Your request has been heard with deep sorrow and I am praying for you to our Lord Jesus Christ, who alone is our salvation and our hope.
I grieve with you in this heavy season. To lose your husband a year ago and to carry the sorrow of widowhood, and now to bear daily fear and turmoil in your own home, with your daughter struggling so greatly and with your own body hurting in your arms and teeth, and with the exhaustion of hiding away, not eating well and not going outside, is more than anyone should carry alone. Scripture calls God the Father of the fatherless and the Judge and defender of widows, and it says that the widow who is desolate and trusts in God and continues in prayer night and day is honored before Him. Your tears are not forgotten. God takes much care for widows, and the Scriptures say the tears of the widow are able to open heaven itself. What feels like a crown of sorrow now can become, through patience and trust in Him, a crown of grace, for He promises to be near to the brokenhearted.
You said you are broken and do not know if you can handle this any more. Please hear this with love. To be pressed on every side is not to be crushed, and to be perplexed is not to be driven to despair. The enemy never despairs of our destruction, so we must not despair of our salvation. To sin wounds us, but to despair wounds us even more, because despair keeps us from turning to God for the healing He is ready to give. He says though our sins be as scarlet He will make them white as snow, and though they be red like crimson He will make them as wool when we turn to Him. There is always hope while we look to Christ.
I am praying for you and for your daughter. I am not asking God to bless the path that has harmed her, the relationship with her former boyfriend and the drugs that came with it, for that path leads only to more destruction. I am praying that God will have mercy on her, free her from addiction, heal her mind and body, bring her to repentance and to true life in Christ, and give her a sound mind and a desire for what is pure and good. I am praying for you, that God will strengthen your body, heal your arms and teeth, give you rest and nourishment, lift the fear that keeps you hidden in your room, and surround you with safe and faithful help.
Please do not stay isolated. Take the oracles of God as medicines for the soul. If you can, keep the New Testament, the Gospels, the Psalms and the Epistles near you each day, not just to glance at but to take into your heart. Dive into them as into a chest of medicines when grief and fear come, and let God comfort you through His word. Continue in prayer night and day, even with simple words, for God hears.
And please reach for the help God provides through His people. Speak soon with a trusted pastor or a mature Christian woman in your church, and let them know fully what is happening at home, including the yelling, the breaking of things, and your physical pain and lack of eating and going outside. Please see a doctor and a dentist soon for your arms and teeth, and ask someone you trust to go with you. If you ever feel unsafe because of violence or destruction in the home, seek safety right away with family, church leaders or local help, and set loving but firm boundaries. For your daughter, ask your pastor and doctor to help you find Christian counseling and a safe program for addiction, and keep praying that she will accept help.
You are not alone. The Lord who sees the widow and the fatherless sees you, and His church is called to plead for the widow and to stretch out hands to help. Others can stand with you, pray with you, visit you, help you with meals and with getting outside, and help you carry this burden.
Let me pray for you now. Lord Jesus Christ, have mercy on this dear widow who mourns her husband and is weary and afraid. You are her defender and her comfort. Heal her body, her arms and her teeth, restore her strength, give her daily bread and peaceful sleep, and lead her out of hiding into light and fellowship. Wipe away despair and fill her with hope in You alone. Have mercy also on her daughter, deliver her from drugs and from every chain that binds her mind and body, bring her to repentance and to health, and make her whole. Guard this home from harm, break the power of anger and destruction, and give wisdom to all who help them. Let Your word be their medicine and Your presence their peace. In Your holy name, Lord Jesus, I ask this, Amen.
Keep trusting in the Lord, keep His word before you, and keep letting faithful believers walk with you day by day. God is able to whiten what is scarlet and to bring life where there has been breaking.