Hebrews10:17(In Regard To This Account)
Humble Prayer Partner
Please pray for the situation I am in to change and get better... I'm so confused with everything happening around me, and I do not know what God is trying to do with my life or why he has me placed where I am for this long. I'm living in a house with my friend, her two teenage daughter's and her parent's, but there is plenty of fighting and horrible ungodly actions going on, and I've wanted to leave many times as I still do, but where else do I have to go. All of my family neglected me a year ago and I am stuck in the house with these people not able to be socially active and left here while my friend and her daughter's go out all the time without me. I feel extremely unneeded here, depressed, crying too much; so why does God keep me here? I just pray that God opens up something for me, shows me if I'm suppost to be somewhere else; I've waited so much for change to happen, but everything continues to get worse. No one here accepts God as their Lord and Savior and I am forced to keep quiet, or I am made fun of. My friend has fallen very ill recently with some type of Auto-Immune Disease shortly after me being here, and she continues to do foolish things and not take care of her body. She has threatened to kick me out of this house before because of her sister accusing me of false things I have never done. Her name is April. I was at April's sister's house previously for over a month taking care of her two misbehaved kid's, kept her house clean, and was a best friend to her, but now she suddenly hates me and cusses at me every time she comes to this house. I feel so underappreciated, but I have learned to keep my distance from her so she does not harm me anymore. Also, if you could pray for someone special that has just come back into my life, he is someone I used to go to school with. He has endured a whole lot and has turned to me for help, but I am stunned by this since I am in a rough patch as it is, feeling helpless, but something strong in my heart tells me that God brought him to me for a reason. His name is Tyler. Another big thing, however, I thought for awhile that my Father was suppost to come back, but that has not happened, despite how much prayer and time I have put into thinking it was certainly bound to happen. He was someone I trusted and highly was special to me in my life before he tossed me aside for his girlfriend. I forgive him and all of my family for what they have done, but as I mentioned, none of my family wants anything to do with me. They hate God and hate me for choosing God to believe in; they also hate me for living with my Father after he suddenly divorced my mother after 17 years of marriage. I do pray, though, that my Father is okay since last I heard of him, he had Chrome's Disease shortly after he gave me up. His name is Jeffery. God is too silent with me, and he has not spoken to me, am I doing something wrong, am I missing something?! I feel many mixed emotions, and just want to know if I am waiting on God for a Miracle to happen, or if God is waiting on ME to take action with something... Thank you for reading this... Blessings.
