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I'm sorry to hear that you're going through such a difficult time. Here's a redacted version of your message, focusing on maintaining your privacy:
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I'm scared to death. I don't know what to do or who to turn to anymore. No one knows the pain that I am going through right now. I try my best to be the normal happy me at home, but fear and depression always win the fight.
It has been 47 (1 month and a few days) days since I got involved in a possible HIV exposure, and life for me hasn't been the same. I caught an STI from my ex-girlfriend, got treated for it, and I thought it had been cured, but I don't think so anymore because I am now starting to feel these burning penile sensations that were gone.
Days after, while I was googling about HIV, I noticed that I might have been going through the primary acute HIV infection because I was experiencing all the symptoms that were mentioned. So I decided to go for an HIV test (3 weeks and 3 days after). And thank God, it returned negative. I was so excited... THANK U MY LORD! But the doc said I had to come back in 3 months to do another test because there's still a possibility that I might be HIV positive. I left the hospital so happy and overwhelmed that day; I really thought everything was okay despite my symptoms. But for the past few days, these symptoms have worsened, and I mean really. I've had a sore throat for three weeks and a few days, and now I have some visible sore-like blisters to the back of the upper part of my throat. So much pain. My mouth feels dry all the time; I don't know what's going on with me. I still have the glands in my armpits; they haven't gotten any smaller. I don't know what I am going to do...
I really need prayers at this moment. I don't want to be HIV positive because this will destroy all my future goals and plans. I really wanted to become an emergency medical technician (currently studying). And the worst part of being HIV positive is knowing that I will bring shame to my family, who are expecting better from me. My mom is really counting on me to be a successful young man (I'm only 18 years old) to help her and the rest of our family because we are not that much fortunate. LORD PLEASE HELP ME... HEAL ME LORD... I KNOW THAT WITH YOU ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE.
I never knew a mistake could have been so dangerous. LORD, I am very sorry for the sins I have committed, and I am asking for your forgiveness and that you give me the faith and strength to move on to pursue my future goals.
And God, I pray that my ex-girlfriend is not HIV positive. LORD, let her have a normal long life because she is still young and let her see the way is through you. Guide her, heal her, LORD, and preserve her... but I ask her if she had unprotected sex with anyone else before me, and she said NO. So why did I catch an STD from her when she is the only girl I have had sex with? LORD, I need to come into my life right now. I feel so used, and this burden feels like it's too much for me. My God, I know that you are there with me, and you will always be. Please, God, let my second HIV test results be negative if it is your will. LORD, have your way with me.
IN GREAT NEED OF PRAYERS RIGHT NOW.
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I'm scared to death. I don't know what to do or who to turn to anymore. No one knows the pain that I am going through right now. I try my best to be the normal happy me at home, but fear and depression always win the fight.
It has been 47 (1 month and a few days) days since I got involved in a possible HIV exposure, and life for me hasn't been the same. I caught an STI from my ex-girlfriend, got treated for it, and I thought it had been cured, but I don't think so anymore because I am now starting to feel these burning penile sensations that were gone.
Days after, while I was googling about HIV, I noticed that I might have been going through the primary acute HIV infection because I was experiencing all the symptoms that were mentioned. So I decided to go for an HIV test (3 weeks and 3 days after). And thank God, it returned negative. I was so excited... THANK U MY LORD! But the doc said I had to come back in 3 months to do another test because there's still a possibility that I might be HIV positive. I left the hospital so happy and overwhelmed that day; I really thought everything was okay despite my symptoms. But for the past few days, these symptoms have worsened, and I mean really. I've had a sore throat for three weeks and a few days, and now I have some visible sore-like blisters to the back of the upper part of my throat. So much pain. My mouth feels dry all the time; I don't know what's going on with me. I still have the glands in my armpits; they haven't gotten any smaller. I don't know what I am going to do...
I really need prayers at this moment. I don't want to be HIV positive because this will destroy all my future goals and plans. I really wanted to become an emergency medical technician (currently studying). And the worst part of being HIV positive is knowing that I will bring shame to my family, who are expecting better from me. My mom is really counting on me to be a successful young man (I'm only 18 years old) to help her and the rest of our family because we are not that much fortunate. LORD PLEASE HELP ME... HEAL ME LORD... I KNOW THAT WITH YOU ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE.
I never knew a mistake could have been so dangerous. LORD, I am very sorry for the sins I have committed, and I am asking for your forgiveness and that you give me the faith and strength to move on to pursue my future goals.
And God, I pray that my ex-girlfriend is not HIV positive. LORD, let her have a normal long life because she is still young and let her see the way is through you. Guide her, heal her, LORD, and preserve her... but I ask her if she had unprotected sex with anyone else before me, and she said NO. So why did I catch an STD from her when she is the only girl I have had sex with? LORD, I need to come into my life right now. I feel so used, and this burden feels like it's too much for me. My God, I know that you are there with me, and you will always be. Please, God, let my second HIV test results be negative if it is your will. LORD, have your way with me.
IN GREAT NEED OF PRAYERS RIGHT NOW.
