alexf4res20
Disciple of Prayer
Hello everyone reading this. I'm at a point in my life where I feel I want to give up and don't know why I continue fighting for my life every day. I've felt I need many people to pray for my life and to actually see a change because I've honestly felt really powerless. I believe in God. I hear the word, I hear preaching and I agree with everything but I don't feel strong enough to spiritually fight alone because of how beaten up I feel spiritually. I'll explain the situation I'd like you all to pray for as short as I can. In 2017, me and my mother moved to a country that isn't the country we're from. Everything was fine at first, my mom got remarried after being divorced for about 6 years, she had a good job but then she got divorced again in 2022 and after that things started going really crazy. We moved cities in the same country we lived but she started having many problems with her job places. Either the companies would close, the training wouldn't finish, the money wasn't enough. But there was always something wrong. This happened from 2022-2024. Two whole years facing this and during that time a lot of times my mom didn't have money because there they don't pay you during training. We had to beg my grandma and many associations and churches to help us so many times with food or rent and sometimes I wouldn't sleep a whole day because we kept having to move places to whatever was cheaper the night or week. It was hell and I couldn't focus on my studies really well, I had to restart a whole year twice and I've been stuck on it. I switched online schools like 3 times because they kept saying I missed classes. Not to talk about the relationships part. Both me and my mom have been surrounded by really toxic people in our family, friends, and whenever we're about to be with someone. I'm so tired of this repetitive cycle it's been going on for 3 whole years now and I'm fed up. I never ever felt depressed, angry, spiritually exhausted or anything I've felt until all of this happened. There's so much more that also happened but now in the present. Me and my mom came back to our home country because my grandma offered to help us but after we arrived here she's treated both of us like we aren't humans. It's like she's possessed because everyday she yells at me and my mom, everyday she says cuss words to us, she curses us out.. It's crazy and ever since we arrived here I've felt more spiritually tied and chained than ever. I arrived here in December 2024 and we've been here with her and it's the same story everyday. She judges every single thing we do and she lashes out at us nonstop and my mom always apologizes to me because she says I shouldn't see my own family do this. Also since we arrived back here my mom's health has become worse all of the sudden and we haven't been able to go see a doctor. At all. For the last few months we've planned our trip back to the country where we lived because my mom's friend offered to help us with rent for 3 months while my mom settles down there with a new job and she has many business ideas now. We prefer being there and not here because everyone in our family here judges us everyday and we haven't progressed in any way. Here we don't even go to church like we did there, we don't go out, we don't do anything. Just stay at home and I don't think this is God's will. I feel a lot of people including my so-called "family" who declare themselves to be "religious Christians" while they drink everyday, treat each other awfully and only care about someone if they have money. I'm not anyone to judge and I never have judged anyone because God is the one and only true judge and Jesus is watching everything they do and he knows who they are. Anyways the situation now is that me and my mom are planning our trip this month to go back to the country where we lived but now that we're about to travel things got a bit more unsure because my mom's friend hasn't been replying to her a lot, my mom has a slight problem with her visa and she hasn't gotten answers from it or from immigration and her health is not as good as before. I would like everyone reading this for me and my mother to have a breakthrough in our life and finally be free from all the chains, demons, witchcraft, or negative forces that are opposed to God. And also to be free from anything tying us from achieving success both spiritually and financially to be stable in both. Because of not being financially stable we also haven't been spiritually stable. We used to pray every day and after this we have only been praying every week or every 3 days depending on the situation level. In this prayer I want you to also include praying for me and my mom's trip to the country we're going back to this month. Pray for all the paths to be clear and for God's will to be above every power to exist. Pray for us to have stable rent from now on ahead and for my mom's friend to actually help us with it while my mom becomes stable with her new job and for her business to actually work well. I'm not asking to magically become a billionaire or to have no bills to pay and never pay rent again. I just want her business to go well enough to be able to pay rent and eat well and for us to finally enjoy nature and see everything beautiful God made for us in this world until we see him again. I want also for prayers over me. For my mind to be cleansed from everything bad I've lived, from everything bad I've seen and for any blockages or chains to be removed so I can finally focus on my studies, God, my mom and my true friends. And for God to make me discern what relationships are good for my life. Also for me to go to a good college and for my dad to pay my child support because he hasn't for 10 years and I really need his support now before I fully turn an adult.