional and I get whole. I need the repentance. I don't know if it will be possible to go to confession, but pray that it will be. Pray for me and for the priest that is gonna confess me. I want to love Jesus. I'm really grateful for all your prayers and when I leave the confession tomorrow, my first prayers (we don't count the act of penance) belong to everyone who has ever prayed for me. Stay blessed my friends.
. But I don't know what has happened. Now, I feel lots of temptations and not really strength to beat them. I have always been a little more anxious, but now it really hurts me. Recently, I have been so distracted by all the anxiety and stuff in my soul that I totally forgot I live with my family who needed my help. Don't wanna be egocentristic, but I can't care about anything else with this going on. I tell them nothing because they wouldn't understand. Maybe I am wrong, but I just really don't know. I thought that if I will pray for this to finally get better and it did, but now I messed it up again and I am literally tired. I don't write this so you can regret me or so I can anonymously complain
, I'm writing because I can't keep living like this for longer. (Yeah, so you see what sin does to a person:/) Tomorrow I really want to go to confession, because I think that the enemy is trying to ruin my (how to say that if I'm not English. Gonna be interesting.) motivation? Devotion? Trust? I wanna keep it. I don't wanna give up when something gets hard. I can't fix it on my own. There are many things happening that make this situation even harder, I was sick and now I'm getting well (thx Jesus
)))) but my parents are still afraid of letting me go anywhere alone. So I can't get to the confession when I think like I should. We go all together on first Fridays. Tomorrow it may be possible for me to get to the confession (priests in our school) but I need you to support me through prayer. I know that we should trust in the storms, but I'm a teenager. I'm a kid and I don't think Jesus wants this. I may be wrong, I don't know. May He give me the fire. The strength, the decision like "I'm not ever gonna sin again in my whole life" which is impossible for us, but you know. I want to change tomorrow. That confession is gonna be a turning point. Because when we confess, not the priest is giving us absolution, but JESUS HIMSELF.
) I ask all the saints to pray for me and Mother Mary to wrap me in her veil. Right after that confession, I will start another life. I won't procrastinate, I will be more disciplined (maybe this is the biggest problem) and I will be more grateful for every little thing that made me happy. The Bible tells us to rejoice more than 800 times. Stay with me, pray that I get the true regret and repentance for my sins as I crawl into the confessional and I get whole. I need the repentance. I don't know if it will be possible to go to confession, but pray that it will be. Pray for me and for the priest that is gonna confess me. I want to love Jesus. I'm really grateful for all your prayers and when I leave the confession tomorrow, my first prayers (we don't count the act of penance) belong to everyone who has ever prayed for me. Stay blessed my friends.

Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have.