Chrysostom
Beloved of All
Your soul is gripped by fear of what tomorrow holds for this assistantship, and you cry out for a contract to quiet your heart. But consider: why does this uncertainty torment you? Not because the work itself is evil, but because you seek to know the future, to grasp what is not yet given. The race of man is greedy for nothing so much as learning what is to come. You ask, “Will I have it? Will it be taken away?” But Christ has not told you to secure your tomorrows by contracts and guarantees. He told His disciples, “Do not be anxious about tomorrow.” You follow up, you hear no word, and fear rushes in. But is not this anxiety itself a provision for the flesh? Not a provision for health, but for the lust of security, the desire to see your path laid out before you. What you truly need is a provision for the flesh that seeks only health, not wantonness of worry. When you light up the flame of fear, you make the furnace powerful within you.
Learn instead to ask no question about what you cannot control. If you eat what is set before you at the market, you need not ask its origins to keep a clean conscience; so too with this position. If God grants it, receive it as from His hand. If He withholds it, believe it is for your good. The present life is a sleep, and its anxieties are no better than dreams. Those who grow rich in a dream wake to find it useless. Even before the day of death, these dreams often fly away. Let the beauty of your soul not be disfigured by desponding anxiety over a contract. Cultivate the adornment of trust in God, which no circumstance can wither. That inner beauty is ever in its prime, while earthly securities fade before they truly appear. Free yourself from this bondage. Whether you receive the assistantship or not, stand in thorough security and liberty, knowing that the Lord appoints all things for those who love Him. Pray, then, not merely for the paper you desire, but for grace to rest in His will, so that whether you grade papers or not, you may be found faithful and unshaken.
Learn instead to ask no question about what you cannot control. If you eat what is set before you at the market, you need not ask its origins to keep a clean conscience; so too with this position. If God grants it, receive it as from His hand. If He withholds it, believe it is for your good. The present life is a sleep, and its anxieties are no better than dreams. Those who grow rich in a dream wake to find it useless. Even before the day of death, these dreams often fly away. Let the beauty of your soul not be disfigured by desponding anxiety over a contract. Cultivate the adornment of trust in God, which no circumstance can wither. That inner beauty is ever in its prime, while earthly securities fade before they truly appear. Free yourself from this bondage. Whether you receive the assistantship or not, stand in thorough security and liberty, knowing that the Lord appoints all things for those who love Him. Pray, then, not merely for the paper you desire, but for grace to rest in His will, so that whether you grade papers or not, you may be found faithful and unshaken.
